earlymorning.wakeup, and late!
went mcd find weirong,daniel


I WAS SO WHITE WHITE WHITE.
from the jersey,to the pants,to the shoe!


dread going to jp such times luhs.so many fuhua ppl-
horrid sight if she saw me. just make sure she doesn't wear that outfit.

yihan pohhui came in time, but youren,royston LATE.
but i had colin,eelynn.
yihan said she's gonna disturb me throughout the movie.
smiled instead.
danielyeo kept crying too!! HAHA
danielchew kennethlim didnt come. why why why.

den went toysRus to get that 5dollar extra bouncy ball that I had to bring home at the end of the day.
took 157 after ryangoh kwanboon came, to court.
match after match. drink after drink. dive after dive.
shot after shot. bounce bounce after bounce bounce.
challenge after challenge. fuck after fuck. hi after hi.
left at 5.


ryagoh was a good boy.
he said////stop asking me to do this or that la. no wonder you really got problem.
daniel was a supergood boy.
save so many shots. he's so short to get those shots luhs.



it thought it was so cool to hold 8 tickets.
but jiahao has got like 16???!
imagine those slips of paper worth 100+++ dollars?
drop into toilet bowl, flush, bye money.


sucha good day*
other than silly trainings,lessons,lying ahead.



weallhaveaCHOICEfforeverythingwedo,isntsotrue?
well,girlsdogetjealouswhentheirlovekissessomeoneelse.
anditshardtoridoffthetemptations,attractionsinlife.
ifwedon'thaveagriponit,we'reboundtofallintothingslikeaggression.

As before, it has the sensitive touch about human nature.
The storyline was brought out delicately to involve the audience in the ups and downs of Peter Parker.
How he came to accept his superpowers and responsibility that comes along with it.
How he learnt to adapt to his new life as a hero.
Although he has done so many heroic acts, he's really, just another normal human being trying to figure out what living is all about.
From seeing him struggle with the triple roles of being a student, a photographer to make ends meet and also a justice upholder in Spiderman 2, to seeing how he learns to be in a relationship with Mary Jane and then how to learn to forgive and be an honest person in Spiderman 3, it left a deep impact in me.
Yes, everyone do have a choice, in whatever circumstances.
I'm sorry about the ending to the movie.
I couldn't stop tearing whenever I think of it.
Another sad character in the movie who was kind but had to die.
A pathetic character who just couldn't get over his pompous nature to work for his own reward. A helpless and selfish character who had good intentions for his own family but what he did was not the best way to cope with his problem.
And Aunt May, who was always the one there to enlighten Peter to the ways of life.
I really wish I have her in my life, as Peter Parker has.
I suppose Spiderman 3 is now rated as the top movie to watch.
Two and a half hours were not that long to go through, considering how the movie makers handled each and every detail with such care.
The fighting scene between Spiderman and the new goblin remains my favourite, because it simply awed me with the speed and crazy angles.
The humour in the movie was not forgotten, including how Peter Parker sashayed down the street.
I couldn't help but think, "Poor Tobey Mcguire, he not only has to learn how to fly and pose like Spiderman, be a complete dork and always look awkward in the movie, he now has to learn how to wiggle his hips and dance like a sexy dance god."
LOL, that part was hilarious.

Sigh. I love Spiderman 3. It was great.

copied from someone else's blog.
well written(:

whataSUAYSUAYSUAYday!
soccer after a TOUGH TOUGH physics paper.

i run like some weird wild animal.
shoot,den jump over the ever bigbreast daniel, and ---PIAKKKKKKK---
I split my pants!
damnsuay.
dan its like cut till the knee there.
gladly,weirong;daniel found me short pants from the office.
((SHORT PANTS))
some weird boy mingling with a clique of cool socerboys. HHHHACHIU
had to endure sucha horrible bus ride home.

called kfc to reward myself.
TERRIBLE..IDEA.
all the fats burned,gained agaiN! urghs.
dan went jp to meet yuwei.
FATIN&SITI we saw them!

I bought SIX spiderman tickets(:
4thousand2hundredcents. 1130
yihan's watching same time as us!

BUT jonathan team somehow humji cancelled match.

thus we went library,then basketball.
thatchinaboyispro"" he's shorter than patrick.
rough gals
1)grab,pull,hug ppl
2)step ppl's foot, uhh and punch!
came colin.and we played till 6.

walked back jp with fatin, i met my mum, in sweaty sweaty condition&topup ezlink&went home!



I wonder how someone sportheat went&how are their results.

I shld have gone town FOOLSTOP.

I rather listen to jinghui's values talk.
.....

its all better than falling down and so laokui luhs.


888888888888888888888888888888888888888888



staying flexible,ready for changes,important important.
say, we think were so indecisive. we can manipulate ourselves, change ourselves, and make ourselves decisive.
==now we own two abilities. but we've gotta be able to switch it at ease.
that's all about our youthful age, acquiring as much knowledge&abilities as we can.
then we might be on our way to someone successful in life.

JP library with mrloh. yuwei colin tammie jingyi haolan natalie ivan.
for physics/
then basketballed.
and yeah.
I might PASS Physics tml.
where am I gonna go after exams?..
msyeo priority, thats for sure.

I dreamt of Cheryl last night, somehow.
ChongHuan was with her while I held her hands.
(W#)RU() UAW(U
Why didn't I dreamt of other people instead? Hmmmmmmmmms.

After Monday, training comes first, before topman. gaaaaas.
its BANG rather than CHING(sound of cash regeister)


gonna head down the mountelizabeth for my Heart checkup.
I DONT wanna DIE ! _"

anw headed to Imm at 5 to meet glenn}fatin{siti.
...........and glenn had to heeeeeeeeHA!(karate).
he got my sweets from candyempire. NICE of him(:

i saw a watch, got two of it.
one for me, one for azhari.
10$$$$ each.;
ice-creamed and they left.
i walked, walked, aimlessly under the freeeeezing aircon and walked to the carpark for Warmth like a fool!..
till I saw Natalie&JingYi
gra. they're so cute luhs.

and they left....till finally my mum came!
ate at balithai, and still freezing, we still walk!

(:
(:
I didnt study at all.
despite all the fruitful&encouraging motivation sourpit sent me

Darryl hasnt been tagging for some time!
while
extradionary people from weird countries come to my blog! and they tag too sia.

i pity westwood&huayi&yuhua so strict on handphones.
jinghui got her phone confiscated. don be sad luhs. you still have msn n your mouth marh.
it will be returned soon! patience's a virtue right?

conclusion_fuhuaKNIGHTS are ___"


i like my new skin! what does everyone think?
these days are short posts- and more posts.
its nice typing when I get to read it on a nice skin (:

Poor Azhari
I want you back as soon as possible to create more noise!
Bulalala get well soon, to eat Mcflurry.
It's worth jumping outta bed to munch on OERO, not bird shit, Alvin.

Birdshit's black{white too, just like mcflurry.

chenmiaoxin's exams ended today while shixiang robbed the mrt at busic and suntec of petrol.


Amath is horrendous, so is jared when he wacks the ball over the fence, AGAIN&AGAIN/
I should tell Rachel there's some really cool guy downstairs and she'll chiong down to get the ball for me.

slacked at mcd with weirong yuwei.
for the 4th day running, im eating Mcflurry!(:

99ed to Imm and walk walk walk walk walk in search of that mysterious sonyerricsonservicecentre building with a mysterious friend with yuwei.
he looks like leon}

waitedwaitedwaitedwaited for an hour? for our turn to come.
ran to Imm, and Dorothy saw me.
...
I was wondering, what day is it tml./
Who was I with last year, on 11 May, and what did I do!/
Hurhur ?

eh prank me so horrendously. gargar im still a virgin larh.



7vs7. hiong ahhs.
aaron dont dare head the ball. he siam-ed.
yuwei run sprint walk, so like a horse. and he goes bragging today.
ryan's good at goalkeeper uh. surprise surprise
weirong cough cough cough while playing.
jeremy score score score score
jared run run run. and took the file from eelynn.

oh and sohchin owes me three hours for teaching her math with ___
ilove the sexyhot msyeo that makes me horny more&more luhs.
mschan too.?
mrs tay looks cute when she tie ponytail.


spidie spidie, where're you?
not in the cinema tml, thats for sure.

Remember to bring Amath & Emath file on Monday okay!
50 more files to go wors.

yaryar Nice Haircut.

We were so lucky today.
Take away climbing over the fence, or cutting the barb wire.
The grass cutters were the saviours of my day! (:

30 marks might be achievable for Chemisty, I know I know.
Thanks DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Y <33
You're so gay gay gay but i love it.
Ha

Everyone's exams have ended.
They don't have school on Thursday and Friday.
But I do.
I want spidie spidie, the way I want to slide and curse during match with jonathan on Tuesday.
I will cry, cry and cry if I collapse and die.
Nono. The world will laugh.
Coz the society will be much peaceful and at ease from rapes.
what talking me.

I know, I know, I love to TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT to you.

"wo xiang kuai kuai zhang da. cai neng bao hu ni. "

Don't be like this luhs. I still like you :D

the sun's very Hot.

DANIELCHEWYONGCHI.
made me wait HOURS and HOURS for DAYS&WEEKS everytime I ask a favour from Him.
gaga.
especially 08 MAY 2007 from 1120am to 1420pm !
HAHA :D

I'll go bald one day, from all the unnecessary stress, minimal sleep, and persistent thinking,
probably, just like my DAD.

The intelligence of humans are superb.
We can see and feel things before other humans do, and start talking about it.
That's because humans know what they have done themselves
But after seeing and feeling, the human chose not to do anything.
Ain't him the greatest heartless guy on Earth who dumped his intelligence away for sheer terrible mindset?

I love algebra.
Coz' I can substitute different values into MY own equation and create the desirable resultant and feel I WANT.

waited for daniel again. well he pangseh me again, for days or weeks in a row.
Weirong ytd too!
went mrtehtarik with weirong and daniel
--/met alvin ikhwan kuanboon
then went mcd. and i saw glenda fiona.

then everyone started to talk about mcflurry.
the oreo might come from alot of black things.
bird shit is black and white too!

Oh. and I fell down at the basketballcourt
playing soccer with Nickson and friends.

CRASHED into the mud.

Ms Tan shouted so LOUD today in 3S3 that I got SCARED during
Ms Yeo's lesson where her voice's equally as loud, harming my ear drums too.



What lies for us?
For how delibrately I've treated you for all this time, the response from you's expected.
*I have no answers for you*
That's all I can say. The most pathetic answer ever.
Just enjoy your new life the way I do can?

That "I" word still exists between us.




Changes we deem as self-improvement CAN be preceived as
"not being yourself" and "not natural" and stuff which leads to various treatment.


ytd basketballed with ryan waiseng jiahe and sec2s.
then joined weirong and yuwei with mrloh.
then went mcd and saw natalie, dorothy.

seperated by a glass, i asked her questions and called her too.
HILARIOUS !

Icecream cones with CHILLI and CURRYSAUCE = HORRIBLE!! ewwwWs

today waited for weirong yet he grrrs?
joel played soccerwhile going toilet during mdm tay lesson!
weirong desmond came later.
later met daniel trenna at bridge for ms chan!

205 met mschan at studyarea-meeting.
den had to write down which days from jan we want safra.
how to rmb?

Expressions of JJL&SI could tell a thousand words, and a story depicted.
All could have gone horribly wrong, in the aftermath.
Uhhs.
Disgraceful. I can't even lift my head up to look at others.
Implicated others, and what more could I say.
I could manage a SMILE or two, and hope things goes fine.
That's since I'm powerless to do anything.

Im now the selfcentred useless cheap Jared right.
how simple I've been for YOU, it turned out to be a wrong change.
I would be better off believing myself.

I'm not at all fir to be who I'm,
since Im so HORRIBLE.
Im labelling myself so as to recognise my awesome letdowns.

Im sucha a cold person these days, I've no feelings many a times.
Looking at Azhari doesnt help
Neither does Fatin or Isyana.
JiaHe tells me he needs a punch on his face.

People say
3S2 is bonded very well.
I don't feel so from day one.
Let's wait and see.

Went Samuel's house for dinner.
Awesome. I could login msn (:
Then came the half-hour LUOSO phone call.
And TADA its 915.

10 bucks taxi fare to gain back what little trust left's rather worthwhile.


We couldn't measure how much we've progressed today. We're heading for our aim.


Why I shot a 560 today,
wasn't because of my action or anything I suppose.

I JUST WANTED THE SCORE REALLY REALLY REALLY DESOERATEKY BADLY.
my last series turned out to be a killer one.
And it was when coachZhang's there when Daniel&I start faltering.


yeah you CHENMIAOXIN i miss you!
pool pool pool (:
you're going home tml!

Anw, flying balloons into the sky's so so so delightful (:
Dart game, Balloon letting go MUST be included for th camp!

School tml, and gonna retrieve the rifles/
Mr Yew remedial too.

I LOVE 28th APRIL LOTS.

chiong-ed to yishun at lyk 12 after glenn told me he saw tienyin.
met melvin pohhui chongwai carissa samuel & went together! (:
took pics of pohhui carissa too!
and there's this gal who's lyk TALL like a monster.
she's almost hitting the celing of the train.

alighted, and I REGRETTED BIG TIME.
samuel&melvin went down th escalator to go np bubbletea.
but me carissa chongwai pohhui crossed the road that bubbletea.
and SAMUEL told me he saw TIENYIN! urghs. i missed my dearest ever chance.
and i've gotta bring her bdae present.
BMF.


had a glimpse of the men pistol finals. pretty cool.
junhong wore a cap to cover his BOTAK-ness AHAHS
my dreadful day will come!

wenta settle melvin samuel's membership.
and that AUNTIE's nice.

DANIEL IS STILL THE AUNTIE KILLER ALRIGHT!


dry-fired and
continued being a good&sporty jared.
my rifle kept aiming downwards.
evil-ish bad.

i took off my jacket then chonwai came saying ffree lane for 10mins}
chionged to shoot 10 shots.
everyone packing den I start shooting! eg shiing

took measurement again. kept everything, changed and headed to POOL with melvin.
reina glenn came.
three games in total- and left!
walked back to central. melvin went home.
me rreina glenn took bus to woodlands.
and past by aiss again.

went straight to library.
talked on the phone and kana scolded.
did math.
samuel came, and we went book and reserve books.
didnt see KIM
but MUSFIRAH SAW HORNEE JARED!
RG left, and JS went mcd.
mcflurry (:

CHENMIAOXIN!
simply adorable though one head shotter
hehehehhehes.
we're still gonna go out together with tienyin shixiang!
study hard, sporty netballer

pohhui carissa chongwai came to find me samuel.
kfc-ed, saw RG eating.

JOKES LAUGHTER all the way to th FUNFAIR!
the dart-game's so easy luhs!.
but 5bucks. uhhhhhs im gonna have it for CAMP!
so croweded and lame rides do exist.
all the bengs and small kids were there too.

i bought TWO hotdog bread for my dad.
i sms-ed him so.
den he replied
"I dont like hotdogs lei:

chongwai walked through parcvista with me, and i met up with nadiana.
she looks different <<111>>

i've been meeting alot of ppl on the streets these days.
so FATED?
I WANT POOL and more POOL.

i shall quit shooting, quit soccer, quit as chairman of HORNEE COMPANY PTE LTD,
and be a PROFESSIONAL POOL PLAYER luhs

CHONWAI'S SO SUPER NICE.
and i miss shixiang luhs.
always at home study.
get good grades okay (:

MONTHLY SHOOT'S TML!
mine 1630
SCARY-th people behind infront me

CONSISTENCY for the three of us PLEASE?
its midyr. yet i wanna be OUT
urghs

TIENYIN.
i miss you so much!
2hrs didnt seem enough.

I scrolled through our old testimonials.
so sweettt.
we vandalise our tables, books and my musicroomchairs
"I seriously love tienyin." HA.
I rmb!

all those dates.
urghs. den one day you ask me not to wait for you. :(

you're so nice.
KIMBERLY too!
MIAOXIN. ohmy you're super NICE !

goodluck to SPIDERMAN vs ASTRBOY.

limme call myself NUTTYBOY!?
powerpuffgirls suit you!

(I rmb Roanna likes that last time!)

mrloh's ANGRY.
he wrote
VERY VERY BIG WORDS on the whole page of the ws.
as huge as fontsize100 on wicrosoftwords.

-check it out!

GLENN spilled half th bottle of METHYL ORANGE and ruined my whole experiment.
everyone's starting to leave when me tammie only still doing the first attempt luhs.
and you keep LAUGH LAUGH.
ahahhas. dontworry.
you're still NICE.
chrysanthanum nice huh

YVONNESOHHUIWEN's birthday tml right.
i still rmb her. does she?

mschan's getting more&more luoso luhs. GRRRS

ryangoh.jared.daniel.colin.yanjing.youren.jeremy.yuwei SOCCER today
then lunched with ryan.daniel.derek.royston.matthew.

DANIEL'S SO DUMB!


dan went JP buy cookies for HIM.
and saw serene and elaine* on th ebus.


saw YEETAT. KIANWEI. KAIXIANG ytd.
MISCHIEVIOUS BOYS~

AMATH MOCKTEST so not smooth.../

if you can't handle comments and criticism in life, how're you gonna survive?
many a times, you watch on tv or movies, there're many such examples.

say jame blake, the american tennis player
he started playing at 5.
but he was diagnosed with severe scoliosis and for five years as a teenager, he had to wear a full-length back brace for 18 hours a day, though not while playing tennis.

then, in 2004, he broke his nose & lost his dad.
the stress from these two harrowing events caused him to develop shingles.
it PARALYSED half his face,reduced his hearing,blurred his sight.

he must be wondering real hard if he could still play tennis.
ITS INEVITABLE TO HEAR CRITICAL COMMENTS & people looking down on your chances.
but if he cant handle those comments,
he wouldnt be in the top 50, and beat NADAL too.



there were tons of people, and buffet too ytd.
most were OLD folks, celebrating my grandma's bdae at my house MPH.
marcus cliff came late.
yingren&her boyfriend,wanting dingjie were that gladly.
urghs. yingren's boyfriend rawkz luhs.
i've got hundred and one good comments!

nigel daniel playing pool. SO CRUDE

all of us played pool for say 7 hours total?
and there's pool 9ball tour today. WOOTS

cliff topped his clas last year. IMPRESSIVE okay.
and he came up my house just to teach me maths when I taught him all the physics questions which I did for the first tym, other than those failed tests.

I try. I try hard.
If I were to die tommorw, still in the midst of trying, at least I won't be too sad about it.
If I had fear trying, I'll be a total failure in life.

At the end of the day, results are how people view you.
I'll be condemn if I don't produce.
But if I don't even try to produce something, I won't get anything by siting down doing nothing.

Okay. If I have tried real hard, to no avail, then definitely there's something wrong SOMEWHERE.
But by then, I'll be one or two level higher than those who don't try.

Hmmms. the methodd might be wrong!
so, it's up to someone to help or teach alrd.

Ever single one of us has knowledge, let it be utter shit or knowledgeable.
If we rely one just that TWO BIG people to teach, we're DOOM/
OHMY. I rather go rob a bank first before I get DOOMED/

Let it be studies, I TRIED doing this and that, my parents appreciate my efforts.
FULLSTOP. no more.
It's results they still want.
And I ain't producing it.
But Im now level two, whereby Im trying, they recognise it, and it's up to the method or technique to study alrd.

BOY A may put less effort than BOY B and yet succeed.
It's talent there.
But it's up to BOY B to train and try harder to CATCHUP, not sit down and wop in agony that he's the worst.

Hello. afterall BOY A and BOY B and BOY C are a TEAM.
each must produce. and yeah, HELP each other.
don't mention whether one is fit to teach or not.

Anw, TALENT should be made use of.
and not ABUSED.

Make use of your talent, and nurture it to greater heights.
Not because of your talents, you think you've the privilege not to do certain things.

OH. and whateer that happens, you'll always be who you always are in my heart.

NCC Kayak camp today uhhhs.
takecare yeahs.

tribute to WEIRONG, YUWEI (:

soccer's so terrifying.
had to keep our boundaries, and being accused of injuring people.
daniel slide in, if I can't dodge in time, I fall luhs.
SIMPLE AS THAT.

then BOYS vs GIRLS in soccer.
FUNNY- they only had one method- WACK people's back. esp YANMIN.
Desmond had pearls on him, and he me weirong went mcd.

it was HOT, i got Mcflurry.
STORM and RAIN followed next, im VERY cold.
natalie dorothy michelle there tooo.

walked back sch with desmond to TRY to find ryanang''s pencilbox.
NO ITS NOT THERE!
went to get bubbletea.

JOANNAH NOT FREE TODAY. URGHS.

CHAT SHOUT ARGUE FIGHT PUNCH him today.
i just beg my ass off you. keep it to yourself.

talked to him ytd.
he cried?
ohmy.

training everyday except tuesday.
everybody's getting sick.
see. see i told you. there's a sickness going arnd.
many lips are PALE.


inter schools're coming. hmmmms.
20+ traiings more?
ohmy.
RI's uber strong.

JOANNAH and the old FSC's + DANIELCHEW'S MISSED
who cares. new FSC's nice too.
HAHA

midyr's coming.

wish to catch up with many many many ppl too.,

LJ!

I DISLIKE MY NEW SPECS BADLY.

SHIXIANG how could you!
BERNICE's cutie cute. rifle spoil WOW!

WEIRONG's sucha fantastic companion,very very good friend.
HAOLAN's very adorable,nice

I think I've sat on taxi with Reina MANY MANY times alrd.
same position. and talk talk talk (:

i saw that girl. that girl. whom we exchanged glances.
looking at me, while i walked past.
she seem older than me, SMART too.
ARGHS>

and that KFC gal.
3pm+ i rmb.
I was wib ryan. those gals shouted BYE to us when we left.
interesting. she look lyk reina i rmb-ed!

bet no one would be interested&patient enough to listen to my crap.
write down then/

NYT SHOOT today!

530 woke up.
ready at lyk 615.
waited waited till 700 den can leave home, which is PEAK HOUR!

taxi go lakeholmz-pickup reina
third earliest at safra.

had to change cheek,shoulder piece,siderazor.
HECTIC.

beginning-
cant find action.
bu4 jing3 ((_not tight,stable_))

first 20 shots kanasai

till coachzhang call me out.
motivated me alot.
""""""GOT ME FIRED UP"

she said- even though so far you havent been shooting well, at least make sure you do your action well.at least you bring something away.

from then......



modified action.......



feels very tight,stable after pressing down ONCE at ONE specific position.
*daniel was RIGHT* paiseh.


then....


started shooting really well,
felt very SHARP & FOCUSED & MOTIVATED & HIGHLY CONFIDENT.

but the shots, all so VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY UTTERY EXTREMELY AMAZINGLY UNBELIEVABLY CLOSE.
a small difference between 9 and 10.



im sure this's the action i will use for the rest of the months counting down....
it's really VERY good to me, unless anyone noticing may have a different opinion abt it.


range got NOISY & DISTURBING.
IRRITATING freaks walk here n there, making so much noise.
such a DISTRACTION.
FAG.

SECOND LAST SHOOTER TO FINISH.
RUSHED ALOT IN THE END n some pao diao.
DAMN.

THAT AISS guy last wors.
sure under intense ANXIETY.



what a sport of a VARIETY of EMOTIONS>
TRULY REMARKABLE ((:



SAW BERNICE!!!
llalas. she looks CUTE =X
uhhs i wonder what ever happen to her phone..?

shot 545. bad score.
but training the same action from now on, im pretty confident and fired up.
CEDRIC 549.
carried glenn's & my jacket home.
HEAVY HEAVY.
taxidriver go long way.
EXP EXP.
alighted, carried two jackets in JE interchange, mrt, JP interchange, BUS179, RYAN'S HOUSE.
UBER SIAO!

ate at ryan's house.fifa07-ed/
niceynice(:
yuwei left for project.

SOCCERRRRR
jp-ed with weirong ryagoh youren royston daniel.
they went kfc.
me weirong went famousamos.



I NEED A MEASURINGTAPE FOR MY WAIST DESPERATELY.
I WANT MY NEW JACKET VERY DESPERATELY.

hwhwhw!

IM NERVOUS.
NYT SHOOT'S JUST HOURS AWAY.
I WANND DO WELL~
(:
joked and HIGHed so much ytd
in the range n in th canteen.

----SMACK THAT----
*--HEY HEY YOU YOU WANNA BE MY FIRLFRIEND!?--*
*****THAT THING YOU DO****

walked in th rain to mcd tooo with yanmin.
charrell n friends came

I HAVENT REPLIED MANY TAGS.
HAHA. I KNOW I KNOW.
Paiseh

98.7

SHAN WEE & CARRIE CHONG came to FUHUA today!

both look so hot luhs.

he's like 192.

im only 178.

goddie bag has got dozens of albums!

I MISS THE J R G TIMES... (:

some of the best moments we had-bugis&dottags&JEC^^

HEADLINE OF THE DAY!
took the MOST FUNNY, COMICALvideo today at the parade square
horny jiki ahhs.

The sight of everyone lying on the parade square, laughing so AMAZING luhs.

****Emaths quiz-
first four questions, i was busy doing my stuff, didnt hear the questions.
frustrating!
****Chinese test. did comprehension on wrong page
had to do two compre in half hour.
SIAO!

Jared shot 80 pellets today, plus a whole stack of cards.
Remarkable!. yeah yeah zi kua.

the SWEAT is truly untolerable!
it just keeps getting wet and it slips. harrd to see relationship this way.

Glenn piano prelim(:

soccer ball's confiscated again!
govin goviN!
why why why.


phew. had been avoiding her for so long alrd.
reason:
the cheer!
FSC FSC. U*****M and P* P****!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS =x

assembly's nicey nice.
those dancers get to touch here&there luhs.
llalala.


lunched with carissa&jingting after sch,
everywhere's packed.
secluded kopitiam's better then.


looking back at old pictures, i dont care what's happening on what day, i simply
reminisce the old days of SHORT PANTS.

dorothy's bdae.
cheryl's bdae,
all celebrated together.
jared's bdae didnt.

dorothy's bdae i oso too shameful to wish her.

shut up luhs.
you know nothing.
every sentence i say to you, just crap and lies,just for FUN.
i dont even have a single regard of respect for you.
i cant contain my VIOLENCE these days.
i wish to slap you th way you think you know everything.
talk abt others, you yourself also.

the day you go through problems of yourself, HA. i will laugh
MY ASS
at YOU.

home's the place to be today.
no soccer. (ryan asked me out!)
no shooting. (oso no jacket!)
no sex (im still young)
no singing (i dont wanna fall before i reach th audition room!)
yes homework
yes golf (i golfed ytd. so so so so nice. training at 10 works_so internalised now_)
yes safra

*--> dad sent me there. got th siderazor(spelt correct nots)
i learnt how to spell ALLEN KEY today!
all th time, i thought it was ALEIN KEY? or ALAN KEY? AHAHAHAHS.

fuhua ncc guys there for shooting.

THANKYOU SHIXIANG !!
bernice's not there.
she's there.
and he's there flirting. he's so nah nah nah.


reading those posts long long tym ago abt that issue, i find myself so stupid luhs.
cant control my fingers.


i call you an syndicate.
coz this syndicate of yours, has politics,stakes,tons of talkings,hypocrites,backstabbing,*victims,losers who cant play th game*
all traits of a DRUG SYNDICATE isnt

anw, once you're cast out, you want to be back in again, feeling that you're losing out.

I think. I think.
you're so misguided.
you force free from them, making a stand in life.
you drifted off the wrong path

but, you're happy, you're slowly getting back everything you want.
at least you made it happen.
but somehow, values and perspectives are lost in th process.
living life not that th corret way.

talking to mr ng then, made me realised how life's supposed to be lived well, correctly, in god's eyes. don't drift off to reality please.

people read you and me in a different way from what we think we are.
thats why there're these dislike for whomever you mention all th time.
its so silly - gossiping abt such stuff.


you mean you want to live your life gossiping for say an hour or so a day?
i dont know.
im sure you have your stand on comments like this.
but im talking to nicely, i mean well.

im afraid you'll do th wrong things.
im so so concerned for you.

nah. im not interested in you okay.


i just wish to tell everyone, at times, do stop at times, and do a reality check of youself.


GLENN'S PARAGRAPH.
dedicated a colour to him. PURPLE
KARATE KID HUH.
truly extradionary and proud of ya!

JARED falls down all th time.
GLENN had bruises sometimes

I LOVE MY BLOG SO MUCH NOW.
FONTS and COLOUR look so much nicer to read now.
just feels so good scrolling all th way down, reading all th old posts.

I realised.whenever my post's contents are *****(x10), it attracts high readership/ huh!

THINGS YOU DO, leads to different classification of what it is from different people, leading to different opinions, combining up to be disastrous.
HA.

anw. soccer for a WHOPPING 5 hours today.
12pm to 5pm./ yuwei's house.

beat jonathan's team 11-2.
and next, 4-2
most of th time I was keeper.
and
most of the time I was trying to wack at their players.
and
they go WOW when they barely dodge the ball.
and
it was kinda revenge.
and
i think im so VIOLENT.

but johnny kinda fired his team up in the last decisive match.
HA. but loser out.
came in this young boys.
leng leng luhs.

RAIN!

triangle passing at th void deck-
kana ole-d 5 times continously.
there was this guy so similar to wei rong.

name: wei xing
size: plump
behavious : same;bullying ppl___patrick)
looks: same type of specs, small eyes,short hair
qualities: wack and pump the ball as hard&high.


next came this malay team.
this two guys- 18 maybe?
3 or 4 ppl mark him oso cant get th ball luhs!
and they kept going for th near post.
I wack th ball so hard, no one seem to dare be keeper.
they smoke, tatoos.
i play leng leng, youren scold me!

hey i kana forced being keeper.
hardly come out to play. just wanna make full use of it marh.
thats why keep solo and run run run wack or lose possesion.


daniel and kuan boon scored countless amt of goals.
so did jared.
BUT

jared kana ole-d so so so many times
(kana ole) : (goals scored)
3 : 1


TIRED. ALL WENT HOME AFTER SOCCER.
JARED DANIEL WEIRONG CHIONG TO WESTMALL.
slack at coffeebean wors.
mac too.


WEIRONG would be my best friend in life if not for his limited freedom and time spent.
he's so much like me.
his situation, environment, emphasis, and how he's brought up.
other than im only child & his father force him study.




FRIENDSTER HOROSCOPE FOR A LIBRA CALLED JARED.
IM JUST IN AWE,UTTERLY.
TRULY TOP NOTCH.
express itself well. no further comments.


The Bottom Line
Step back from the social scene and listen to your inner voice. Center yourself.
In Detail
Constant transitioning is not an effective way to balance your life, so stop moving from point to point (or person to person) in search of answers. And stop doing only what you think others want you to do -- this will not help you reach your goals. If you truly want harmony in your life right now, you need to put things on pause and try to center yourself. Step back from the social scene and let your inner voice be heard.


-the best advice anyone can give me
-the best advice I need.


supposed to go out with daniel or mr ng. ahahahash.


http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/6531145.stm

Tears may be rolled, for how people perceive & judge you from languages of another form.
It's not nice to be read and misunderstoof like that.


A distress expression represents all my emotions as a whole, sob.

A smile generated may come from different nature, with different purposes to be met.
They may include just keeping calm, putting a geunine smile on other's face, or?


Support is essential when pursuing certain acheivements.
Seek, Identify and build them efficently, and kites will be left on the shelves.

don't you just feel wods are so easily being abused?
feel free to point the finger at freedom of speech.
but what's the price to pay for saying the wrong words these days? NOTHING?

say JARED-
he abuses the word horny so much so that it has became his identity where people close enough know im naturally not horny yet just acting.

ppl just dislike certain points of some ppl and they quickly jump to saying "I dont like him/her" or "I hate him/her"

in more practical situations, people hate someone for something they have done gravely.
probably frame him for a crime? this's a huge matter.
and yet, some people don't even hate.

but what with's those tiny little gritty details ppl have in such age that's inviting the word HATRED/DONT LIKE, leading to how you see the person.

when I hate HIM then, everything he does, good or bad, just offends me.

anw, cant we just get on with life, with all the gritty things we have that ppl aint that comfortable with?

I may dislike say, BAYJIAHE for being irritating so many a times.
but life goes on. i aint avoiding him.
I may dislike say, ISYANA for that arrogance mentioned by ms yeo,
but i ain't avoiding her, aint staring at her, its all NORMAL.

why go to th extent of DIAO-ING to announce your dislike for someone for things he has done or things he is?

HAHAHA.
FUNNY.


Tammie didnt come today.
gimme chance sit with JieXiang.

GUESS WHAT HE SAID-

"JARED, you have the potential to become a philospher if you think more"
he said that based on only one issue-from my piece of writing he saw seconds before.
I've been thinking of being one.*
but mschong says lowpay.

mdmyee in th range today
everybody shot.
coach li's BACK with his wife from JAPAN (:


Work's piling up.
I have 11 tasks for today, each may be branched out to even more questions for eg.

SOCCER's a LOVE.
June Holis- National Street-Soccer Tournament.
backed out from sithu's team.
i must not join.
inter-schools are then.
i still want to shoot my way to NATIONAL,

yaryaryar.
waitlonglong.
yuhua? hwachong?
HA. say im pessimistic or anything.
im writing myself off at this point.
but not for the rest of my life.


I PUT SO MUCH EFFORT FOR TH CONTENT ON THIS BLOG.
NOTING DOWN INSPIRATIONS I GET AS DAY ZOOMS PAST.

Those not tied down, by committments that don't stand out, will soar even higher than those who indulge in their pleasure and wilful togetherness.

Furthurmore,maturity will catch up with age whereby changes are forseeable.
Afterall, its something most can't resist from seeing living examples in every corners visible to our naked eyes and wanting to folllow suit.

It stalls us in our development, and it's painful to watch them lead their life.
Handle it well, and bright future's not far away.

Azhari's at home recuparating. TAKECARE
Felt reasonably lonely without him.
But I did still have Glenn.

The Captain'sBall game during PE was superb.
was like 4-0 den kana drawed.
I learnt from that guy from teengames.
I ran three rounds around my marker, being the captain.
he was utterly confused and bewildered.
when th ball came, i ran out, retrieved it, and pass to haolan whom i ask to enter th box.
pretty cool(:

I realised my message memory was full ytd, no wonder not a single sms.
7 new messages awaited me this morning, plus those pranks luhs.
ppl thought I was so slow.
"I love you too much to love you, because loving you's so lovely.let's love more,to receive love and feel th warmth of love cause for every minute I love you, love me for many years to come"
HA!

Sitting at th back of th class's can be pleasant.
can sms but always kana blocked by ppl.
and it somehow makes me more prone to sleepiness.
and it's also a generalisation of criticism.

I wet JunXiang's bag with my waterbottle
I wet my own bag, and my pants with my waterbottle not closed, full and stuffed in my bag.
I wet my shirt with all th sweat from soccer.
I drilled them, and they're definitely improving.

So am I, found back my actions, having more minor details to look into,
which I note down in the course of shooting.

PLEASE, come rip my balls off.
HA. I get agitated by comments coming from your teeth and mouth.



Daniel Chew's been praising my this and that everyday.
GRRRS. Credible statements in doubt.
Im making good progress.
Code of conduct, plus more thinking.
Self-control cum self-discplince gets me somwhere.

Joe's house on Sat again.
Jalan Asas's a place for us to remember(:
Pool's for us to play,learn and cherish. Let's create that proposal for mrteo luhs!
msned jinghui and cheryl. yaryar azhari had the keyboard.
i didnt cursed isyana wors.

I got KOKO KRUNCH&GREENTEA*
255. rather than azhari's nicey thick rich cookies and mineralwater
He made me WALK all th way back again luhs! grrrs. I said I was gonna blog bout it
and those girls' pretty cool

arsenalliverpool match sucha trashing.
MANUblackburn what a ENTERTAINER.
From Tugay's fuckedup acting to blackburn's overall stubborness and roughness.
it seems a happy day for all united fans and team afterall we all got so frustrated.

moon's exceptionally beautiful these wkend.
symbolises anything?

I FOUND OUT THAT...
th friendster horoscope's quite accurate.
when im thinking about something, it askes me to play it down.
grrrs. smart ass friendster!

hey.what you're trying to do to me, and what i did on him,
is of no much of direct help at all. its only prompting the person affected to act.
----but you're doing a great job. afterall its only me who can help myself.
if i cant even help myself, how do i wish or expect to help others?---

I ain't even typing anything.
I'm in of no position to comment about anything since im no better, considering too, the significance will not be met. so pointless.
I can't even read myself.

HA. I feel as stupid as I was when I smsed haolan then.
comeon' my brain cells, start THINKING and resists the temptations in life.
words come cheap. but once spoken, they weigh like gold, always being remembered for everytime it flashes itself.

self-control cum self-discplince at the end of the day, still's the key to life.
so fuck myself if i dont have it.
that T. traumatized me (this T's never appeared on my blog before)
i can't put it behind my back for everything's that happened that night.
for most, no one knows, expect for those few, whom i wonder where they bring their set of valuable gold to.
CHINA's a horrible place yet a place truly full of changes.

the best content I could come up with in a state of grrrrs right from November, you know.


1 APRIL--> 0118am MADEUP DAY!
the day i somehow felt so relieved, im gonna somehow, this time, love my DO' much much more. afterall we're a familt isnt<33

but oh wait.
TIENYIN's always MISSED and LOVED.
HA. reina saw her on th mrt on sat while i was brrrr-ing from th rain at Joe's house.
april might turn out to be th month of extradionary gentlemens rampaging earth(:

I want to plaaaaaaay!
anything will do-
boardgames or pool or horny things or skating or movies or shooting or soccer or smsing or calling or grrrs anything!

movied with tiffany*
we were mightly late for th show.
samuel pohhui melvin just sat rows ahead of us luhs.
saw alicia felicia reina yanjie farrah fitri back from gym and headed to mac.
jingyu came later and their subway was tempting.

and guess what-
i saw JINGHUI!
sherawkzmyworld(:

Your comments are no longer of any significance.
You're nothing but an empty shell, a piece of dirt whereby your comments are no longer regarded as valid in my eyes.
I'll laugh off everything you say since your words show little or no understanding at all.
You deserve no sympathy or empathy.
The best way, to help you, might just be to leave you alone.
I laugh. I giggle. I laugh my balls out at how you view yourself.
You know it, you accept it
You are too weak to change it, to own yourself.
You lost any respect or anything you yearn for from others.
People write you off and that's why no one's there to praise you for your Sunday heroics.
But do it consistently for two months or maybe even three of more,
and I'll be the FIRST to wish you, even a tounge if you want.
HA.
The last time I wrote of such content, we fell out.
But we both turned better people after that.
So let's see this time,where hatred don't exsist.
It's the war of patience.



AND AND.
A whole load of laughter bout HER in canteen with
yihan. daniel. jared. pohhui. carissa
the two fingers~WEE
"I seem a happier person single, without her"
"She,seems happy all the time"
Just regrets I havent done anything to her. LA!

Quick briefing from Ms Yeo then trip to Safra.
pretty interesting carrying stuff.
saw cedric dickson and got bernice's number!
awwws. she has a stead. ARGH
slept, ate, laughed, chat on the bus.
what a pleasent day, not including the moments whereby my eyes drop dead, not feeeling horny to gorge at anything for once.
I FEEL TIRED, so does everyone.
I FEEL SLEEP DEPRIVED, so does everyone.
I FEEL SO SAFRA-IED, not so everyone.
I LOVE SHOOTING, not so everyone.
I HOPE I WONT FALL DOWN AS OFTEN, though soccer just now.

DANIEL-AZHARI-KENNETH
<3333
today's for you.

FRIDAY-SATURDAY-SUNDAY.
SAFRA- back at arnd 10 to 11 everyday.
unlike ppl go free go JB didnt work.

I love AISS,NYGH.
I somehow miss msYeo.
zijin.shiing.brenda.henry.shixiang.carol.tienyin kim LLALALAS~!

shot lyk kanasai.
FSC you so cute you look lyk weeeees~
all the happy safra times ALL OVER AGAIN.

havent touched a single hw.
hardly helped tammie
hardly had time for arcade/pool
hardly had time to rest or chat or buildd +
hardly could find time for outings with SQ or or dardar
HA.

i want to lose weight like tiffany does at the gym.
at least choir's not that time-consuming{}{}{}

SCHOOL.
tempting to skip.
but workload'll increase + school's full of happenings and sights.
don't people miss their friends?

PT tml-230.
SAFAR tml (AGAIN_im willing)

i've got so many things to share from this whole week but TIME.
result's a time for sharing tips and adaptation.

watched NINJA TURTLES with SONGQUAN just now. 1700 show. prettyyyyyyyyyy nice!
MR BEAN sold out. grrrs
LOTSA MISSESSSS

FSC-
kenneth
chongwai
bocan

FSC-
daniel
jared
wenbin

FSC-
reina
carissa

FSC-
fion
pohhui
yihan
liyan

FSC-
liqing
rachel

FSC-
junxiang
dennis
ricky
weijie
tedmund

LOTTTTsa LOVES<333
kenneth daniel too!
HAHA((:

Too much of everything ain't good. Including the good / bad things. Realised, in a bid to change something, whereby its successful in the beginnning, something's lost in the process. That credibility

REINALDO SIS SAYS:
-- jared's blog's filled with bombastic words. and hints and clues of endless meanings
--the way you put words in your blog,the way you describe,may be familiar to you but strangerous to us! maybe someone just next to me, so someone i dont bother about(:
--- jared's frienster testimonials all written by gals. if boys,SOCCER only.

I HAVE TANNED SKIN, TALL HEIGHT,BROAD ARMS but muscular arms locked in my sights.

Gym's seem sucha place worth going.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/606/A20812862
i love this article whereby its nicely written.
my ideal.

Words aren't meant to be direct- eg "tie the loose ends"
In a situation whereby some minor details of stuff need to be done for the whole projec to be completed. The boss usually don't tell their employees what exactly needs to be done. They use one phrase"
In another situation of a love problem someone might face.You say,"I was angry at the time. But I told him I still loved him.BUT,......."
Can't you just sum up everything or the general thing in shorter words.
There's where deep vocabulary bank would be desired
You can describe someone and yet continue the sentence with a BUT or YET.
Means there's two different chracter you're talking about.
Means I can use one general word to describe or conclude both.

For all languages, it's still most imp you're understood.
But Jared's own language's somehow what Im typing all day, whereby people can't understand is it?

hey you. don't chide for my vulgar and rashful acts. coz i'll do the same too for all the wrong things you've done. you points out mistakes of others. no others does the same to you. i dont see your best friend scolding you. maybe behind the doors you hide.
AH.

MABEL'S SUPER HOT
MELISSA'S SUPER TEMPTING.
MEI TING'S SIMPLY A WANT.
M's the new LOVE.
mei xian's doesnt fetch any comments from me, only from A.

For all the eye-openers and reality check, its the way I've been introduced to the mighty's messages,going through many channels of communication say Mr Ng or Victor.

the M word, I've been seeking, many has achieved, with all the utter respect and admiration I have for. I'm in awe.

Some thoughts are raw. They don't seem to fit into pictures in our minds/
It acts as a springboard for talents and breakthroughs.

MY BLOG VIEWERSHIP. 06 Mar, Tue --> 34
07 Mar, Wed --> 31
08 Mar, Thu --> 96
09 Mar, Fri --> 73
10 Mar, Sat --> 68
11 Mar, Sun --> 164
12 Mar, Mon --> 99
13 Mar, Tue --> 110
14 Mar, Wed --> 86
15 Mar, Thu --> 57

somehow, when i dont blog, readership goes down.
WHY WHY WHY? darryl refreshes alot.
somehow, im pretty happy that viewership's going down.
i dont know what ppl does with the info on my blog!


CODE OF CONDUCT!

Fuck him for everything he has done.
I have resentment,no regard for every comment you have made.
Think got authority people avoid resorting to violence?
I'll just be on the losing end.
YOU spend 5 days in hospital.
I spend 5 years in jail.
that's just for few minutes of pleasure.
Go shake your balls, dig out your eyeballs and scram off cozI dont welcome you even with my closed arms for your fucked up righteousness of yours.
I use fuck every sentence I type, showing immense fuck for your fucked up white ass.
Oh sorry,I'll give you every fucking glare I can at every fucking moment, so you'll fucking fall off the fucking stairs and end up in my chamber of hatred and fly off to fucked land.
Reminder that your voice and body language is WOW.
I love you for every grey sharp envious hair and your hairless fat dick.
you rules are not for humans to abide.
HA.
get a hold of your emotions in you since you lost control of it, isnt?

1 tournament.
1 win
1 draw
1 goal
2 yellow cards
4 points
7 losses
many many goal conceded.
many many injuries for me and others.

TUESDAY- weirongFEVER
THURDAY- danielECZEMA yourenBALI winstonCHALET.

with winston's rock stable defence and azhari's strong promised goal scorer
its a formidable team,at least credible for the knockout stages, not to the bottom few of the group.

instead, its 4 players vs 5 for every game. how pathetic and tough it was.
WALKING seem such a challenge where swollen toe's the villian for the thing i took for granted.

spent so much money on those medicine and mcd.
went AMK hub there walk walk den took bus back to bishan park deliver his burger and
watched the final matches.

OHMY. CLEMENTI CFC team was SUPERB.
that number 9 was such a talent. my role model for that type of speed and movement and quick thinking. games moved at such a quick speed for once I thought it was at least italian league if not EPL.

not everything's been lost.
it has been such a eye-opener, doing a severe reality check every game for the people arnd me, knowing the standards we have to reach.

terrible goalkeeping, whereby knees hurt from the first game itself hampered and tortured me d rest of the tournament.
i can hardly even walk. how you expect me to run or dive to save those shots?
reacton's and running's gonna be so much slower/. can tell
i love my topman slippers.

got the goodie bags and taxi-ed back.
ryan azhari went home. i went school.
mrs tay was screaming at SOME people for playing water is it?
trained abit. but toe was hurting lyk shit.
played lame games
=guess what i was saying - read the mouth luhs
=guess what im feeling - look at my face.
=guess where im gonna throw - throwing that small cute ball arnd.

went with YUWEI COLIN CHUANHENG and that guy.
ATE dishes with rice-40+ bucks.
jokes I couldnt understand at all.

I suddenly recalled Mr Ng bought KFC in the middle of the midyr camp!

is my mind really that strong whereby things are in my control?

How the hell do you be simply happy?
Indulging yourself in makeups and things that cost a king's ransom, making you look gorgeous?
Come'on.
Where's the fucking FEEL?
Similing's free.
But how do we earn something that's free?
What's that missing feel after you ain't part of my yearn for list anymore?
Who shall be the one to relieve the HILARIOUS sufferings I claim Im going through.(I may be going through pure nothing. that's why I called it hilarious)
Those sexy gorgeous gals in town or those act ones?
Post myself this question, press for an answer, and you see a glumpy sad face again like today.
LONELINESS's that word special and privileged enough to describe the general FEEL.


JRG + A = Town
Wore Pedro shoes,longer than anything else on Earth.
He wanted to wear too!
He just got that FEEL, right?
look the middle platform train. LONG~ LONG~ JOURNEY.
reina standard ticket forced her into submission for Somerset.
liyan collected her phone on monday!
collected mine today
LOOKS BRAND NEW FROM THE FRONT.
why are restraunts everyone non-HALAL!
My swollen toe, bruised knee was hurting from injures.

BK_MCD_KFC_LJ
awws.that auntie insisted on seeing our student pass.
TOPMAN==> for my slippers,similar as azhari's one.

MOVIE((:
Music&Lyrics.
there I was,watching,missing you,wishing you were by my side, you were back home crying from tragic happenings.
i loved you from the sweetttt show.

azhari probably missed someone too!(:

its so DARK and EMPTY in there, i realised i could
change my footwear,
fuck my legs,
switch rows,
walk arnd in the side,
shine torch,
use the LIGHTER burn stuff.


I blogged as I walk,getting all the inspiration I lack in recent times.
I said no thanks at times.
There you go yar yar blar crap.
Do fly kites fucker.

5 more games if I aint wrong, tml.
AMK again!
azhari the goalscorer in, weirong the fever-ed out.
jared the vulgarish still in, daniel the chubby still in
ryan the inspiration still in, youren the BALI-ed out.
winston blew our chances. you'll know tml,A.

==TUESDAY==
taxi-ed back school after 4th game,after that talk.
saw so many ppl walking back home while I wizzed past.
mr loh didnt show my video!
EVERYONE HAS STARTED ON THEIR LAME TOYS!

went range,met S2 guys at mr teh tarik.
then I saw that chiobu, then all of them pangseh me. grrrs
went back school ate my food,
taxi-ed home.
pool-ed after that when victor,youren came.
byut those two guys,hardly look 18,walked faster than us.
RISK-ed with azhari victor.
im SMART!=P
uber FUN.
poured heavily. they taxi-ed home.

reached home,collapsed.
PANADOL-ed, headache-ed,
felt so terrible and had to endure the vibrations from azhari calls.
paiseh ahhs.
and I regretted replying her in the wees hours.
it proved costly,eventually leading to furthur measures taken,things taken away.


FABULOUS DAY-
1))just that there wasnt my smile, attributed to my swollen toe,terrible leg and wrong shoes.
2))17 bucks from BUGIS to HOME! more exp than town luhs

tml's tournament again.

HILARIOUS DRAMA DAY.
--had to miss class outing. so did glenn, ms chan--

CARISSA STUMBLED UPON A LIZARD IN E FIRST AID KIT!
I was PETRIFIED.

My Mcd burger was disgusting.
PIZZA to the rescue!

Melvin,Jared,Darryl,??
shared-5bucke each.
I ran all the way fron the junction,walking with Jayda to catch the pizza motocycle!
phew~
EVERYONE WAS EYEING E PIZZA.
Govin was in the vicinity too.
(he caught me for my outfit)

saw coach when bout to leave for lunch.
wondered if she paid reina for the nai cha.
Carissa'a bought her saviour for the misery her eyes bring.

Range's so super effing hot.
Glenn endured the dick measurement from coach. HEHES.
I sweated like a BIG panda bear.
STINKY.
I want new jacket to be CLEAN!

Mini-comp.
Obviously,shot badly,as everyone did.
HOT=SWEAT=SLIPPERY=DRIPPING=HARD TO CONCENTRATE AT ALL.
wasnt SHARP at all.

MELVIN had the worst day of his life.
--Dropped his pistol==Grip broke==Diona had a cut,smaller than a pen dot--
had to compensate her for clinic visit & for the grip/
Adelene.Diona.Rachel.Melvin.Jared__--> coach zhang's car==FUNNY==SQUEEZY
drove past reina glenn and shouted to tthem go safra.
couldnt find a clinic that's open.
silver cross exists and the attendent's nice to chat with us.
got bread and my antiseptic cream.
utterly penniless.

DEDICATED TO TAMMIE HAN.
HEHES.

THE DAY PRIVACY WAS FOUND and PEANUTS ARE UNSHELLED!
YAYS. im waiting im waiting~.

oh and:P
if you did hear properly,
i think in japan, __ really did ___]

you two are the only friends, who really do answer their phones and talk to me okay.
love ya lots.

havent contacted those few pals i hv since sch reopen.
the J R C S T


MY BLOG VISITED BY AN ASTONISHING 160 TIMES TODAY.
OHMY

SOMEONE. searched fuhua shooting club chairman, and eventually linked to my blog!

anw. since my tagboard was FREE-LY spammed by so many ppl.
AWWWS.
its my turn to talk!

IS SPAMMING MY BLOG THAT NICE?
HMMMMMMS.

DARYL.
GUESS WHAT. you RAWKZ.
WELCOMTEA WAS NICE, sitting with you!

TIFFANY-
YOU're really smart luhs. i definitely couldnt guess that was JIAHE.
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.
you know what these jumbled up words are?
they are the English alphabets!

TAMMIE-
thanks for everything you've done.
eg smacking me in class, spamming.
i return i buy da bao for you. (delivery service would be ideal)
AM I THAT DUMB? OHMY.

JUNRONG-
you look so cool during NPCC. but you don't smile!

AZHARI-for you, i updated till 2am, after ROONEY scored.
i love your house. i wanna STEAL that *100K* watch okay=X
i don't know the brand. HAHA

YIHAN-
its okay. FATE is FATE rights!
I've got jayda. anw who knows.
maybe 15 years later she might work at the same place as i do, thoughts go WilD

on 11th MARCH.
one of the boring-est day of my life.

9th MARCH.
what a day it has been, last day of termONE.

SCHOOL'S PERFECT.
[PT IN THE MORNING. As usual, people wondered why I was in PE outfit.
--saw her&stead. felt something in my heart. too late luhs. what did i tell yihan in the taxi in china!--]
MANY PEOPLE WERE LOOKING AT HOW SILLY FSC LOOKED LIKE. HEHES.
JEREMY WAS GORGING AT POHHUI PLAYING CAPTAINSBALL LUHS
later captaine-d ball-ed in that rough-ed PE match with khusni too.
Mass Assembly=No Chemistry.

I WAS LAUGHED, STARED BY EVERYONE FROM WEARING PE PANTS AND UNIFORM TO THE CANTEEN LUHS. GRRS. SO EMBARASSING. MY LEG WAS PAIN YOU SEE.
AND EVEN SHAM AND CO SAID I WAS WITH YEE WOON, TALKING ABOUT LEANNA.
I WANNA TALK ABOUT FIONA!

MEETING OUTSIDE HALL AFTER SCHOOL.
ANNOUNCEMENT WAS HARDLY HEARD.
I WENT CLASSES TO CALL SHOOTERS & HELPED THEM MISSED CLASS TOO>

I KNOW WHO JING YONG IS, WEITING!

Errands after school(JOURNAL)
Playground soon followed.
JAYDA.XIAOCHEN.CHARRELL.SOKSAN.MONITOR........many many more....

--MS YEO APPEARED--
.I RAN AWAY. wanting to spring out a horny surprise on her.
but realised no where to run too.
was carrying umbrellas under a playgroud and suffered mockery from her. (JUSTJOKING_)
BYE MS YEO~
ILOVEYOU LOTS. the way I love all my maths teachers.
includes mr chong, mrs tay despite her wrongdoings involving mr yew. (A PUSHOVER NO MORE IN MY EYES)

REINAGLENN got CHAMPAGNEnDRINKS.

WENT BACK SHOOTING. CHATTED WITH R&G THINGS LYK BOUT ARMPUIT HAIR OR PORN OR HORNY CONTENT.

TRAINED FOR 20+MINS...

SOCCER BOYS LOST 1-0
DEVASTATED DESCRIBES EMOTIONS.
DISAPPOINTMENT EXPLAINS THEIR EMOTIONS.
I LOVE THOSE MALAY PEOPLE. SO FRIENDLY AND CHAT-TABLE.
WHY DOES Q's ORANGE TASTE SO QUENCHING?

THE FOOD'S THERE FOR EVERYONE TO SEE>>
AS TEMPTING THEY LOOK, YOU CAN'T TOUCH!
HANDS-OFF, IT"S SAID ON THE ALUMINUM FOI,
WITH CHERISH-ABLE DRUMSTICKS BEEHOON KEEP ITS HEAD DOWN LEST IT FALLS PREY ON JARED.

ALL 33+ PEOPLE GOT INTO A circle.
>>/HUH-WHAT.
I WAS SUBDUED. CALLED TIFFANY(:
>>/WACKO
MISTOOKEN SOK SAN FOR XIAOCHEN
>>/daniel,yihans' games
CARISSA&JARED=BASKETBALL COURT.
almost being forgotten. the clue was hard to find.

dinner at 730.
SAMUELandMELVIN came back just in time for FOOD.
spilled drink accidentally.

SMILES AFTER THAT INCIDENT.
PROMISE MADE,
GAVE 2BUCKS TO AZHARI. HE WAS HUNGRY&TIRED.
IN THE END, HE WAITED FROM 530 TO 8+ FOR JARED.
THERE AINT' ANY WORD THAT WAS ELEGANT ENOUGH TO EXPRESS MY APPRECIATION. I WAS TOUCHED LUHS, HOW COULD I NOT.
WOULD A GAL WAIT 3HOURS FOR ME?
the way he waited for me.
and.
the way glenn waits for reina 99.9% of the tym?
after a while, it's taken for granted. isnt*?

=STAR GAZING= not with renee though.
REINA,GLENN COULD DO IT.
YANJING,CARISSA CANT.

I COULD PROUDLY SAY WITH NO DOUBTS ONN FRIDAY-I LOVE JAYDA.
ASK ME,
I FELT SWEETNESS.
I FELT LOVE, FROM YOU.
I FELT THE HORNYNESS IN ME(justjokin!_)
I FELT JA.YDA-JA.RED

went back with azhari.zhenwei.jingting
kaixin.weilin.sohchin...... followed behind.
took taxi with zhenwei. forked a dollar, crossed to road, reached home safely. PHEW.
that yishun mcd fight still lingers in my head when im out late. its fear of fearful things happening rather than afraid of scoldings.

EVERYONE WAS TIRED.zzzzZZZ
I slept on the SOFA, with soccer switched on.

SAFRA-
SAW Angie.
STARED Jodie.

Zhang touched me the way i LOL
GIGGLING all the way when she touched me.
OHMY. i better not grow fat,seriously.
coz my cargopants a year ago seem tight for me now.
I DO GROW FAT no matter how thin i look!
which's a hard fact to swallow.


I WANNA TAKEPART IN SINGING COMPETITIONS (obviously dreamON,)
and ms yeo will DE_SMS me
I WANNA SLIMDOWN (obviously eat less)
and I want DE_FOOD pills


orchard.
BLARBLARBLAR
repaired my phone.
OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHMY!~
MET LIYAN,sis&mum in the NOKIA store.
she saved me at least 30-45mins of waiting time.
since it was her turn so i took advantage of it lors.
she went SAKAE!
I went WISMA
TOPMAN.TOPMAN.TOPMAN.TOPMANX))

I bet 2 bucks with Azhari,
that you'll believe that Im alone in town on the phone
SORRY WORS~reinananana. go home so early.
hehehehehhehehhehehehehehehehehehehes.
i won back my 2 bucks!~

I Was Pretty SURE>
there aint anyone in town, who LOOKS younger than me, with friends.
that tells something about me.
same too,with azhari.
INFERIORITYimmensely. its a tough feeling to swallow,flashes of things came to mind.
i wanted to be stubborn for once, seeing if i could have the fate.
unfortuntely no, not the way i had with charlotte some time ago, at least.

CONCERNEDand ASKED,
but became a showoff.
awwws.
TAXI-ED home
the driver knows govin!
he was ex-OM in springfield, where terrible students's form part of the horrendous reputation it might own. he's nice.

went his house. sis slp. use comp.
llallas. too tired to go on anymore.

BUT 9th MARCH WAS SUCH A VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY FANTASTIC DAY.
10TH MARCH WAS EQUALLY AS GOOD.
but 2% huh.

E,AMaths hw fill my time slots everynight, unabling(there is no such word,HORNY JARED!) to update.
Ms Yeo seem less violent in terms of issuing questions as Ms Tan. Initiative to0..--.(azhari you know.)

Training ytd. Coach Zhang, Li, Jia came. went safra with them.
chatted and listened to coachLi's china HIGH-PITCHED music from his PSP. ohmy 400bucks is it?
Reach Yishun. call __. One's at BuonaVista for Dentist, while another's busy.
Didn't see Jodie or any others. HEHES. but they had some competition izzit. or else why ppl cry de.
Saw that coachJoslyn(spell correct) there. Told her Titanic's sinking.
... Got my jacket, and dad came fetch me home.
I fell ytd, managed to hide form parents.
PAIN, as incurred in match of Captain'sBall during PE, the day after mr khusni's birthday
BY....
YEE WOON!
She's marvellous. It's okay. (SHE BOUGHT ME A PACKET OF MILO!)
Iccured to me that I bought 6 packets of milo then, for the soccer boys in class as appreciation for their HARD WORK. I went BESERK and BROKE. (U DESERVE TO BE :D)

Mr Khusni's treated me meticulously.
Lotsa loves<33>
Step 1- ALCOHOL
Step 1.1 -SCREAM!
Step 2 - DETTOL
Step 3 - Square bandage
Step 4 - Diamond bandage.
Step 5 - Missed part of Mr Yew's lesson
Step 6 - Bathe without removing bandage(whatamistake!)
Step 7 - Stained my bed with blood.
Step 8 - <>
Step 9 - I want to tell everyone out there, I don't want to get injured again!)
Step 10 - Went to Guardian with Carissa to get my bandage.
Step 11 - Declared I was really really broke, empty wallet, buying bandage and scotch-tape>>

I declare my phone today, utterly amazingly is in such a unbelievable terribly condition, suffered under the hands of Jared for months(or say weeks) and received the final killing blow by LIYAn today, when she broke the rubber skin keypad!~

Comp Lab today was amusing.
My blog was spammed till my entire memory was wiped out.
THANKS to....
AZHARI.
GLENN.
TAMMIE.
JIAHE.

Butter RotiPrata's nice. from Mr TehTarik
It's oily but at least it's nicer than the HORRIBLE lunch with Glenn, harassed by them again.
its a suffering! hehes. lotsa loves to that special one.

Carissa's seem to WOW to me these days. Nice hanging arnd with her.
I shall name you the 10cent QUEEN.
coz... you saved me with 10cents for the prata.
coz....you saved me with 10cents for the BANDAGE and TAPE at GUARDIAN. its renovated is it?

Got to know who Jing Yong is alrd. MUHAHAX)
Darryl's still as nice.
Together with Reina and Glenn.
Dorothy once kissed Reina with Glenn and Jared witnessed the event one afternoon during sec2 days where my crush differed. HAHA.

holiday's schedule seem idiotic.
>>MONDAY's class outing & training.
-even the form tcher has to go training and not outing. BBQ's more feasible.
>>TUESDAY's training(9-5) and physics remedial(1030-1230) the TOURNAMENT!(morning till afternoon)
-still trying to find solutions
I PAID FOR THE TOURNAMENT, AND WITHOUT ME CHANCES CAN BE RIGHTFULLY ZERO TO MAYBE EVEN WIN ONE GAME? HMMMS. I GUESS STANDARD'S GONNA BE HIGH.
>>WEDNESDAY
-date with someone
>>THURSDAY
--tournament(whole day again)
>>FRIDAY
--YEARN FOR SAFRA TRAINING

I find everything that involves graph hard to FULLY understand or digest since sec2's graph to me was so incomplete. didnt grasp everything.

2 hours of torturous Ms Chan's period today.
2 hours of torturous Ms Yeo's lessons today.

WHY DID AZHARI GOING HOME SO EARLY TODAY?
WHY DID THEY GO SCIENCE CENTRE AND FALL?
WHY DID GLENN REINA LIYAN HELP ME DO THINGS I LACK IN INNOVATIVE?
WHY DOES MR LOH WANT US TO PARTICIPATE IN THAT TOYS COMPETITION?
I once did it during P4. quite successful with that blowing thing. cant rmb any outcome or it was even submitted.

ALL I KNOW IS,
BLOOD, PUS(??) are so damn gross.
MELVIN AND GLENN AND JARED had such a hard time removing my dressing today.
shouting, squeezing, scisors, silence, stare, starchy, sillyful.
IT WAS REALLY PAINFUL. why cant i take pain!?

A LENGHTY TYPICAL JARED'S POST/((:

Silly to blog those lame things going through my head past few days.
Khusni's birthday today...and he blanja-ed those soccer boys.
3S1 man handled him. tml's 3S2's turn?
i blanja youren butter prata.
went for a __ session with youren and azhari.
funny.i laughed at youren's expression. so dead, seeming unhappy and wanting to kill ___
azhari looked cute into the mirror.
then went mcd and hardly did our functional writing with siti,atiqah
gorging at those gals.
that whiteshirt gal. ohmy. she's hot with her height, eyeliner-ed eyes, outfit and figure.
azhari's so WOW.
the world, please shave.
oh.trenna was there too.
prefect's are really healthy, eating SALADS.
glenn was at JE.
he tricked me into going canteen with him saying a meeting was called upon.
yar. in the end, talk to isyana and knew hafiz's name, saw __,__,__,__,__(everyone) and nothing.

Friday's welcome tea!
G or H?

RAIN was awesome-ly superior heavy.
WIND seems too strong for my legs to bear.
COMBINATION is .. getting DRENCHED, sitting on wet chairs, and trying to dodge the WATER. CHAOTIC.
zian, chuan heng, denis, weijie, XiaoChen was there. she seem sad. sad.asd

Im too LAZY for nice posts anyway.

But things I want to say, I'll just tell the people who shld know and let's see how it goes about.

soccer's awesome.
sithu.edwin.hakim.sham.redhwan.hiroki.kenneth.junwen.kokleong.huayiguy.aaron....(more)
jared.ryangoh.youren.daniel.royston.winston.haziq.sydiq.yanjing.
20+ ppl. so so awesome. and i took over from ryan to organize it?

played at SP,commonwealth,IMM streetsoccer court.
made YouRen infuriated.
leng leng luhs. anyhow reckless luhs. so hot wors.
then came this physical team, twice ryan's size, and as physical,tough as me,faster than sithu,wacks as hard as me,.
it was war. we just anyhow clear the ball.
daniel-keep just threw the damn ball.
they could have scored lyk 10+ goals. all over. wack too hard liaos.
but lotsa credit to daniel. got down really amazingly well.
in the end, we tyco won 3-2 sydiq hat-trick.

one incident-
i ran at lyk 1m/s to this guy. and slide(on concrete floor)
I was held, and fell on my head
pain pain. lucky JH aint JT.
bruised my knees, arms too.
always ready from a fight from those effing physical cocky arrogant teams.

but with my capabilities, i can only play in small places.
big full field- not enough stamina even for 10mins to play at my top level((I THINK))

HW's waiting.

azhari.yanjing.jared.may.leanna.
went mcd,then her house.
project-ed (THE LAPTOPED HANGED AND HANGED)
UNO-ed (I WAS THE GREATEST LOSER!)
BLACKJACK-ed (HARDLY EVEN PLAYED TWO GAMES)
HEART-ATTACK-ed (FUNNY.FUN.FANTASTIC)
TRUTHorDARE-ed (LOTSA CONFESSIONS AND INTIMACY.
MCD-ed (AGAIN)
then MCD-ed (AGAIN with azhari)
HOME!( AGAIN AND AGAIN)
her dad's gonna scold her for not wanting us to leave and continue playing.
her family's a shock to me. nationality and a pair of twins!
i have to summarise.

realised-->
dont update=low reader-ship.
results are all up&coming.
tense moments ahead.
its tense when you don't prepare well.
type of marks you get reflects amt of effort put in***** SO TRUE.
quoted from Mr Yew anw.
I seem to like him.
but imagine him re-service.
talking to his SIr in that soft tone.

IHAVE PLENTY TO DESCRIBE BOUT MYSELF.
HoW TERRIBLE OR HORRIBLE I MAY BE, AND START DRAWING COMPARISONS,
AND THINKING HOW I GET BACK TO tHAT LEVEL.

i wanna hold you hand~

Lionel's like coming back to school all the time.
Fretting over A Maths marks collection.
Japan pics are making me lively. And I printed some pics to bring to school(Mr Loh's one today!)

My perspective in life's wrong.
And coming to a month after what Glenn said then, those words still stand./
I'm still aiming for calmness, to think-
think before you do things.
and think about decisions, what's right&wrong and stuff.
everything.
I hardly ever think these days. So simple.
I feel so stupid, dumb, silly and useless.
I rather think vigrously, keep my mind alive at least. ( I WANT IT BADLY)

Okay. Maybe I shld take back some sentences.
I twisted it too much. Muz exaggerate to blow things up marh like for every other things.

SingaporePoly pitch will be wet and soggy if it continues to rain rain rain non-stop.

Someone's mum on leave till like __th of March!
WDH.

My 101th post.
Imiss ShiXiang and MrNg.
Samuel Joannah too.
See the common thing in them?

Still doing A maths. Taking hours to do luhs.
Haven't studied, not revise Physics yet.
Everyone rmb to bring HealthBooklet!

To add on, it all came down to ONE incident this week.
ONE morning. ONE incident.
You knew too much, or that inquisitiveness to want to probe too much to pronpt me to flare.
Well you're too HIGH in status and quite ridiculous for me to inform you directly.
You're the master of ************.
Oh and another you aren't better.
I pretended I didn't know what you did.

I don't care. Im replying here.
I've never been afraid to express any opinions, whatever nature they may be.
They may be the most one-sided or most biased ones.
Only you can tell what they are. I can't, since it seems it's my flaw.
All I can say is come rip my balls off if you're willing.
You're just too intruding for someone I want to know.
Things I wanna say, I tell it to the whole world.
You don't see me telling ONE person only.
It may be delibrate.
have your own verdict.
I shall say no word to defend myself.


((sometimes consequences, of things I delibrately do, may be something i want?))
im evil=X

I ain't feeling good, life's screwed, in every aspect of my life(I've been repeating this for so long)
More self-aware of my efforts academically now.
More willing to work, with my mindset, to get what I want.
Marks reflect how much effort we put in.
And I know, after the failures I can expect in this CT, I really can forsee not miracles, but geunine being down to earth.
I want. I want to get back what I deserve, what I want, with every skill I own.
Or sad to say, even what I used to be.
It shows how much I've back-tracked.
Tough, but guidance may play a vital part.
Now time's to worry about my jacket again.

That effing bitch.
You say I did this or said that.
Limme ask bout you.
The day hatred fills your life will be upcoming. I'm waiting.

I've lost in battles that life at 15 offers.

I miss Japan days.
October, or November was the turning point.
It could be 2 October.
I know.
I know.
.............

JiaHao.YouRen came to the house, 14 floors above the crime scene.
YR left his keys here again, glad I didn't have to throw it down.

And a girl got pregnant at 9, headlines of NewPaper.
Haix,. SUPER SUPER HORNY.

I'm getting horny, everyday, thanks to Glenn.

SO SCARY LUHS.
MY BLOG WAS VISITED 70 TIMES SO FAR TODAY.
WHAT A SUDDEN INCREASE.
IM STARTLED.

Not a pleasent day today at all.
Today's a day I'm gonna overturn.
Aint gonna surrdener to her wishes.
as long two person still in love, i guess things still do happen rights.
the kiss will come sooon.....
Frustrations,sorrow,sadness buried in soccer.
played like siao ta bor.

and one incident-
i was running backwards, only looking at the ball, not looking at who's behind me.
and the person behind me was laughing like hell when he saw me running backwards aimlessly and looking like a fool luhs.

my team improved wors. proud(!)

And I've never so much money in school okay.
those 300+ bucks collected for maths.
ms yeo's nice. but why didnt any of her relationships went through during her youth?(she shud have barh)

I gained like tons of KILOGRAMS (SI UNIT FOR MASS ) after the NY period.
But I can still afford to run like a crazy mad horny bull.

I ain't that friendly anymore. Anger and temper management. Or shld I say,
-OUTSPOKENNESS-MANAGEMENT-

ImissMRNG.
ImissHER.
ImissGLENN,AZHARI.
(one's smitten with someone,still,despite all happenings)
(another,has his crush unvealed)
FUNNY.

saw Kenneth and Daniel after school at the porch.
They carried the rifle,pistol,tripod.
My trademark hand signs before wanting to tell the wall Im so damn horny-ly tired that I can hardly carry my school bag after that sweat-prone match,which lasted over an hour.
by 45 mins, everyone faded alrd luhs.

Tribute to darryl.
and.
thanks to azhari, for just now.

that bloodly bastard.
stop going arnd with those pair of humongous eyes, staring at things which you know alot about.
stop going arnd asking,talking, and intruding and interferring with stuff.
it may seem okay. but it just aint comfortable.
im close beside you all the time,
you think you're in control of everything.
you just need someone to rant stuff in your face, to realise things.
oh sorry. i dislike you.

RAIN RAIN RAIN.
I was still talking about soccer tactics and commenting about the ArsenalChelsea game in the RAIN and it went THUNDER and LIGHTNING.
I shld have ran for my life, instead of being so silly to take a brisk walk in the RAIN.

Met that __ guy.
Talked about God. He's so boring. Mr Ng's one is with more content and HIGH entertainment ratings.
Those bridge between the god, alrd listenned before during that church camp.
--Cliff needed to bring a friend along for the last night of his ChurchCamp.

Cliff:" CAN I BRING MY UNCLE?"
The Special One" NO. HE'S TOO OLD."
Cliff:" NO. HE'S AS AGE AS ME, BUT YOUNGER BY FEW MONTHS"
The Special One:" THEN HE'S SUCH A SPECIAL BOY. BRING HIM TO ME!"

And TADA.! Recalled that floorball game.
Hilarious cum interesting, but what await me later on was one-to-one talks with the Christians.
ARghs.It took like an hour? I sat there, nodded my head to everything. I was in PrimarySchool hello?

Match on Saturday-
Againest NewTown Sec and BoonLay Sec.
I asked Sham's team along too.
Azhari,Haziq's on my team. WEEES(:
Have to meet at 830 at Dover. It's super EARLY.
It's like monthly shoot wors.

Couldn't get to accompany her today.
Mr Loh was infuriated for the test.
Ended at 3 and she WAS at the playground.
Her phone dropped into the drain of confessions,again.
Words of me, revealed,again.

I never knew I had such avid readers like Darryl ever since Diona or Tammie(that's all I know), in the PAST.
EVERYONE'S BUSY. Most, with MATHS.

Jared, the utility man.
Better than Ballack Beckham and some said not Bergkamp.
I can play keeper with my height.
I can play defence with my physical approach.
I can play midfield with my expectations,visions-passing and runs, layoffs for me.
I can play striker with my pace and the ability to hold on defenders.(not recommended)
LLALALAS.
I rather play a MAN, who ain't SHY, who is FAST, and is HORNY.

Chemistry's tml. And I can't be bothered to read up anything on eves of exams.
Pointless, I thought, even though if argued, limited knowledge could be acquired last minute.


AMATHS TODAY, WILL GET ME AT LEAST A 33 OF 50 WHEN OTHER SEEM DOUBTFUL OF A PASS.
SS TODAY, WILL GET ME AN AVERAGE MARK THOUGH WRITING 6PAGES?
I DON't KNOW.

I JUST MISS WATER FIGHTS((:

PATIENCE is key
OVER-DOING equates making things much much worse.

Jared wasted his day today/
Jia Hao didn't want to come coz nobody.
I rejected Azhari. X)
In the end, I wasted my whole Sunday.
I shld have gone MS luhs!
but i think im oo poor to pay that 10bucks luhs.
plus the rental i thought i need to pay but not anymore.

Azhari came all the way from BBK to JURONG.
He took 999999999billion years to take the MRT.
GOVIN is who we saw! He's cute with his wife(:
MCD is where we went.
FILEToFISH is what we ate.
4pm is when we finished
HAZIQ is who we called down to join us
GLENN is who we called along.

THAT PLACE WHERE I HURT MY LEG AND COULDNT WALK WHILE PLAYING SOCCER DURING P6,DURING JOSHUA'S BBQ
was
the place we played soccer again.

WHY do I play differently, receiving different comments when play at different place?
Is it how comfortable we get at certain places?
After all my house's the place where i played all my soccer.
..

GLENN&HAZIQ went back at 6,
A and J went library.
did ms tan's ws.
that bloody indian security guard's still working. WHY!
that gal in the library-was fang ying(i think)
and i didnt smell her ass okay..(( WHY WOULD I WANT TO! ))
i was looking at tennis!
chatted and drew on the wall.
CA,JT(crossmultiply)
HEHES.
listened to those oldies and threw paper balls like 2D did last year.
AZHARI SAID"~~I FIND IT PLEASANT BEING WITH YOU~~"

HAPPY's the word to describe my emotions after she
smsed me first, and being more open.
hehes. her blog's too sweet for any hersheys or royce.

I WANT MORE WATERFIGHTS.!!X)

Samuel issue. Team of four, cried.

I don't care who reads my blog.
May it be any teacher or the person I hate most.
All I want is, to get my thoughts out through this blog, and that does helps me in some way or another to solve any troubles I have.

Stop harping on the past, and yet claiming you ain't comparing.
Don't look back and say they WERE so fantastic, and looking at us commenting how terrible we ARE/might be.
Setting your bar of expectation high from your previous experience.
It's normal but yet it's gonna stop one day. Two months is very SHORT. WOW.
YOU hardly settled and thought about making a stand on your way and views.
Sit down, take time and know your stuff well enough before making your next move.


My new shoe's humongous.
Blisters meant I faced difficulty walking.
Meraculously, 5mins53secs was how FAST I was.
I ain't slow in everything, Tiffany.
(though my replies take 9561564643213years rightX)

THREE general comments for me today from THREE different people with THREE different purposes and in THREE different scenrios.

For SHOW & TELL.
Hilarious is what I'm. That's good I suppose.
I thought I did pretty well, achieved my main WANT.
Getting their attention before unleashing good English at next attempt seems alright.
I thought I did pretty well, awaiting for the final verdict of where I stand in the class.
I can't wait for JieXiang's one.
Might he bring a space model to school and share it with us?

We once shared the same vision,goal that's existant in you all the time, including those after camp(i have a few camps.guess which!)
Somehow,something happened.
I cursed and sweared.
I yelled and glared.
I hated and am in a state where I've no sympathy for you anymore.
I'm aware of what you're going through.
It happened to me too. I decided it shall be a balance.
I think you should know how to manage those things better.
With your right intentions, those unfairness treatment towards you should not come.
Change youself a little. But that comes with interaction and sharing.
It's like diffusion. You give some. You take in some.
You learn from those you take in(what others say luhs)and you would've be mighty now.

I still see myself as a key person.
If I still am problematic, it's hard for us, as a whole to work.
That's unless getting rid of me luhs.
If I'm alright, I'm confident I can make everything alright,together with HIM.


But I do know, Ms Chan's still our beloved Ms Chan.
Lengthy talk with us for like THREE hours?
3 to 6. It was fruitful.


I gave you those, at least expecting you to keep it well and only between US.
Being such easily accessible, can I thus imply you want to share your love with everyone or inmaturity sums it up?
Hmmms

Imissher(:
my c2g2.

I asked you down to the canteen.
You did, 10 mintues later when I already had my company.
I already walked past and ran away from HER when you came.
And once you came, you ran to those SUPERSTARS and WOW-ed them.

YuWei.Daniel.WeiRong.Me
vs
P5 kids in soccer.
I guess we won lyk 7-4?
It was slippery but FUN.
But was elbowed but that Malay guy.
Bled and my shirt was stained with red coloured liquid.

I guess I'm almost there, to grasp the Maths.
I still love them and they seem pretty easy to me now.

I still want you.
But you hate me with those few letters you read.
Those were in July,August 2006.
It's Feburary 2007 and it's what now that counts.
I loved her then. I love you now. can?
Cold war it seems, hard to resolve.
where being comfortable seems everything.

I want to hold your hand~}
I went to download the song((:

Soccer makes me sweat,
while YOU make me think.

Ryan.Jared.YuWei.Daniel.
We went third floor, ex-2E class.
My table,sribbled with those sweet stuff is gone!
The window pane I broke ain't replaced.
The dragon behind the class ain't there anymore.
The laughter, excitement is not longer there.

YouRen.JiaHao came my house, did MATHS.
And I proclaim now that I'm proud to do all my corrections myself okay, but with JiaHao beside me.
I seem more intelligent with him.

Tammie's show&tell was emotional, teary as stories were unfold.
She did a great job.

Friday's CIP-those Old Folks.
Ms Chan gabbled for a long period of time as usual.
What does gabble means?

I owe MiaoTing -->
Zuo Wen(x1)
Ying Yong Wen(x1)
Jian Bao(x2)
Shui Bi(x2)
arghs.

Anw if Ferguson or anyone present for that Lille vs Manu match says they havent seen anything like they just did before,
it just shows they don't watch Asean Football Championships.
And that shows how little regarded our BIG game in Asia means to those Europeans.
DO plead to Giggs to watch Thailang vs Singapore then.
It was 15 minutes in Thailand, 1 minute in France.
Ohmy.

How pathetic would it be if out of the 32 questions for A maths,
I only know how to do 12?
Other subjects are suffering from all the time I solely put into my maths everyday.
Ohmy.
A Maths Test is looming just hours away.
Comon Test are just days later.
Ohmy.

How pathetic would it be if you don't love someone, thinking of someone else all the time, but yet still having to entertain that someone.
Walking if them makes you want just run away, and join those attitude bunch in soccer.

Troubles after troubles when you make such a mistake which you feel tempted to say YES to _____/.
Grrrs.

Aseembly was funny when 3S1 did that Kallang Wave.
-Hot Date with Ms Chan on Friday. FIANIONAIO@($U@()%&

THat FLORIST!
You Mai Hua Ma?
You. Jia hua lor.

Say I really love someone alot.
I think it's true love.

If that person changed, in terms of their character , behaviour, or looks,
I know, I'll still love that changed person.

I claim I love the person too much coz it's just true love which virtually hard to let go.
Most would dismiss it
Hmmms.

Is true love seen in the many examples around us?'
I've got no qualms about my answer.
What do people around us face then?
Arguements and quarrels.
Hanging up on the other party.
There just is too many difference
Why not, be patient,takeyourTIME.

UEUIANCVKL ASRHW:rsxcm'

Imissher.
Hardly get to see her, always wondering how her emotions change with every passing second.
All i know is,
C^2 G^3 --> ME
C^2 G^2 --> HER

Yan Jing cried.
For?
His angel.

I cried.
For silly reasons.
It'll never come true. come'on
I got myself utterly fucked up.
I never ever seem to got over it and now it's over.
OVER which means my cocky eyes always look upon the fourth floor.
But my eyes do see that someone still lurk on the corridors of the second floor and I'm looking.
Looking and thinking.
I think you're looking too.
What does that imply?
I just need to shut my shitty mouth up and not say anything to you, and I guess that implys both of us carry on with our lives which I guess we did for past few weeks?

I stood aside, and smiled.
They had fun in such an messy way.
Hmmms. I enjoyed observing.

Had numerous conversations with the old folks.
Got to know their stories.
They aren't that sad but enough to say they aren't that happy in life.
But contented maybe?
They have a TV, friends, an apartment and functions like this to have fun at.

All I knew was, my shoe was stained with the coffee or milo luhs.
My GREEEN shoe looks really dirty.

Canteen-730-FSC.
Lotsa Angpaos.Letters.Sweets.

Match after school.
Againest Adrian's team.
That NYJC guy.
Ask me fuck off in such an unfashionable way.
Prompted me to take personal revenge.
Tough and that hand sign.
................
He ran down the wing. I charged at him, slide and made a clean tackle.
Follow through-ed his legs.
Arghs. He wanted to CRY. I just feel like bursting out.
He suck.
My fitness's low as usual.
I'm glad Ryan scored two. Ohmy. He's really developing.
He still needs guidance.

And I still recall what Azhari told me.
Before you want to win, you need to have a good team first.
That's obvious.
Next, do scream our with laughter.
Coz look at my team.
FirstTeam-
RyanGoh. Royston.Daniel.WeiRong.YanJing.YuWei.YouRen.Jeremy.Joel.Me.
What type of comments would people give?
I need not say anything about them.
One thing he mentioned we need to rid is our attitude.
How the hell would you expect me to change the attitude of people like YuWei YouRen Royston YanJing whom either are stubborn or full of pride or has a strong character.
That's including me too. Im problematic rights/
I suck big time.

If no one's gonna tell them things when they do it wrongly, then I bet a 100bucks with you that they are most likely to continue that mistake and carry it on.
And. that's another gone case to their aspirations.
A sign will do for now, whatever comments they have.

But I see light of encouragement.
Ryan made my day
Right after the game, he said,
"let's all get a drink and discuss about our game"

It shall be four days before I can meet Jayda again.
Or say my other beloved friends too.

I just am curious as to why my parents want to visit Ikea on new year's eye.
Isnt too late for anything they wanted?

Why must I be the only child which tells me a story.
Say ten years years later.
I'll be the main source of income.
I'll be the only one bearing all the responsibilities.

And right now.
I doubt with a hundred roses that my parents would want me out in the movies or at the pool.
I'm sure they want me by their side since I'm all they have.
RIGHTS?


Mr Yew's NICE NICE NICE..

But that bitch aint.
Backstabbing here and there.
Picturing that innocent face with that vicious heart makes me want to take up Melvin's idea.
Write down the person you hate on the pistl card and shoot at it.
A picture would be a million times pleasant.

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY ARSENAL FANS IN TEH SCHOOL?
MANU FANS ARE SCARCE.

Azhari please SMILE((: can?

Orchard ytd after school again.
240 Class Photo.
Walked her to the busstop then rushed for lunch with Glenn, late for class photo.
I didn't smile. I didn't know how to. Seriously. Only during Zilian.

Got to FarEast. Azhari and Glenn
The taxi driver was like chatting with us.
Pope ____ of ___ knows 27 languages. WOW.
Humans are greedy. WOW.

I hate carrying my E and A Maths txtbk

Lunch was unqiue.
The venue and the variety.

Got Glenn's gift.
Got to Wisma.
Topman shirt TOP on my list.
Not T-shirt. But Shirt*
Got that Pedro shoe first.
100 bucks. And I made sucha fool of myself.

Eh pls luhs.
My foot is so freakin big man.
Shoes are hard to buy.
And ankle socks, of the right length, for others, are like much smaller for me.

Blanja Azhari to Cookies.
Went to Taka. Got more stuff.
And so coincidence luhs.
YiQin saw me!!
She didn't WAVE.

Taxi home.

It's always nice going out with either Glenn or Azhari.
Both good brothers. FUN ENJOYABLE AND INTERESTING.
And even when __dropped his contacts and claimed he was blind, he could still look at other gals luhs!

FireDrill was more of Endurance Test.
I dont think soccer was any hotter than that.

I've got lotsa thoughts in me but yet to consolidate.
I will. I will.

And as I'm aware, I play a key role in thoe whole scene.
Others are less problematic than I'm.

And I see that people woth strong chrracters face greater challenges than those more ordinary students whom are most of the time happy.

Many types of friends right.

Some make you feel big,comfortable and of some qualities
Those are people who can make people feel equal and command more respect.

Some make you feel lousy and inferior.
These people themselves are tough nuts to crack.
Their mindset is __ and you've gotta make a decision about the validity of the friendship.

HE is one guy, who claims all about team bonding and crap when he himself does EVERYTHING, making himself so indispensable and then manipulating someone and that's not even enough. People around him feel inferior and oh. Unfortunately,most around him feel too lousy and inferior that we aren't his friend.

People whom are COOL through all their fuckedup antics are hopeless.
SOmeone shake their asses up.
Then, remind me to teach them how to stay humble and to stop for a second, naturally self-evaluate themselves again.


I assume everyone knows that No One's Perfect right?
But what's the reason behind it?
A simmple one, at our level- being perfect itself, is already a flaw.
I'm proud of my findings, for now, till I seek improvements to be better.

Everything we do today, is to prepare for our tommorw.
WHY?
Deep tHink about it yourself.


The wall's always very WHITE when I'm with Azhari.
His whole body's loaded with branded stuff.
And people still claimed I'm rich.
Okay then he's rich on the outside while I'm on the inside?
Hold your verdict.

Soccer-sweated and how disappointed I'm with Daniel's performance.
Went to Jp and eat which meant money FLEW into that regretful pot of fire of claypot.
Left a little later than Reina and co.
Did, joked, laughed, said many silly and humourous funny things.
Obviously he's more dominant luhs.
I'm only BIG when I'm with Glenn.
That gives opportunities for various conclusive statements.

Got that 100buck FrenchConnection shirt.
Wanted to get the Pedro shoe but ain't sure.
Drifting towards Ryan.

And so our last stop-pacific plaza when all I yearned for was to just bend my knees and stretch.
Why can guys play 90minutes of soccer but not shop for hours when GIRLS can!

I think my room's neater now.
And NTU Shoot during 26-28Feb.
Sounds pretty interesting. But the date does come at the worst of times.
But being on a school day, that sweetens up the deal.

I think my standard of English sucks to the extent that I can't express myself out at all.
Even one sentence from my CHINESE compo can't be understood by teacher luhs.
And it's CHINESE.
Anw I hope Daniel did went to check out the meaning of that idiom, founded by Melvin.

I always lose my stamina towards the end of the race, in terms of studies.
I work hard for a month and a half, giving up only probably two weeks before my dates with the exams.

5 Days have past
Still memorable((:

Today's not a ncie day.
Spoiled by someone early in the morning.
Not FSC but SOMEONE

Soccer PE was crap.
It's not that we don't like to play with them okay.
It just takes away the fun we would have. We can't play for shit luhs.

After school-Soccer.BasketBall.Captain'sBall.
Each tells a different story of different nature,going through different emotions.

I parade around the neighbourhood everyday.
Not glorious! So paiseh when I see my fwens.

Tml seems like a packed day.
((:
Azhari's uber NICE.

Lost my temper. Yes. Quite not so enjoyable.

Oh. AND I SPENT 10BUCKS ON DRINKS.
I CANT BELIEVE IT.
SERIOUS
HOW COULD ONE DRINK SO MUCH WATER!

YiHan said her friend commented that I have broad arms-difficult to hug.
True mehs?

Carefreee.That's the feeling I get when you aren't there.
Seeing you dreads me from wanting to be present.
It's my problem only. It's not your fault.RIGHTS*?

Saw RueyJer in the lift in the morning and he sure does look tall now.

Tml will be a nice, delightful day too. I know why. They won't.

Chemistry, Physics Test tml and let's all GG.

Angel&Mortal's really such a joke.
FUNNY.
expecially those love letters for RYANGOH.

And anyone would cry if they knew who my Angel or Mortal was.

Now, be humble, be horny, and be Nuts(again) and sweet too.

Hershey and Mars chocolate are superb.

May loves Pasta. (SHAM--)

I wore my silly yellow jacket for shooting and at kfc like a fool.

I walked round the whole neighbourhood today with some people.
I'm sure I won't fail 2.4 now.

There's PT tml.

I left class so early that I didn't get back my E Maths bk.

I hope he doesn't interfere and bother or harass anymore.
What a effing jerk.

I might as well do the whole show&tell for Glenn now, with all the daunting tasks my responsibility.

I find Tammie so similar to me luhs. Meaning everynight do hw so late. But she sleeps earlier!
Arghs.

I'M STILL AS SLOW AS EVER.
i lost that person who encouraged me to be faster.

You said two statements today.
One, harmless.
Another, I was unable to see the true agenda of it.

You wanted to bring out something?
You wanted to remind us of what we've done?
You wanted to highlight our mistakes to the others?
You wanted fuck us?
Which of the options? Choose.

All I wanted to say right at that point was,
whatever that's happening now, it's all your fault.

Note that I'm pushing ALL blame to you.

Note that there ain't any specific thing you've done that can be linked or blamed upon to everything that's happening.
It's those indirect things you do, your way, that's causing it., I think.

You're the accused. YOU have your say.
You, are the link to the solution for the problems.
Does that imply more things?


I just wanted to tell you too.
There's something missing in __
That's sense belonging.
I think with that, people will be willing to __ and __ , and that will change the whole picture.
The environment you two are creating, awwws. !@#$%^ ???

Went to get bubbletea with Reina.Glenn.Jayda.XiaoChen and WHO?

Assembly was about volunteery work.
Where's the peer support that's more likely to succeed?
More connection ya.

PE's nice. FINALLY.
Games. Soccer. How does that sound?

A rose at JEinterchange cost 2.50

Ms Yeo talked about the mode we should be in. (something liddat)
And that happened to be the content for my post ytd.
Hmmms.

It's really a good knowledge to grasp&understand.

When you're shooting, you have to get into that mode where your mind,mentality changes and you're alerted to what's happening around you. Your concentration level should be much sharper and stuff.

Soccer-wise, you've got to change mode, know that it's not longer relaxed or play time.
It's serious business, being alert, sliding here and there, and knowing your objectives like scoring goals and aware of your surroundings.

So same for studies.
You can't be handling maths questions half-heartedly, probably not alert and focused enough.
We think we are, but do cross check again.
That right mentality, attitude shld be there.
Only you know your own standard of thinking.

Anw.
Smart people, or genius are hard to come by.
That's obvious.

Lvl 1- Able to identify the problem.
Lvl 2-Able to understand the problem fully
Lvl 3- Able to understand how to solve it.
Lvl 4-Able to solve the problem, after thinking from your point of view and of other's point of view.
Lvl 5-Able to understand if what you intend to do is right. We might think we are too smart and make a wrong move.

Rough one.
That's unfair, and yet still how scappy a 15 year old, right now in front of his monitor thinks.

Mdm Oen must be elated.
Or i saw her smiling.
She was gliiming with horny-ness on her face as our class greeted her life
Good Morning Mdm Oen
Have A Nice Day Mdm Oen
Thank You Mdm Oen
-There were more I think]

3S2 not bad ahhs. Definitely got into her good books alrd.
It was ncie to see Azhari being so sensible.
He's cute.
Really cool. I admire him okay.
I ain't a gay.

I love people who start their name with J*
An affinity with me.
Ts and Rs too maybe?

I slept at 3 ytd, saw the last 10 mins for Manu and Tottenham.
O'Shea being Keeper.
That was a nice sight to watch.

The previous topic Mr Yew taught, was for me to be proud and say I fully understand, the only topic I could be proud enough to do so in my whole Sec Sch life.
((:

Imagine life without an emotion called Love.
You have sorrow hatred happiness and everything.
And you can get all those from Love.
True Love's obviously hard to find.
I can't continue the next sentence alrd.

It's no doubt a sweet feeling to own.
When you're down or bored or purely lonely,
wouldn't it just be comfortable and nice to have someone to miss.
It's so pathetic if you don't even have your love or your friends to miss.
*LOVE*

Maths really getting on my nerves.
Work everyday.
Lotsa effort put in.
Test's such a better forgotten piece of paper.

Time-Management.
And that mode I'm in.
Ohmy.

Life's fantastic.
Everything's really nice except for that one and only I'm gonna throw my faeces at and let the stench to be reminded of my presence and emotions.

So in 9 days I received my 300th msg from Jayda!
HEHESX)

So idiotic man.
Wanna and ready to go Safra to get my jacket.
But it's like duno when coach's there and stuff.
Grrrs.

MingZhe's in Taiwan.
Why isn't Fuhua bringing us to Taiwan? Those taiwanese students came rights.and Ryan, me were buddies for them.

I'm gonna take part in that Soccer Tournament. 10bucks
it'll be crap if we exit in the first round or something liddat.
we want to make our jerseys.
ryan gonna design it.
lets hope for surprises.

Why are there just so many bitches and fuckheads who have filthy mouths?
Or hypocrites. Low-class style okay. unlike being more involved politically.
Mind Games are challenging, trying to outsmart and stuff.
But since when gossiping is high-class and shows your smart-ness?
It just indeed take things away from you, unknowningly, and you'll find it hard to retrieve it back again.

Guilt and Regrets are two such emotions we would want to rid off our lives.

Imagine. Playing your friend's soccer ball, eventually causing it to be confiscated.
I was responsible for the ball the moment I borrowed it and I failed the owner when being confiscated.
I let myself down and that trust for the other party will be hard to bond again.
I feel guilty for breaking that trust my friend had for me.
I regretted doing any offence I committed

Imagine. Leaving your Maths txtbk in school and there happened to be Maths hw on that day.
We regretted act One or act Two.

Imagine. You're the Maths Rep. You collected the books and handed it up. And two of your students didn't get back their books.
I'm responsible for the books. Once their wherebouts are doubted, fault can be brought upon to me. I'll feel bad and guilty I lost someone's book and being so helpless.

Small such things accumulated will, or may spark a fear for that guiltyness or regret in ourselves if we still are human.
It's a terrible feeling.

Imagine. BIG actions you might have done previously which may have spark off a fear in yourselves.
I have one, I'll ALWAYS remember.
Soccer-Class-Break Window-Nearly Killed Lee Kong Wee.

*GUILT can come from everything, from every minor or major action you might do.
And that include horny things people under 18 aren't supposed to do.
Who cares though.
Do it at 14, and guilt remains for years.
Do it at 60, guilt probably ain't existant or is scarce.
Doing that at 14, the experience and guilt will haunt your souls.
Looking back when you're an adult.
The excitement then counts for nothing during adult-life.


School felt lyk it ZOOMED past today.
I seriously need to change the way I handle Maths.
I'm bound to fail my A and E maths tests.

Bo Can's ball kana confiscated by Mr Yeo, late evening.
Fatin lost her Maths exercise book.
I left my waterbottle in the range.
I forgot to get WeiZhan's number.

REINA'S BIRTHDAY TODAY((:

Went home with Ronny and Jonathan.
Saw WeiTing, LiYan and FSC people at the busstop.
Chong Huan. Trenna too.

Monthly Shoot was on Sunday.
First detail-850am
Woke at 6 and boarded taxi at 630.
16bucks. Reached at arnd 7.

Ate mcd breakfast, then took bus to safra.
Met ShiXiang there.

Chiong into range. Have to wait for CoachZhang luhs.
Got my jacket, boots and tripod(so hard to find!)
Got the pellets, pelletbox from shixiang.
Got JingNa's Walther rifle and things were so rush.
Got the cards, paid 15bucks

Then wore my shooting boots first before pants then that Da Xiang ask WHY.
He said only Thais did that.
Jun Hong was like two lanes in front of me.

Kenneth arrived just in time.
I took less than 5 minutes to adjust my rifle.
I took a week the last time.

My concentration is utterly disappointing, for weeks and months.

And that incident.
Lost of focus or concentration, probably, I accidentally loaded two pellets.
Shot off, ended up 0 for both shots.
By right, minus 20 points. But at least he minuc 10 only.
I could have at least got an 8 for that and get 554 or 556 if a 10.
I got 10 for all my first shots for each series except this incident.
89#93#97#92#92#83-546
Obviously miles to improve.
But height's perfect. Only left-right swerving.

ShiXiang got 581. Ohmy. Amazing.

SHI XIANG'S super nice to wake up so early to accompany me at lyk 8am when his detail's at 1pm.
KENNETH'S nice too to SMILE(:

Went for lunch with SX.
Went back and saw Reina and LiYan.
Pool-ed with Reina. UBER FUNX)
chatted and went home with Reina in taxi.

CHERYL EXAGGERATED JUST NOW.
JUST WHEN I TOLD HER MY DAD ASKED ME ABOUT DONATING MONEY TO THE SCHOOL,
SHE CALLED ME TO PROTEST.
AHAHAHHAS. FUNNY HER. LOL=DD

Lotsa blogging content everyday. Just time factor.
Starting to sleep at about 1, nap and wake, do some hw, nap and wake, do some hw, its 6 and time for school.
A habit.

Committe Meeting today anw.

Soccer we definitely improved.
My team rawkz.
We're joining that tournament.
And Sithu's team on Thursday.
Lionel's joining us.
He's such a superb ex-student and relief teacher.

Wei Ting's birthday today((((:
Enjoy it.

Monthly Shoot today.
It meant I haven't touch my jackets nor my rifles or tripod or anything for exactly one month
Amazing how I'm gonnna adjust my walther and everything before 850.
Why does my detail start so early luhs!
And lane 4 with those Nathional Shoooters.
WDH.
I'll be utterly embarassed

School was nice ytd.
Samuel owned Jun Wei at Dota.
Pistol was pretty nice.
Camp was awesome for them I guess.

Fuck those self-centered bunch of bitches who smell their ass day and night.
Seriously, self-centered.
Those up and coming ones will live to be the old us.
They will enjoy it since it's only level 2.

Anyone close with HIM ends up in a bad state.
It's a tradition, happenning in the past and now.
Only those hanging so tightly on HIM end up intact and well done with.
Prove me wrong coz everyone part of his dream a year ago(ewwwws) are living examples who live another day to one day get a chance to dig his faeces and make HIM chew on it.

Oh. And I'll get my camera to flim all that.
Historic moment where things will change.
Even for the worse, the stagments are removed and it can now move on and achieve what it wants.

Those bitchy acts they have done are jokes of the year, earning my glaring stare and a standing ovation from me and the ants in my room.
It will turn ugly.
Smiles from you earn you a slap.
But why why why is she so fucked up?
And that person who know no man.
Ohmy, with a sincere good luck.

All I can say, life's boring, or simply say NOT interesting.
I chose it to be boring and close all doors to the word called FUN where FEEELINGS are such desirable things in life.

I know what I want. *

When anything happen, everyone can tell you.
STAY HUMBLE.

If you really understood what Humble means, it really is such an important word.
As a humble person, or low-profile and neutral, one can look and observe his surrounding or anything in a different perspective and view.

Ohmy. Being humble might just be the best thing in life other then being horny 24/7, 365days a year.

The reaps from being a humble person is just amazing and the best thing in life.

I'm now more of myself since the camp.
It was of no doubt, a great success, where we in a position to demand a most enthu class award.
It didn't really seem that right for the other classes though. True? and Why?

PE's a torrid time I guess.
Climbing up and down the range everyday during CCA is exactly doing PE alrd.
But anw. I'm really lacking in fitness.
I'm fat. - the conclusion-

I was nice for those friends to share some concern when I was sick
HaoLan. Tammie. Sameul. YouRen. Royston. Ryan. these I can rmb.
Thanks((:

Late nights everyday for two weeks might just be asking too much from my body.
That's excludining the hair loss from doing all the Maths sums everyday.

I'm working really hard for the subject I'm strongest in, Maths, which means the most likely chance for me to get an A1 During Os.

That comes at a cost-neglecting other subjects.
Alrd being brought up by Khusni last year,my TimeManagement never improved.

This year-->much more hard work.
(studies last year was not my main interest.shooting was.afterall,foundation's imp right. )

Seems like a blessing in disguise I was absent from school today.
I wished for Ms Chan's lesson.
-Ivan's "Toto Chan" Show&Tell.
-Comments and horny-ness about the camp. MsChan lack creativity. Expected comments de. HEHES

Math's sucha torture.
She's fast creating exactly the same situation as of Mrs Tay last year.

Mrs Tay was effective and efficient. As MsChan said, she values student teacher relationship alot.
She was greatly hated at the beginning of the year.
Everyone's results were bad.
I failed my tests, common test, the only exam I failed up to date. (and it had to be maths!)
Everyone seem not to understand her teaching.
The idea of submitting a petition to remove her was considered.
Lotsa terrible comments were made about her.
She wasn't having a good time, picking on the weak students.
Her way of thinking and her way of doing things and her attitude was something the class didn't like at all.

Okay. So.. does this sum up what's happening now too?

It does takes time for students to adapt to a new teacher and vice versa.

It's all part of teaching us and bringing us to a higher level.
If teachers teach the same way as they did for all four years, it just is not feasible.
Why? I don't know. But it does make logical sense to me.
That's also why Mrs Tay and Ms Yeo are such high quality teachers with lotsa experience

But well, its inevitable that such things will result from her style.

I share the same views as my classmates.

Ms Yeo's style of teaching seems unique
I have got lotsa bad comments about it.
Probably good ones too.

But these are so raw comments.
I must say- THE VERDICT'S NOT OUT YET.
So whatever comments made now by anyone will not stand at the end of the year.
That is unless, Ms Yeo is not the person I think she rightfully is.
Right now, it's only hatred, terrifying OR misunderstanding, whichever you choose to describe.

But it's also horrid time for me trying to understand her stuff
-when 45mins talking about dao de and stuff and 15mins teaching.
-she forbids copying things on the whiteboard which means a lack of sources to refer to when one is utterly lost, desperate for help.

Anw I do admire Ms Yeo, for being so smart.
Smart referring to one who can THINK.
Cross-think is something not many can do.
But being too smart, she might use it in the wrong way in a enviroment with (not as smart) ppl.

Being sick is torturous, never a great feeling.

In the morning, people were asking "Jared why are you so sad?"

Never did they realise I was slouching and in utter pain.
Awws. I couldn't talk too.

There was this girl who fainted.
Yupps. Just passed out.
She was amazing.
And Ms Yeo said we are supposed to squart down if we were about to faint.

Math's such a pain in the neck.

Boring as it sounds on paper,
the camp was utterly marvellous if individuals stand out to create fun of their own.

Azhari was superbly humourous to the core.
YanJing took amazing initiative and was as cooperative as anyone would expect
The girls were WOW with their support for our class.
*So few girls yet too many to name.
*So few girls yet so wonderful support.
RyanGoh.JiaHe.YuWei. were great company.
KaiLoon.HaoLan.Jeremy.Leon.Colin.Ivan.WeiZhan were a great bunch of boys.

3S2's just so superb.

I love these class cheers

---Energy. Synergy.
We are so GG.
G-A-Y-B-O-Y
We are no GayBoys.
3S2, 3S2
Who's our form teacher?
CSY. Chan Sew Yoon.
She is so sexy---

And..

---3s2
Horny woo
We are the mighty woos---

Soccer was unbelievable.
The tournament were games to savour.
Every save. Every pass. Every GOAL. Every run. Every slide. Every *own-goal attempt*. Every tackle. Every track-back. Every shout. Every cheer. Every shot.
We improved game by game.

First game was so shaky. I made a couple of saves.
Second game was tough. Threats come from wide areas and they eventually end up in goals.
Third game was tight. A goal down before climbing to win. Scored a goal myself too.

As games went, I had less and less to do until eventually I seem like a goalkeeper,doing nothing, but with LOTSA ENERGY still preserved, wanting to replace anyone.

YanJing. JunJie. Ryan. Azhari. Jeremy. YuWei. Jared
What a truly unforgettable team.
Showed great character, teamwork.
Really. Stamina and teamwork was top-notch.
I really applaud them for running up and down, clearing every ball, tackling, and doing all the dirty work and eventually playing to victory.

3S1 lost the last match by how many goals ahhs? The opposition scored like 20+. Ohmy.

Captain'sBall-those ex 2D guys played not bad sia.
though I thought 2E last year better sia.

But at the end of the day, 3S2 champion for soccer and captain's ball wors.
If only we won the badminton, we would be the champion class.

The Blindfolding game, having to arrange ourselves according to Reg.No
The game standing on the chair, having to arrange ourselves in one straight line, cheering
The game going through the raffia string.
The wacko.
The hide&seek.

3S2's just such a remarkable class with Ms Chan.

Not forgetting Sithu, that Q and that KaiLoon.
They were remarkable too. Ohmy. THANK them(:

Lotsa homework to be done.
And with wobble legs, I still wish to slack on the bed the whole day.


Lots more still need to be done.
I won't disappoint you de luhs.
I'll be back.

You bloodly crap.
You still don't see the problem, do you?
I can see what I have done. But do you see what you have done for the past 4 years?
All the mistakes that's ruining some things.
I ain't proving anything to you.
I just want to dig out the thing in you which is the cause of many OLD problems.
And you keep asking WHY.
It's starting to happen to people around me and I don't want it to happen ever again.
It's such a big picture.
It's just no difference with fuck and throw luhs.
Priority change then neglect?
Ohmy.
FUCKYOU.
oh FUCK ME TOO.
Cause I'm not better.
How am I gonna achieve what I want when I WAS Jared whose connections with you would probably not make a impact at all?
If I can't be friends, I don't want to be a neutral.
It's your damn fucking MAN-MANAGEMENT luhs.
Your priorities and mine are different.
Combine together, perfect, I'm quite sure.

I rather be alone, bringing up my own side and believe in ourselves and try to achieve something on out own. Full hands-on with no backing at all.
But, bad idea.
After all, the best ideal thing would be all of us get together rights?
But, you treat THEM this way and obviously as normal humans, this's how they treat you.
You made no fucking attempt to want to resolve.
You left it to ROT.
You made things IMPOSSIBLE at all.
How the hell would someone love something so much when someone made him hate him so much?
It's that DREAD-FUL-NESS
I pity them, forsee more of such things happening, and want to change it.
That's all.

Do bear this in mind-
You treat someone nice, they treat you nice.If you rely on this to make them have sch feelings for you, One day. One day when you start treating them not as nice or bad, it's disasterous.

What you want to tell me today, is exactly what I warned myself to Samuel five months ago perhaps.
I could forsee me committing such a thing and yet I still could not prevent it.

Many things. And I mean many.
Many things that teachers or my classmates take three weeks to observe and give a statement or comment, I have already done so in the first or second day of school.
And I'm so far spot on in everything.


Anw. I'm blowing up the matter, making a big fuss.
I observe and remember every single action that YOU did.
Even mean or cunning or scheming or detestable action. A bigFUCKyou.

MATHS is TIME-CONSUMING and HARD for me to UNDERSTAND now.!
Both E and A Maths.
And to think, Cheryl still asked me sums. Ohmy. I ain't 100% sure with my laws yet.

Dear Dear Ms Delphanie Yeo.
Why do you move so fast?
Mrs Tay's fast but yet she did enough to explain for us to understand, sketch up enough information for us to refer when we find ourselves in dire straits.
But you, emphasise so much on idependent learning for me to cope.
I ain't alone. I know.
You're fast. Fast's better than slow though as said by Zi Jin.

Anw. Anw. You give skimpy explanations, setting the bar high for us to jump. TOO HIGH.
Unfortunately I guess you've got to lower down your expectations and standards of us.

You're the teacher.
I'm the student.
Feedbacks.

Teaching is s 24/7 job agree?

Even teachers have msn to conduct informan discussions online on some occassions.


Finally received my Christmas and NewYear's card from YiHan only today.

Oh. and YOU. Stop claiming he or her see me zuai or wadeva luhs.
After all, it's all from your foul mouth.
All so one-sided.
What other better source of information of me can be found other than from you, their best freinds?

Grow up.

I FEEL VEXED, UTTERLY IN EVERY ASPECTS OF MY LIFE.

MORE OF SHIXIANG, MINGZHE WILL BE NICE
SAMUEL AND GLENN MIGHT BE GOOD TOO.

BASICALLY, I'VE TOLD SHIXIANG EVERYTHING AND HE KNOWS.
SO... HE CAN'T HELP. I DOUBT ANYONE CAN.
THE SOLUTION'S SIMPLE. JUST HARD TO ACCOMPLISH WITH THOSE FEW AROUND ME AND WITH THE WRONG MINDSET AND ENDLESS BAD ATRIBUTES I OWN NOW.

I can paint my room beautifully like I did the whole day today, quick.
But I can't paint my HEART all over again. It's only patching up with a different material that's possible.

CCA Display must be uber fun today.

After shoting on Thursday. Melvin and I went staff toilet.
He peed. I looked in the mirror. And to my horror, I saw Mr Lee Kong Wee peeing too.
I was flabbergasted and sped out of the toilet, panting for fear he might make things difficult for me.
I played hide-and-seek with him in the staff room. It was just a ahri-standing experience.

And the day before. Went home with Joannah. Went to Kfc for mini-dinner.
And this small boy came appraoching us, panting, trying to ask us something.

He sat down, and eventuall he said he needed money as he couldn't go home.
He wanted money to eat and he's quite plump. He then just left for the CommunityCentre.
Weird boy.

I'm poor. First time Reina heard me said that.
I wanna reborn my hair okay. Nxt wk with Reina.
weees

I'm just spending too much money everyady, especially when I go Safra.
Today alone, 14 bucks alrd.

Rushed home with RyanGoh today,in the heavy rain,saw Eileen at the busstop.

Melvin fell, and injured his arm in the process.
How pathetic. No shooting for some time.

Am I gullible to trust them.
For them to tell me stuff, I've got to trust them first marh.

iloveyou(:

As time passes, things might get better or for the worst.
Keeping ourselves open and not thinking only in the box will help us out.
A series of better forgetten things might have happened.

I'll wait. Wwait for more things to come in since all I own now are one-sided.

I've grown. A staggering 178cm.
Every recess, Ryan and I walk up the 4th Floor. HEHEHESX)
WeiRong made me so paiseh today luhs. Go borrow tie den no assembly.

Lunched with Samuel.RyanAng.Melvin.
Talked about that horrible experience, how despicable and unfeeling I was.
How true it was and I see her everyday. Ohmy.

SongQuan's coming back tml.
Joannah came today. Took 334 with her, went kfc.
Couldn't get to leave to range to want to see Tiffany at the busstop.

Safra trainings on Friday. Saturday. Sunday.
I have difficulties.

I've got to prove to myself and my parents that I can balance both studies and shooting but so far, I've failed to do so.

I don't want my studies to be affected from an overdose of shooting and in the end,not only will I not be able to shoot as much, I'll have difficulty catching up with studies.

Wise, tough, not rash decisions have to be made.
One and only workable solution--> Just really work harder. Switch off the comp,free myself from one more distraction.

My slingbag's gonna break one day anw.

Sec1 selection LASY DAY tml. Weees ((:

I'm gonna bow the matter up.
From history, many other situations were handled privately and thus misdeeds of his aint highlighted.

I'm gonna do whatever it takes.
I'm gonna collect whatever evidence and support I can.

A civil war or however serious it may be called. I don't care.
I just want it settled and everyone moves on, work together towards success again.
But right now, it's just all waiting for an ignition.

Sec1 Selection today till Thursday.

Jayda. Ohmy. She's so hott. I'll never forget her unique name.

Difficulty in reply smses lehs. I seem to think SLOWLY what to reply.
But I must be FAST in jioing.

I miss ShiXiang Samuel Weirong Carol Renee. All fantastic company.

WeiTing too? And not forgetting Charlotte who stilll has my dvds.!

What's my identity first of all?
What's yours?

When people ask about you, what would be the thing that you would want to be known for?

When you're writing a Journal entry "About Myself", what type of person do you want people to know you as?

What type of image do you want to portray?

We may know what we want to be, deep in our minds.
But yet, we may not behave what we really are.

It takes patience from others, not to pass judgement too quickly, to believe what they think others really are.
After all, don't judge one by it's cover right?

In that clique. They are strong.
They have their own opinions.
You might have doubts on something.
Someone must have said something to reaffirm what you think.

Oh so. They can't make sensible decisions when it does matters.
So effing disapointed with them.
But I do admire how strong a clique they are.
I want to have our own clique to be equal to them.

And our FormTeacher went ahead with their decision.

How interesting, fun JC Orientations are, it may not be for Fuhua's.
I'm sure the leaders, the best few in Fuhua can come up better than what is done now.
I ain't saying I can't.
I'm just giving a simple statement on my views.
Afterall, I'm outspoken.

Why do so many good listeneres exist around my life?

They are used to be the listener and not the speaker.

They are often not used to share their problems.
A even when sometime when they meet some difficulty and on the urge to pour it all out,
they can really find no one that is there for them thus i have been the one who keeps everything to myself.

They are courageous. I admire them.

They can live life still so properly when they have to deal with problems and difficulties, most of the time alone.

But well, it might be bad for them.
Lack of exchange of ideas may cause you to have that same mentality for a long period of time and hard to change.

I have no say in their lives.

Anw, Samuel and ShiXiang are the only two names in that column for the pupil's questionaire.

Those three mysterious gals aint smsing or calling me anymore. Such a harass.

You've matured more. But you seem more paranoid and stressed up, like Carissa.
What's with you?

A bad beginning means I have to do more. I know it in my mind.

Right now, just a fuck will help me describe everything.
Awful is the word-First day of school.

Specs was dented, broken by RyanGoh.
How silly he was to wack a ball at me, squarting less than halfa metre away from him.
He saw me. Yet he kicked that damn ball.
Arghs so DIZZY.

I want ShiXiang so badly.

Eww. I hardly know you two, and yet i trusted and gave you my number.
There you go, starting making me do this and that and kept pestering for my house number like you can't live without it.
Ohmy.You're just Primary6. I'm Sec2. Oh Please.

A New Year yuppsX)
Went Cliff's house for BBQ.
Superb BBQing with lotsa BUTTER thrown into the flame too!
At least I've more time and less distraction this tym to BBQ *COOKED* Wings.
Marvellous(((((:
Lotsa misses Lim and Lee family. Didn't go there at all this holidays unlike in the past where I go almost everyday.
CLIFF CLARE CLIO CLINT.
MARCUS MANDY MAXIN
WEEESX)))))

Was bored and I called Ryan to chat. Shared the same plight.

So left cousin's house at 1140. Rushed to Mt Faber area. Saw few mins of fireworks on some kind of bridge expressway.
The bridge was lyk so scary man. It was trembling. I thought it was gonna collapse, end of the world.
And I saw those huge crowds of smart asses at Vivo's carpark. They could like see the show at Vivo,Fireworks in town and at MtFaber. how cool.

Then sped to town to only see smoke and hear sounds in the air.
Finally parked the car and about to walk towards the fireworks, people walk towards us.
That meant it's over.

It's rather exciting with lots of anticipation as of what happens next. Plus there's time constraint. Make it into a movie then.
......../

Daniel's birthday was ytd.
31st December. How honourable.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY thenX))

ButterflyEffect1&2 is really getting me so hooked. Those horny scenes plus the storyline.

H is the letter.
Horny and High.
Got high and horny with JINGHUI* ytd((:

Hand wrote all my wishes to everyone. Awwws it's so tiring, time-consuming and sms consumption is high!

WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DO THAT.
INTIMIDATE. E***. ARGHS. TO HELL WITH HIM!
FRENCHED, TOUCHED AND JUST DISCARDED HER AND RETURN TO YOUR LIFE IN YISHUN WHILE WHO KNOWS WHAT SHE MIGHT BE THINKING IN EUNOS?
FUCKYOU LUHS. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER. IF I DO SEE YOU, I'LL DEFINITELY RIP YOUR BALLS OFF SO YOU CAN'T BE HORNY EVER AGAIN.

So,even YOU.based on what you see, and what you hear that are only so one sided,made a choice. DAMN.
how much i believed in you, you delibrately said that.
how much i fancied you as in the past ain't gonna count for nothing now.

I've started to shrink all the pics alrd. and they may take like wks.
only then will i send to you all.X)

No soccer, No shooting, No studying. How miserable. Just no affinity with anything associated with S this week. Just hope it'll change next week, a new year.
Damn my detestable parents coz I've nvr taken a liking for them.

Gonna go Cliff's house for countdown.
Wouldn't I hope I would be with my friends, if I have any, somewhere crowded to get horny and high?

SamuelMelvin are my treasured.
thanks for everything okay((:

SongQuan's super cool isn't he?
Nice dyed hair, tall, nice personality, quite matured clean thinking.
what else man?

SWEETPOOPX)

I can't provide opinions, only facts for his case.
One opinion said out can be the source of endless debating with different opinions and thinking.
FUCK YOU BIG TIME.

I seriously need someone to talk to in person big time.
and I aint getting full support AT ALL from ppl arnd me lyk them. They always claim so so so much and so convincingly that they will be behind me, whether when things are very right or wrong. but when i do need help, all disappear, cant be bothered, self-centered and cant wait to hang up the phone and get on with their own fun.

Something which really pisses me off is that all the tym,THEY pushes things to others to do,claiming that its for us to learn.

THEY practically let you do the whole thing. It's lyk throwing you into the middle of pacific ocean without giving you any advice or any lifeboat or floating objects before hand, NOTHING.

THEY nvr let you be involved in something. and one day, they just let you do it without giving you a hand at all. we don't know what it is about or what is expected or probably not know that thing even exists.

It's for us to ask and when we do ask they nag lyk asking is something we did wrong and we shld not ask and instead do and think ourselves.

THEY dun give you any thing to help you accompliash wad u have to do like the imp dates or so. we duno what's needed to pass or fail and duno wads right or wrong.

And when something is wrong, THEY blame,scold or for anything they do, it seems lyk you've committed the most vicious crime on earth

The internet's fustrating. Couldn't login to msn.

Suffered the worst day of my school holidays today. My school holidays rawkz to the extreme!X)
Met SongQuan at 930. Supposed to be at 8!
Ate at coffeeunited and went mcd.
Saw Cara and her HuaYi friend doing some sort of cards. Thanks for the glue((:
Saw like exFSC people I don't know.
And oh. Her name's Carol. so gorgeous luhs. but sec4.
How cham the 92's batch is luhs. No first three months in JC anymore. Awws.

SONGQUAN'S UBER NICE.
let's debate abt him again someday.

basically, use this "HE DOES THINGS WITH THE RIGHT INTENTIONS IN THE WRONG WAY" into what he does and it does makes things simpler and don't think furthur since he doesn't open up.

I don't have white hair!!! Arghs. it's mud mud mud!
Tammie CuiYun came at 1130.
Borrowed cardboard and penknife from mcd ppl.
Cut and paste and tada DONE.!

It had to rain again. Didn't get the chance to go CHINESEGARDEN!
Went school. Tammie coulnd't emtr coz of her slippers! ahahs. anw sliipers to garden is lyk..?
She left so adruptly and left her uniform and projectstuff with me!!

waited for the teachers and Jonathan with YanJing.
we were so sian luhs.
waited from lyk 1 to 3.
i zilianed and we camwhored. wees

And when the tcher's meeting was over..
everyone came to me and was lyk
tchers__"JARED YOU WENT SO MANY TRIPS AHHS.
GOT JAPAN CHINA CHINA."
jared__HOW YOU KNOW?
tchers__"OH. THERE WERE SO MANY OF YOUR PHOTOS IN THE PRESENTATION!"
jared__"ARGHS WHO TOOK PICS OF ME!!"
mrs tay__"how come you can go so many trips? i thought only one child entitled to one only?"
soo laoshi__"sheng wei shi wei yi de hai zi. you qian marh" no no no I disagree!

The main thing is, WHY DID THEY SHOW PICTURES OF ME IN THE PRESENTATION!?
WHY. WHO PREPARED IT?

it's nice seeing all the tchers and chatting with all of them.
for once mr go smile at me okay. all the tym he must have thought i was lyk beng who breaks WINDOWS all the tym.

MRKHUSNI wants me to lyk remind everyone to come with nice DECENT hairstyle.
TAKE A LOOK AT JONATHAN.
I have lyk longer hair than him ytd and decided to cut it in fear i'll be caught.
and a prefect lyk him. awwwws. marvellous luhs.
at least i want my back hair to be longer.

and mr teo is as sucky as ever luhs. say what cant wear jeans.
I dun even planned to come to sch to visit you okay.
at least wear FSCjersey can. and cold wear jacket cannot? ewws no wonder you're the top5 hated tchers in sch.


Haven't been to Safra all week since the monthly shoot.
Isn't nice for a change and let the ones who hasnt been there that often to have the chance to stick around?
'C'Boys such a worry. Ohmy.
What can I do when kenneth is the one doing the training schedule AGAIN. GLENNN!
being honest'-
everything that people expected to change after a new change of ppl, hasnt been changed at all.
and that made ppl lose faith okay. disappoint hangs arnd the air.

awws. and i went to lyk search for jodie and john on fwenster.
wees they exist. speechless luhs.
doubt it'll a fruitful relationship at all.
well i wanna go safra again to see her or that alicia lookalike-vanessa.
HEHESX))

IT RAINED POOH AND PIGLETS TODAY((:

Stop your fucks when you talk to me and ending emails with "president committee chairman"
It's hilarious

Fats-killing soccer tml with WeiRong Ryan YuWei Daniel Royston YanJing YouRen. Jonathan?Basically a gathering of the soccer players of 2E.
I didn't see them the whole holis.
So, not going Safra((: and I realise I need not even get my jacket back to Jurong.
How delightful news that is.
It means I need not carry one whole luggage from Yishun to Jurong

Kana. Looking at RuiYang's pics remind me of her.
Awwws. how sweet.
and that reminded me how bad im luhs
I didn't send a email to a single person i met from china or japan other than mizuki.
hehes.

Christmas card from Tiffy. Nicey Nice*.

Oh. and, I'm gonna leave it as it is, not wanting to pursue this dream of mine anymore.

And and does Alicai look like Vanessa Yong??
I THOUGHT THEY LOOK ALIKE LORS.
ALICIA SAID NO.
How could my eyes do this to me.
Arghs.

Garisson, ShiXiang, Renee all nice people to talk to.
Why? They aren't in Fuhua.

Jovin's nice to be high at.
And to let me kill my brain cells and make a good guess.
Plus that robot's cool luhs
smarterchild@hotmail.com
add it and talk to the robot.

I MISS SONGQUAN TO BITS AND PIECES. WHY ISNT HE 14 but 16?

First of all, Coach Zhang do watch movies.
Okay then I wonder.
What she watches?
Who she watch with?
When she watch, she pangseh Coach Lee at home!

Tml-School. Hope to see Mr Ng again. Plus,SS meeting(OHMY).
Weds-Free I guess.
Thurs-Sch to meet SongQuan. To take the video. ClassOuting,NOPESNOPES.
Friday-Probably go safra. Gotta get my jacket back.
Plus, gotta write down the measurements for my rifle.

My room, in a mess I guess.
Put only the things I want at the right places. The rest just dump it aside first and it's mounting.

Don't even want to talk about my day. Probably one of the worst in my life that I would just want to forget and not forgive.

Oh. And why does my mum have to keep watching Korean dramas!
It's getting me hooked too luhs.
No matter what, their storyline is always so heartwarming.
Those love stories. You would want it to happen it on yourself too.
Those sweet and tough things they have to go through.
Only a few out of thousands would probably have suffered and gone through so much to that extent where they talk about such deep love that anyhting's possible and that include involving our lives, that's what I think.
Prove me wrong then.

There are many many stories out there, still uncovered.
Many small-scale touching or sad sorriwful stories.
They may not be neighbours helping each other out during a fire.
People fight because of this and that.
What leads up to it and the aftermath and consequences MIGHT click better with audiences since these are things people probably heard, but ain't sure of its existance.

Christmas's OVER.
And all that warm wishes plus sms and msn conversations were dearly _______....
I guess I rather achieve things that aren't the common ones during special days like Christmas.

I stumbled upon photos.
Class photos of my Rulang journey.
No matter what others may say of the school, I dearly love the place I've spent 6years in.
I'll protect it, the reputation of it, since I've been part of it.
Those class photos.
Reminded me of how small, tiny, simpleminded everyone was.
And that, not including nerd where people would want to hide their past to their new bunch of friends in Brandon's case.
Thos pictures. Hold memories that a camera captures.
The images we see stimulates our inner memories and emotions to think about those wonderful or bad moments.

I've been inspired by Mr Ng and the famous people he did mentioned.
I'm working towards understanding.
But I guess I'll never reach the stage of such understanding that ancient famous people did.
They didn't have distractions.
They lived with moral values and lots of things they believed in.

JINGHUI I feel sorry for you.((:

I'm working on it. Working.
I'll be able to reach that independance stage, Samuel, despite my low confidence but I'll be guided with your words, always.

"alil' achievement and reward drives him to high self complacency instead of confindence to be humble."

He can be quite a nice person I thought, but is blinded by the fact that he think he's BIG from his achievements which he's proud of himself for.
He can be a nice friend but he's gonna be "BIGGER" than you.
I do enjoy his company like when he chats with me. I enjoyed it.
So at the end of the day, i think i'm gonna speak good comments of him(:

He worked hard. He thinks he's the best. He's complacent. He shows off, unable to be humble.
therefore, he will be "self-confident=highly complacent"
He probably think he's BIG and GREATLY NEEDED
For people who knows him, it's probably jealously cum detestable

so he will have that idea in mind tht he is the BEST
BEST and then he think that *** will need him alot and can't lose him.

Garrison, you're spot on on this issue. Full of praises and admiration for you(:
--END OF STORY--

Damn you.
You, seem to be turning into the person I don't really like hanging around with and try to avoid and don't wanna be close with
I can't say you changed for it worse or better coz it's a change that will happen.
Be as not-as-friendly as you want.
It comes with the change you underwent, with the things you do.
I don't wanna stand on a small tiny space on a little brick, doing so much, hoping you'll stretch your hand out and pull me to the centre of the brick.
I've been doing less as time passes.
Lots of comments can be said, one-sided views that only said straight from the aftermath of what happened. So, I shall keep them to myself.
I've been communicating with you, while living with only one statement I don't intend to change at all despite what other's might say.
I'm probably gonna alter facts.
Forget it. That's for now.
I'm keeping the cards to myself.

I take less pics these days.
I can't bear to see the pics turn out ugly with the big pimples the main attention,especially the one on my nose luhs!

MONTHLY SHOOT.
Reina, Glenn, Melvin, Joannah, Fion, Li Yan came along with the FIVE of us taking part.
the FIVE-YiHan, Daniel, Kenneth,LiQing,Me

Arguments took place first where fingers were pointed.
Internal rifts.
It's over. Forget it. It's just someone not handling the situation properly.
Don't probe furthur. Why blow it up?

I asked Melvin over, hoping he could be more involved and see and learn and probably revive it.
It didn't happen.
He was a total distraction.
Melvin plus Glenn meant pleads for me to LAN and pool.
Pool, I seem better and so good despite months of not playing it. weees
Whenever I said LATER or NO, Melvin would have a glumpy face and with the prospects of souring our friendship, I left with him, for half hour of LANing and pool.
He would say" shi ni jiao wo lai de. ni da ying wo yao wan LAN den mei you pei wo. shi ni jiao wo lai de. wo ke yi bu yao lai de ni zhi dao ma"
Well, my heart softened.

Watched shooters for the first detail.
All those NTT shooters plus YiHan plus ahems. Jodie. blushes luhs
And Vanessa had to own everyone with 399.
Jun Hong didn't do well at all for his standards and stature.

Ate at 11.
Detail's at 330. Went to shoot at like 1+.
Couldn't find that feeling I had ytd.
Thank Ming Zhe. That RI guy.
He's so so super super nice guy.
I love people like him from the personality I guess from his looks.
Awwwws.
How warm he was.
Tried his P700.
Super nice okay.
It's definitely much better than 603.
Saw how firm it was to my body and comparisions are made.
Well, that probably refreshed my mind and MingZe help me adjust the height for my shoulder piece and then immediately got my feeling back.

Adjustment to my rifle and my action for three weeks,everyday, even the night before the competition and on the day itself.
My expectations, self-confidence, aims and goals was set lower,considering the future too.
I had faith in my few hours old action.
It was full of left-right swerving, normal.
But at least, it didn't have up-down swerving.
That spells disaster.
For the sake of the competition, I had to find an action that I could use on that day.
Now, I have to adjust and get an ideal one for long-term use, with the inter-schools in mind.

Felt really hungry during my 10mins prep.
I got Joannah to get me DOVE chocolates(from China) from my bag.
Uber sweet and nice.

I got a score that received praises from Coach Zhang(:
But I could EASILY, EASILY got much better.

I just wanted to do my action well and keep faith in it as I thought it was the best way to get the best score.
My action the whole day was really very very good.
It seem I was lacking the drive,motivation,reasons to shoot since I alrd met my aim of doing my action well.
It's like around there, just fire. Don't really make myself get my reationship so right to get a 10. That's setting my expectations low.
Never ever encountered this situation before after all the passion and love I had for shooting
I was hungry.
Growlings from my stomachs weren't any help and that probably made my concentration level worse.
After like the fifth series only then I got up, make sure my relationship is good and made sure my low concentration improve.

All my shots went too left or right. None went too high or low.
A positve I consider it.

Mistakes are easily committed when you're not alert.
I wasn't alert and into the ideal state of concentration the whole day with Melvin there and I became absent minded and wasn't sure of what I'm doing.
Tounge Lashing I received.
Hardly I say Whatever.
This time, I will.

THANKS JOANNAH for stooding by me the whole time.
You were a great source of gratifying inspiration for me.
I can't get that from Kenneth or YiHan.
You were cold and needed the loo.
You had to stay for me. Really appreciated what you did man.
A smile on your face really made me wanna do better.
A bad shot, I look to you and you gave me that smile which made such a impact on me.
A BIG, WARM THANK YOU((:





Went for rotiprata.
Didn't know it was dinner.
that ROTIman was SLOW luhs.
That China waitress was uber funny with her pronounciation of chinese words.
Got bubbletea.
Then they went home.
went NP with ShiXiang.
Super sian and small I know.
He accompanied me for dinner.
so nice!
talk alot. opened up alot to him.
told him everything i could blog abt alrd.

Shi Xiang's super nice despite what other's or he himself say.
Im firm abt my views on him.
Super uper nice to talk to him luhs.
Get him panadols, anyone?

Very nice night chatting with all my fwens yupps.
Working towards what I want from talking with Samuel.

A long luoso post.
This, I can imagine abit draggy.
I wanna kill time plus there's no one who can listen to me!

Tiffy Cheryl asked me pierce hole.
Anyone can guess my answer.

As usual. During the times when I do go to Safra, things do happen.
This time round, with less people, it's more of self-searching.
There aren't anyone there I know from the start, and so,behaviour wise would change.
And so, it's NICE that Daniel and YiHan are trying to help me lehs.
Gimme some time luhs.

With the help of Si Xiang, we called Kim today!
I got to hear Kim's cute voice okay.
ShiXiang's super nice luhs.
Arghs ppl like him can hardly be found in Fuhua okay.
See the difference between a neighbourhood school and a well established school.
The people and the things they do and happen.

But compare Yishun and Jurong.
Awws.
Jurong's a nicer place to live in.
Yishun's too infested with bengs and lians.
Plus people do say it's a oolu place.
Nice lors. Got NP. hehehs. JP bigger!

I've got feedback from many and all had the same comment.
Well, so my guess is spot on.

Shooting Shooting Shooting.

Tml's monthly shoot.
Gotta meet at 7.
Bet I'll reach home lyk 10 tml again.
Reach hm at 11 today!

Went school today.
Gave Tiffany her Christmas present(:
And 335 is so so so slow okay!
I left at lyk 945 yet reached Je at lyk 1020.

Okay. I made a decision today.
A want and a don't.
Probably a rash one since I only consideired now and the papst.
Things might change when sch reopen.
Well, we'll see then.
For now,I shall try my best to stick with it using my words.

A achievement for me ahhs.
A Short Post.

ONE MONTH IN CHINA IS OVER.

Went school to get my bks and pants.
Shall accompany Glenn another day to get his pants though.
Spent lyk 220bucks.
Got a __ off by LiQing,Tammie and Mum.
I guess I bought many unnecessary items.
Okay, well I admit.
Popular seems to be a better choice huh?

Finally,caught up with my SS project, met with Tammie.
For every 3 sentences Mr Nizam said, he will comment " Tammie knows luhs"
If Tammie knows, why the hell would I want to call him! I don't understand!!

Was planning to go Chinese Garden to get the video done.
But well, sky turned dark after a while and risk not taken.
Went JP. many many months,not been there.
i was in fact so excited to go JP okay.kinda miss that boring place. AHAHAHAS
well, no fate for JINGHUI and I.
I kept comparing China and Japan then.
Now, I compare China and Singapore.
Seriously I'm so so so deeply impressed with China and in my view, it's probably better than Singapore in many aspects.
I wanna MIGRATE to China after my education. Anyone?
Well, wait till I have that money first. SO SO SO cost a move.
but have this in mind. S$5000=25,000RMB
One month pay of a S'porean is like a few month's pay for a Chinese.


I made a couples of straightfoward decisions this week.
I kept it open for so long and I thought it's better not to do so as things mght wander to things I migh not expect.
Rash decisions turn out costly.
Change of minds or opinions sums it all up.

Looking at others.
Others that I haven't beein contact with for one month.
How peaceful or calm or contented or simple so happy they are.
Think about myself and how I can be like them.


Arghs. For once. I shall admit defeat to whatever is troubling me for 3months plus.
Depression is common and I'm starting to wonder if that 10 letter word is the simple reason to what I'm feeling.
I may just be troubled by ONE problem and well, with my thinkings I magnified it and made it more complicating and when I can't find reaons and explainations and most importantly, understand, I think even more and it affects me in many ways in my life.

I demand answers, explainations, reasons for everything I think about.
When I don't, I become troubled by the issue.
This can either be a flaw or a real gem about me, depending on how I handle it and right now, I lost control of it.

I can't differienate right and wrong.
I lost my moral values.
I lost whatever skills or abilities I have.
Have I?

Primary 5P. Ms chek the form teacher.
Recall. She once brought us to the music room and gave us each a A4 card with our names on it.
All was asked to write comments about all our classmates on their cards.
And I happen to have found that card while packing my room today.

It just reminded me of how much I've changed, negatively.
Words they used to describe me-
Very Clever,Cute,Smart,Nice,Intelligent,Bright,Friendly,Helpful,Proud,Boastful
Very Good in Maths, Quick Runner,Takes part in everything.
Am I still quite the same as I was in Primary 5?


Okay.
One statement from Coach Zhang that really left zillions of impression in me.
I look up upon it as gems, thinking about it and applying it on almost everything I do.
I ain't afriad to admit it. I ain't the only one with this problem. And so, it shall be an inspiration too. Right, Keay Woon?
"You are smart. But, you are too smart that you think you are always right"
From this statement, think and you can come up with a few more conclusions.
Stubborness.
Well, I can quite proudly say this isn't a problem for me for the past few days and aiming for the future.
IT made me ponder on many of my flaws and I'm really optimistic I can be happy once again.

"Born to be happy" quoted by Yi Han.
"Smiling makes you happy" quotoed by Yi Han.
WEEEEEEEEES

Once I start bogging, everything seems to come in mind.
Going Safra tml to train again.
Shall remind myself now.
Blog about that arrogant,proud guy and LIU XIANG! X)))

Busy as ever,Jared he is.
Back from Shanghai again, after spending almost a month there,, on two trips.
A school immersion trip and a club shooting training trip.
Both have differences.
Both are of different natures,and thus the reaps of both trips are different.
I would say, I learnt more during the shooting trip, despite me not treasuring,cherishing it enough at the beginning.
Regrets are inevitable towards the end of the trip but I'll just make do with whatever I have.

Well, I would rather like to bring out something I think, is rather serious and terrible.
It's more commonly seen in neighbourhood schools like Fuhua and not better schools like Ahmad Ibrahim, I'm quite sure.
It's something we lived with the moment we came into the school and it shouldn't be.
We just took it as part of life when it shouldn't and couldn't be.
I only specifically realised I'm living with it day by day just recently when comments from people from other schools are made.
What's with gossiping, or talking bad about someone, in front of behind their back, or backstabing or anything of this nature?
Why do we do this?
When people who love to gossip and people who are good ear listeners get together, the result is scary.
Lots of comments are said.
And, what bad influences can they do?
The speaker simplys reaffirms about what he feels about something when he comments about them.
And in the process, this impression on that something is fixed, and he now has got such a view that's hard to change about that something.
And while he speaks, the listeners may be influenced.
The story about the RI boys who were unhappy about Coach Zhang.
That really brought more light to the main point.
The bad effects of gossipping is endless and scary.
Rid it. Play a part in doing so but you've got to start it yourself.
You yourself have got to speak,comment less when people do gossip.
Don't get influenced or think the wrong way from what people say.
I always do, and it's a fact I can't control what enters my brain.
Don't know what to say furthur but I'm rather sure, I didn't bring my point out well enough to convince and make everyone understand.
Forget it.
The quality of my English is deterioating fast.
I've got problems expressing myself in words and that's really really important.
Think about it.

Last post before I embark on a few hours flight to the frightening China.

Meanwhile, back in Singapore.

I had a wonderful time smsing some of my friends.
And those I smsed.
TIFFANY. RENEE. YIHAN. CAROL. daniel. reina. glenn. tammie. MUSFIRAH. LIYAN. KENNETH. MSCHAN. SOCCERPALS.
Lotsa loves and missed I have for all of them.
I can't bear to leave them.
Wonderful friends they are, some weren't there.
Some need not even sms, I can just receive their dearest wishing from my heart.
But some. What type of friends can they be.
Awws.

But at least. I spend the whole day smsing these few ppl.
Happy, a simple 5 letter word sums up what I felt.

No words can describe how much I'll miss them and in this period, I can't shower them with the love and concern I would like to.

I'll miss my dear Sec2s. The humour of Melvin and the sharing of thoughts with Samuel.
The funny face of Carissa and the cute laughter and voice of Reina.
Lastly the worries that Glenn gives me.
But ultimately one thing will always be in my head.
Fuhua Shooting Club it is called.
I wish I could be there meddling around with everything and enjoying the heaps and praises of Coach.

I'm actually leaving the comfort zone of Singapore for a city so unsafe called China.
And here, I already hear of the Dos and Don'ts there.
Right now, the impression is that it's a fucking dangerous place where I risk losing all my belongings in a blink of an eye.
Ironic I'm, I'm scared.
How terrible it would be to lose all you have and to live with that fact for 14days.


What a terrible day I had today.
As usual, disappointments.

I had disappointments every single freaking weekend this year and when will it ever stop.
It's having such a negative impact on my mind that I could blow one fine day.

Bugis. Queensway. Chinatown
Imainge going there with your parents.
it's my worst nightmare.
Uneasy, pointless I felt.
How I wish I had Tiffany with me.
Tuition's always stopping her on Sundays and how much I miss her, it's always so much.


' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
then u can fuck her
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
n see whether same sensational feelin
Jareldo. QQ(: EVIL and RIP IT OFF.hehes. says:
i love tiffany 100%
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
lol
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
jus 100%
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
nt even 110%
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
i bet ur dick was hard when u dreamt of that
' 膼脙艊抹EL_ .螡蟿维谓喂蔚位_ ._ . _jG_ . failure No. 7_ . The SupReMos_ . Its Time_ . 2007_ . says:
n wont b surprised u had wet dream

WDF DANIEL.


IM UTTERLY LAZY TO MAKE MY LAST POST A MEMORABLE ONE.

BUT I LOVE THEM.

Just can't bear not to blog.
HEHES.

I just recalled.
Samuel owes me 25.
Yumiko owes me 10.

Check out my wallet.
Penniless I'm, still wanting to roam the street of Orchard one last time, with only a pathetic 10 bucks!?

Mr Phor's tagging along this China trip, being the extra burden we have to carry.
And with the teachers already suck till no mud can stick them, Mr Phor has to make the plane heavier with his gayish antics.
How embarassing.
I wish to capture evidence of him touching Ryan's tummy again(:

Now, I'm really sleepy.

3 whopping weeks and 6 pathetic days.
The duration of how long Jared won't be in Singapore.
China he will be spending almost a month there,
gorging at girls,
shop till he gets rob.
He will this time, really can't bear to leave.

He will want to prefer to stay in Singapore.
To continuing having fun and work and play hard with my sec2s.

He prefers to continue smsing with his well treasured friends.
And, never forgetting sweet poop and TIFFANY.
Lotsa loves and misses to everyone.

He will prefer to make full use of time, not miss training, and SHOOT more and more.
But well, I've been a HUGE improvement and thanks for the praises Coach.
I got to know him much better now.


My luggage.
The same BIG, yet better to be big than small, green one.
It's being stuffed with tons of items.
And the winter clothes do take up lotsa spaces.
I haven't got everything I needed YET.
And with things like gifts for host family and stuff, still on the shelves in town, I shall remind myself that tml's the last day.

Dates for my trips
--> 20th Nov(10am) to 2nd Dec(8pm) Eastern Airlines
--> 4th Dec(Midnight) to 17 Dec SIA

*Look at Kenneth Lim's msn nick.
"Anything, sms/email/fax/call/snail mail/pager/telegram/morse/DHL/FEDEX me"
How funny it is.
The Kennot is making himself available to contactX)



What a piece of shit he is.
How innocent he may look, he is such a son of a bitch.
What he does behind your back is horrifying.
I could never guessed it in a million years.

Call me envious or jealous or anything. I admit I probably am.
But what you've done, for me. makes me want to hate you.
Shameless bitch.

Simple you may seem to be, you're indeed powerful and connections are strong.
Mind games I love to play, I'm afraid you'll cry and ask to fuck yourself.

Do whatever you want.
I'll just sit on my sofa, envying or hating.
I'm tempted to follow suit too.

Furthermore, whatever you've done, is just a small scale of what I've done in Sec1.
I just wanna rip your balls off for all the smses and time you have.
And ultimately, the simple looking character or personality you have.
It's so deceiving.

Continue doing so.
And one day, your balls will drop and shotgun will fire no shots.
Cause Jared will be there to wack you and despise you for all the "good" things you've done in your eyes.

I can always be EVIL when I want to.
But most importantly, the FIRE in me is starting to return.


LOVE LOVE LOVE.
A nice, sweet indescribable feeling that is well sought after.
It can make you go blind or so crazy about it.
Without Love, I see a dull Earth infested with millions, or billions of Victors fucking one another.

And for true loves,they are so hard to find.
Almost an eternity it seems to take to build that mutual trust and understanding.
And not forgetting the good communication required.
And with trust and understanding comes tolerance and lots of moments to be cherished.

And I realised.
No matter how much you may love someone,
you may not receive the love back or even get into a relationship.
If the love is so deep, you need not get together for it to last.
Leave things as it is and the love can be well felt too.
But it takes a well matured, not so affected by greed in life to accomplish that.

Many do say relationships are SWEET and NICE only in the beginning.
I can quite agree.
That's when the couple pass the first test and are ready to date.
If they can withstand the conflicts, arguments, the problem of having less time for each other and still let the LOVE blossom, then a bright future awaits.

And from there, spending life together, just simply arguing at home regarding the child's education.
It's the beginning of another very NICE life with the words, "I love you", already stored in the heart, and requires no drop to saliva to say it out to withstand the marriage or relationship.

True Love's hard to find.
I thought I found mine but learnt lessons from it.
But obviously, the power of true love will withstand the power of TIME and it's just so so many times stronger than the love that most are experiencing in Sec Sch now.

Different relationships, feelings, expectations, mentality and attitude.
It's just part of the ever growing list of reasons why stead is used a million times daily.
And what a piece of stinky piece of shit that word it.
Opps. It isn't even a word. It's just something Singaporeans love to use.
And how terribly the situation is now.
I foresee many patchy marriages in future for everyone.
And I'm also worried if I would be left on the shelf, along with Cheryl or Tiffany.



Okay. So it's a NEW beginning for FSC.
FUHUA SHOOTING CLUB.
What a club it has been for many years.
A short history it owns, yet mounting pressure is on us to achieve more.
I have a hand in it too, not leading my team well to victory then.
And the next chance only comes next year.
What a long wait it is.

And there goes the passing cloud.
Mr Ng.
What a cloud he has been.
Showers of love, CARE&CONCERN he has given us.

We love, enjoyed it.
It's been gratifying.
And he's off to another journey in his life.
Punggol he lives, 2hrs or more the time required to get from the NORTH to the WEST.
Exhausting and time-consuming, the words to describe his travelling.
Compiled with the fact of him ageing as each second of his life ticks.
He made the decision, not say easy or tough, but necessary to be sensible to make.

I, give him the best blessings in his new well awaited life and may good shine and be with him.
And FSC shall now await the new TOIC.
But meanwhile, Ms Chan will gladly be the one sticking around more.

And now that I'm bestowed/conferred with a new title or name, I've responsibilities to fulfil.

I'm rather confused. Always playing tug-O-war with myself.
Mind games or physically, I'm a fighter her. I think.
I wish not to eat my own words like Shittu did when Drogba scored a hatrick and was powerless to do anything.

I need to have a clear mindset of what my role is and what I have to do.
As I analysed, the three of us, all provide different qualities on the table that could hint towards a formidable team or leadership.
I don't know whether to stick to what I've done all the time or to step up, and do even more things that I never did before.
But ultimately, I've got to be flexible, be ready for any bulge of problems heading my way.


I talked to Rachel.
We both felt the other party seem to be more approachable now and I've got no qualms towards it.
The problems are there for me to try to solve.
I blown them up and I've got to wrap it all up and end it, Quick.
Fret not. I seem to be more than willing to do things for others now.

And as time passes, I've earned the nick of DA-MANG-REN.
Well, I seem always BUSY.
But obviously, there are people who really deserves the nick more than me. Kenneth perhaps?
I'm so worried and anxiety runs through me.

I took the first step of sacrificial by choosing to take the 7 subjects and not 8.
As now, I stood in the same class as Glenn, having to face the reality that we are in such a VERY LOUSY, LOW QUALITY class.
It could be a doomsday call for some and yet another step towards Doomsday for others.
For me, I'm thinking of the best now. But I'm wary of how quickly things can change and I can alrd see glimpses of how negatively natured my future would stand out.

Mr Khusni's words for me has been motivating. But well, it's only one small step beckoning me to work harder for what I want and improve on those I ain't good at.

And plus Mr Ng's aspirations for me.
I've learnt alot.

The principles are learnt from every actitivity and second of life I've gone through.
They only are put in place when the situations calls for it.
But, principles are often overshadowed by pure desires of self leisure.

And that's all I'm gonna blog today.
I hope I can blog again tml, or else this will be my last post before I embark on a tough experience in China, sharing the same room with RyanAng and who knows what we might do.

It's rather deceivable.
Looks.
No matter how innocent looking one is, or how quiet they are,
never assume that they probably have a as boring life as they seem to have.
For instance, Samuel may be quiet, sitting down there, looking at things with his sharp eyes.
You wouldn't know he stays in Woodlands.
You wouldn't know that he has dated before.
You wouldn't know that he has such a wonderful life he has outside with a different group and type of friends.
You wouldn't know he was a thinker who observes and thinks most of the time.
In Daniel's case.
You probably won't know he has such a love and stead life.

And so, I forgot what my point was.
How FUNY I am.

But Samuel.
I so agree with you regarding perspective towards IT.


I think I got the flame in me towards blogging back.
And these flames exists in strong people like Fergueson or Mourinho or Wenger.

And mosquitos has preyed on this tall guy here and sucked his blood when he needs more of it to SURVIVE hitting the pillar.

Is my nose crooked?

And.
FOR THE WHOLE WORLD WHO DID NOT KNOW.
But well, I guess almost everyone knew like on the day itself.
More specifically minutes or hours later.

I was in school.
I had the walkie-talkie.
I was asking Melvin to come back since he was walking out of school.
And Daniel was talking on the talkie to scold me.
and I was saying "DANIEL where are....
and I turned my head, and
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM
I crashed into a pillar.
I feel straight down immediately.
I bled seconds later.
and I stood motionless.
Had difficulty breathing.
And I thought I would DIE.
After all, I had a heart problem

Kawasaki Disease it was, named after that Japanese city.
The valve in my heart doesn't close to the fullest when others do.
And so, my heart has to pump more to get the same amount of blood.
AHAHAS.

And so, I thought.
THANK YOU DANIEL.
I DIED. AND YOU PARTLY MAKE ME DIE!!
MUHAHAHHA.
I WILL HAUNT YOU and RIP YOUR BALLS OFF.
MUAHAHAHAHAS.
I WILL KISS YOU AND TAKE PEACHJUICE AND FEED YOU.
MUHEHEHEHEHES.

JUST JOKING ANW.
you aren't to blame.
But, it's NICE to see that walking on walkietalkie is rather DANGEROUS expecially when tall, horny people, with not much sense of balance is using it.

I BLED. And the blood stains are still there.
Went to the clinic with Mr Lee.
Had early lunch, took medicine and went back to sch, talked to the SS teachers.

THE DOCTOR SAYS".. DANIEL must be grateful that I don't think you have a fracture"
But you can BEG Daniel to get you an X-TRAY.

Another AHEMING FUNNY JOKE of mine(:

And plans are changed for the SS project.

And the Jackets and Pants were out in the parade square being SUN-ED

It will smell less, would it?

I thought.
I rather keep the memories and explainations in myself.

I've got lots of things to blog for many many many individuals.

But there are three surprises that three individuals gave me.
One HE and Two SHES.

1)SHE.
Stepped up even more towards leadership.
Have some qualities but not a leader for me but one who clicks well with others with her enthusiasm.
She's great. She stepped up another level and has a great future here.
Her adult life, I think her old self suits more.
But well, I appluad, respect, and was very happy with what she has done.

2)SHE.
Listened to me and my advice.
Changed. Did what I asked taught her to do.
Back-fired probably because I did not make myself clearer.
I rushed into her changing and now I shall bring her back onto the right track.
It will be tough winning back the hearts of others, depending on how well you can make full use of everything you have now.

3)He.
MARVELLOUS Observation skills.
Very humourous.
Talks very straightfoward but offends no one with his unique humourous character.
I've no idea whether he thinks just like any other person just that he thinks differently OR whether he is just such a SMART person that is so many many levels higher than those around him.
I think he is far ahead of most people around with his inner intelligence that he has not openly showed.

As an individual, my purpose of the camp, was different from all others.
In the end, I got the chance to individually get to know some people much much better.
I stood as an observer, not up there with the other leaders, put myself in the worst position that I could go, made sure I understand how EVIL I was, and made sure how I knew I could solve it.
The idea was to make me myself know how to handle the worse people I could experience by making myself the worst person itself.

I prepared myself very well.
I played mindgames with myself.
And I think I'll be mentally stronger than before but now as strong as I wished.

And ALL that I've blogged, is what everyone would probably prefer to keep to themselves or it's like no one explains themselves regarding such stuff.

I went into the camp with much much unhappiness.
And they were already publicised even before the camp, in the planning stages.

I was lost.
I couldn't devise a plan or no nothing to how I could solve it.

And so, I made the most of my unhappiness.

I made even more wide-spread. I turned it into EVILness.
I made sure I was as BAD as I could.

From there, it's going on to what I planned.

I got the response I wanted.
The advice came in.
They talked to me.

Melvin and Reina mad a great impact.
And then, EVIL morphed into promises which in turn, became a slighty changed JARED.


Forget It.
I don't know how to explain myself.
All I knew was that what I've done is like treating poison with poison.
And it's something I learnt to do from great people of the past.
I LEARNT and put it into practise
And in these situations, explainations are hard to accept.
It's how well the person put the art of the moves in place.

So. One Major Problem is almost solved.

Now here comes other many Smaller problemsX)



THE SEC2S.
What as group we are.
A small group of a combinations of different characters.

Jared-?
Samuel-Quiet Silent Thinker.
Melvin-StraightFoward,Clicks with others easily, Many Innovatice Ideas
Reina-Warm,very strong connections with others and Socialises well.
Glenn-Many new fresh ideas.
Carissa-Willingness to do what's expected.

Just a rough quick summary of our qualities.
Minus the moodswings, tantrums, tempers, conflicts, difference of ideas,
We make a SUPERB team.

And during this camp, I'm just so proud of the SIX of us.
We have never been closer than the past 3days.
And despite us shouting at each other, me fighting with them, or just inacceptance of each other and their actions, we get back together, heals and gel back together so quick that it seems nothing has happened.

I ain't lying to myself.

And I see a bright future for the SIX of us.
and I'll lead them well,
do what I need to do.
or continue doing what I've been doing.
Fine-tune it and make us formidable and bring us up to the next level.

As Ms Chan and I said,
We have never gone down a level.
That's a PLUS.
But yet, we've not moved up a level since our qualities didn't move up too.
That's a PLUS and MINUS.
And, I'll make it a reality.

A BRIGHT BRIGHT Future for US.

Back from Shooting Camp. Yes.

Camp ended, and settled finding the range keys, had to be Daniel's slave running up and down the stairs and yays im FREE.!

Lunched with Adelene,Melvin,Carissa,Samuel.
FRIES we had.

Valerie was with some guy.
And she was with some guy, whom carried her bag to sch on the first day of camp.
And she received a packet of drink after going OUT to meet someone during sec day of camp at 11pm.
My conclusion is. SIMPLE.

Reached home at 5.
And slp at 6.
And, dozed off to sleep and woke at 8am.

Rejuvenated. X))

I'll sperate my posts to make it more organized

I'm just going NUTS in my head.
Now, I've to THINK. THINK. and THINK.
But yet, I don't know what to think about.
Everything that I think is so saddening.

And I now declare myself NUTS king.
I exceeded the MAX LVL of 7. Is it 7? Can't recall.
HEHEHEHEHESX)

Ask me.
What would be the reason for me still wanting to live.
It's no longer the soccer, shooting,or friends&family.
It's no nothing.
And,it's rather alarming.
A goal, I've set myself months ago.
It has changed the course of my life.
It was based on the influence from him.
I was so obsessed in it that I neglected every other thing in my life.
I practically just left it to rot.
What a dreadful mistake I've made.
Now, seems like I'm gonna get what I want.
But now. Is that what I really want?
Am I really gonna take a step up, make all the necessary sacrifices.
I don't feel ready too.
It's always like that.
I always feel ready.
And yet when I really think of some others things, I always can't let go.
Anw my attention was all shifted into it.
And right now, or for the past few wks or a mth or so, I've been regretting it.
I've lost everything I had.
I paid the price.
What am I now?
A total piece of shit that even me myself hates.
What have I done to hurt others?
Plenty.
What crap is Jared now?

What's going on in my mind?
I just can' give you an answer, Daniel.
I've lost the battle.
I've lost control of myself and of the situation.
It's now, only up to ME who is gonna salvage it and turn it around.

I'm gonna go back to the basics, for shooting and for what's left in my life.
I screwed them all up right from the start.
And SHE was all right.
She tried to teach me and well, I think I managed to grasp what I needed to know to advancing.

I'm no different from a sec1.
The way they live and how irritating they are and others.

This will probably go on for months. Maybe years.
I can't afford that long.
I've gotta do it right now.
But, what do I even start with when I don't even know what's going on in me?

I need guidance, like I've given to other friends.
Not those close ones but THEM, my LOVESX)

I've gone through alot.
Others would probably not gone through as much.
But, the difference in me and others is probably the WANT to be more than average.
I've lots of hunger for it and I probably overdid it.
I'll be lying if I said I've gona through all it unscattered.
Cause, I lost everything, gained nothing.
I hate myself for it.
Look at what a person I'm now.
Hw troubled and how offending.
It's evident I've changed for the worse.
It was a gradual change and yet, I thought I was actually changing for the better, and didn't give much bother to it.

And so, starting from everything from the basics will probably be the best solution.
Only time will tell and time, in this case, is probably not on my side.
And maybe the one month China trip will do the trick.
We'll see.

But meanwhile, during the course of the 3D2N camp, I'll give it another thought, look at every detail and see what might be the thing that will make a difference to me.

But, the main thing now is, just advice, guidance, and I'll be back on the right path quick.
And I see no one, no one arnd me who could do the job.
Prove me wrong, take this opportunity well .
Approach this matter in SMART way.


I'm just not gonna fork out time for that.
But, she's so adorable!
arghs.
Can't wait for Friday for you to tell me.
Don't even know if it's something BIG or not.
But, I'll await it with great antcipation.
But as I've said all the time, it's most important to get the know the person well.
Half of it, will probably not do the trick.
And my closing words are,
I believe in FATE and GOD, probably more and more day by day.

Friends we can be.
Colleagues we can't be.

We can. Change the way we work and it will be a CAN in future.
And it won't be so until new ideas can be introduced.
It can't until the person who controls the ideas that comes in leaves.
He filters it and lets the one which he think will work, in.
This is right.

But too bad.
He has a strong character.
He has just so many abilities that others can only dream of or want to emulate.
But it will just come to nothing if it can't produce the things required.

So what if he can produce the results or the final product?
The people in the team are as important.
If the people can't work together and including those things which are happening now, I deem the leadership a failure.

Well, different people in charge have different mentalities.
Beware. Do not let someone Horny become the PM.
Imagine what the country will be.

It's the same in this case.
If interal problems occurs in the country, yet they still manage to earn a high reputation for the country, then oh sorry. Jared feels it's still not success.
Balance would be better.

And what's the point of doing those things you are doing now?
You are struggling with it.
And, don't you realise you are busy all alone with only them with you?
You just lack that thing in you. That forcefulness or that charisma to earn the respect from others.
The respect people have for you, will be the day I will praise you and say ' Good Job"
And that is only the day when people will work for you.

Until then, look at things now.
I'm sure that with your observation skillls, you would have a brief picture of what's happening now and how some feel.

Tell you straight.
What's the point of our presence when we do not feel welcomed and stuff.
It seems to us that it makes no freaking difference.
If you had a good start right at the beginning, you would not see this now.
This isn't what we expect to see too.
But its the bad start which sets all the wrong attitude, mentality in us.
And, that will be applied to everything we do.

Go do a survery and cross check with what I say.
Beware of lies.
There are plenty.
And interrogation is not that a good way to use at this age, used on people of such tender age.
It's only used for criminals.
And I do not owe you money nor do I burnt your house.

Despite my efforts, not say greatest, it seems the matter is coming to an end.
I keep telling myself, what's the point of me making an effort to do what's required when the others aren't doing a good job.
There are other principles that is in my head.
But, I prefer to believe in what I see and not what I know I can do.

How I wish I could be an on-looker just looking at how great you all are without us anw*

I learnt from all your mistakes.
And I did not commit them in my blar.
It was a complete success where everyone was so involved that at least no one was glumpy.
All of us were so together, really worked hard as a team and made things possible.
Well, I made comparisions and thought of how wrong you MAY be.

I ain't interested in that.
Please everyone.
Don't.
Not at all.
It might be a rash foolish decision.
But, oh. It's you who made it so complicated and yet produce results.


And I lost the ingredients for a critical post.
I've been great in it in the past.
Maybe I shld read Samuel's old post again.

I've been kind with my words and portrayed it in a different way.
What I really want to say, I'll keep it to myself and not speak unless the situation calls for it.

Went Orchard in the morning.
Went for my doctor checkup. Cardiology or heart problem.
And yet to put on that machines with wires.
So troublesome.

Beware of HORNY FLASHERS.

Anw then it was the Open House.
Shot.
Shot pellets and took many shots my the camera belonging to the World's Best Photographer.
Ahem*
I LOVE ALL THE GROUP PHOTOS! =DD

Then, went Vivo with YuWei and someguy and their senior whom the FISH said was so so so rich who opened his own company.
I'm starting to suspect he is a gay who has yet to make his move.
Those gays that are being reported, probably Michael Jackson's disciple?
Hmmms.
But well, he's a nice guy too.
Treated us DINNER.
And oh. He talks alot.
Alot. Alot.

That Auntie at Tangs was so fierce luhs.
Can't take pic only marh
Must shout like as if you wanna beat me up?
More like I give you a big fucking glare to put you into submission.
Grrs.

Anw I shall blog less.
I need to find back that magic typing skillls for my blog !
HEHES.
and oh. Please YouRen or Carissa or others. Pls give me feedbacks?

And when youren said my own blogging style was nicer, it just totally reminded me that I accidentally my blogger account that time and all my memorable memories are GONE.
those sweet memories in soccer, safra, crushes, shooting.
Ya. That Shooting Post where I wrote after talking to Diona and received a tongue lashing.

I love my JRG.

And THAT symbolises our brothership.
Don't lose it again.
Treasure it this timeX)
That cost me 9bucks too.!
My GIFT for you.

And speaking about gift, I love that gift from YIHAN and FION okay.
So sweet of them!
And I'll wait and sweet what Reina has in store for me(:

24Hrs is gonna be over soon.
And that is when I can take that device on my body.
SECERT for most.

PHONES are LOVE.
Without it, the whole world seem abit duller.

It's weird.

Went to Weeklock to get my phone repaired.
And so, I have to use that so screwedup 6230 phone.
That BIG crack on the screen. And the navigation arrow button are even spoiled.

GLAD that I'm only using it for ONE day tml till after 5pm.
That's when the guy say I can come and collect.
Which means, I have to rush to Orchard again tml to get my phone RIGHT AFTER the Fuhua Open House.
I don't wanna go there alone!
I'm alrd going there alone in the morning to Mount.E for my checkup.

It's KAWASAKI DISEASE everyone. X)))

Who knows. Flu may be named as KAWAHACHIU DISEASE in futureX)

But what puzzles me is that, I seem to receive more msgs from 6230 and it's more pleasent to read from it.
The 5500 one. Awws got msgs luhs. But, not as often. The quantity is there though.
And with the keypad so dificult to type, it just seems to be reason for me not feel like replying.
And tada. Here is the reason for my slow repliesX)


CuiYun and Tammie came my house this morning to do the Social Studies.
It's like I found out so so many other groups haven't even started.
Well it's just a fact that my team's industrious.

Halfway, we decided to go Chiense Garden.
Took a bus there and back.
Took pics. And walked one whole big round arnd the temple to take a pic with the Qin Shi Huang.

AND AND.
I must own a car in future.
Tammie you know why.
HAHAHS.
coz we saw a male and female effing in a car luhs.
awwws.
hehehs.
blar.
muhahahs.
i don't know how to react.
Just such an eye-opener.
I thought Hotel81 is cheap?

And then saw 2A and 2E group there.
And them. Do project, must call stead come de mehs.
Ewwws.

Waited for Yumiko at Lakeside

Then after that, went Orchard.
Ate that horny icecream.
Went to NokieCare.
Bought that two paper.
And Yumiko was so so so so obsessed with the phones.

Went Bugis.
And I'm too tired to blog.

Lots of things to be done tml.
Awwws.

Despite Mr Khusni saying that I show interest in general classrom matters, I just realised recently that I totally am not.
I know nothing about things happening between my classmates.
I felt inferior to them and didn't give ourselves a opportunity and talk, interact and know each other better.
I was the one who closed myself up and I paid a price for it.
But still, I helped me take a distraction off for me to concentrate on something during that time.


And to YOUREN.
I think you can be my BLOG ANALYST.
Tell me what's interesting and what's not to read.

I think the BLOGSKIN plays a part too.
I tried reading my posts from my blogger account straight.
I realised that it was much more interesting to read from there than reading it straight from my blog.

I know, inside me, whose blogs I love to visit and read.
And those ppl's blogs have usually pure white/black/grey colour background.
There aren't any picture in the backgroud, only at the side.
And, the layout is rather simple, neat, and organized and it's rather pleasent to read with the attraction pull of the colours tooX)

SO. I need a new blog skin to try to liven things up=DDDDD

My blog seems to be something I hanker for again.
I seem to have a million and one things to blog about again.

As usual, I slept late ytd.
3 it was.
And for the first time in months, I got the chance to woke at 1230.
Realised I had little time left.
Seriously felt so refreshed in such a long time.

But tml, Daniel says he has a task for me.
I really hope its 5-10mins.
But, I ain't even sure if I can complete it.

I heard it somewhere.
"Do not packed your days with too many things. Let go of things when necessary. Learn to say no if you can't do it. Your days will be more relaxed with things to do"
But, I seem to love packed days.
It means, I have things to do and will hardly be bored AT ALL.

Met Melvin for lunch, had nasilemak.
'O' Lvls were on and it was no surprise for him to tell me all buses are packed with Sec4s.
Ofcoz, they didn't want to be late. And even Melvin claimed he was definitely the shortest in the whole bus.

Went to range.
Climbed up the stairs, and saw Mr Lee Kok Wee.
YES. KW.
Change the E to the I and it will be her ahem ahem whom is not committed?
Anw melvin and carissa told me that he pointed at me while I was running up the stairs trying to deny him a chance to get a good look at my face.

I shot. Took breaks. Shot Break.
Many breaks.
If THEY can have "MENTAL TRAININGS", then I can have mental breaks tooX)

Ms Chan, these days seem to free.
She came up to range and talk talk talk to THEM.
And then I couldn't join in since I thought training is more imp.
I still WANT to ACHIEVE MY GOALS AND ASPIRATIONS.
Anw I'm do different from a freaking Sec1 who just started out shooting at one point of time today.
Well I got back up.

I threw away everything. Every single thing
This is what SOMEONE asked us to do at the beginning of the year.
I did it only at the end of the year and I have only got 1 or 2 more trainings before I'm leaving Singapore for ONE WHOLE FREAKING MONTH.
JARED, CONFIRM, WILL, MISS EVERYONE and EVERYTHING in SINGAPORE.
And YES, SOCCER TOO. Will there be ESPN in China?
Awwws.
And those sweet people, troubling problems/conflicts.
I WILL MISS THEM.
Awws.
Thank myself that it's still a week away.
Thank myself, that I've not even started buying or packing a single thing.
Thank Ryan for telling me he has basically packed most of his stuff alrd.
HE'S FAST.
I'M SLOW. Still Slow.

is she still as fast? i wonder.*

They were busy doing their NYAA.
Okay.
It's like 1000000000yrs ago that other ppl has done them
And, SHOOTING CLUB ppl are only doing it just so last min?
AWWWS.
I can't wait to see Mdm Oen's reaction. X)

But wait.
Shooting is kinda a slow sport.
It's best to have minimum movement when shooting.
So if Mdm Oen is angry, I shall use...
KENNETH+CHONGWAI+JARED+???=SOUND WAVES
to make mdm oen deaf.

and if you can't rmb. I shall remind everyone.
We can shout from the armoury
and, I can hear the shoutings from the HomeEcons room.
How marvellous rights.

WHAT A SUPERB IDEA.

anw YOUREN ahhs.
from the "went up to range" till "what a superb idea" COMMA
Is it exciting?
It is really quite tough typing like that since I haven't done so for so long.


IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY.
15 you are.
And congrats.
'O' Lvls are up next and you are up with lotsa stress and less time on the computer(:
Even your lessons now are so making you not want to attend.
I can imagine that sweet yet sour face of yours.
But, it makes no sense.

okay YOUREN.
I read my older posts.
I must so so so damn agree that it's rather BORING.
I don't know what to do!
I think it's the content, not the style. or both is as guilty?
arghs. knock some ideas into my head. please.

Anw they copied my NYAA.
They got to see my small little handwritings I wrote for Mr Khusni to stare with with mesmerizing eyes.
At least, I write bigger words now.

They passed my NYAA arnd till no one knew of its whereabouts.
So angry I was, I starting FISHING here and there.
I think I FISHED every single one whom I saw.
I just couldn't FISHING find my NYAA.

I FISHING called the other FISHING Sec2s and all fFISHING said they didn't know where it was.
I was so FISHING angry.
It's like, I've never been so FISHING angry before and I FISHED up today over a FISHING NYAA.

In the end, I went to look at Mr Ng's FISHING PigeonHole upon Reina's suggestion.
I FISHING found my FISHING NYAA and I just threw it into Ms Joanna Chan's pigeon hole.

I was FISHING cursing that person who took my FISHING NYAA and handed it up without FISHING telling me.

I apologize okayX))
So sorry. It was a BIG FISHING loss that I could not FISHING accept.

And YanJing is so CREATIVE with his FISHING idea.
Yes. I love to FISH.
HAHAHAHAS.
I just used it whenever I can. Don't mean it.



I JUST GOT SO FUSTRATED WITH MY POST WITH THE LACK OF CREATIVITY AND EXCITEMENT THAT I WAS SO PROUD OF AND DECIDED TO STOP BLOGGING.

I need to practice blogging, do I?

As usual, I'm sleeping after 2 again.

Well, it has now come to this stage.
She said I made it so much worse.
I don't know.
I don't know what I was thinking at that time.
I don't know what I've done ytd.
But the aftermath is just not pleasent to watch.

So many issues and points I thought about today.
It's a pity.
Trace it, and anyone could confidently say that I've caused it to be this way and made it worse.

I don't know.
I don't know anything.
I don't know my next move or what I'm gonna do next.
I don't know how to deal it with and what my mentality should me.
It's just so horrifying and dreadful to think of it.
It just reminds me of how sweet turned to awkward, then to anger and to furious*
It just reminds me of those sinful things I've committed.
It just reminds me of every single thing. Every bad and happy memorable moments we spent together.

Am I gonna be so useless and just hide and run away from it and just leave it as it is.?
I know I do not have any input from ppl arnd me, I will probabaly stay put.
Whys. From an outsider's point of view, I should do something.
I just can't bring myself to it.
It's just no face and too guilty to approach you and the problem.
It's just seems unsalvagable I felt.
It just felt like I dug the hole deeper ytd and it's almost impossible to get out of that hole.
More like, I'm jsut too afraid to do so.

She kept persuading me to do what I need to do.
I felt it was of no use.

Damn.
I just seriously don't know ANYTHING.

I'm such a weakling, cracks under extreme pressure.


3 years just passed like this.
The feelings were true.

It's just a bad post again.



Where are you Samuel?!
I want, need you!
Awwws.

And I so agree with your sentence.
"I used to tell myself I was well above average in terms on intelligence, logic, values, everything humane. Then life hit me with the puberty bat; hard. It took a year or so, but I had thoughts about everything I didn't care about: my future, friends, results from my doings, sex, freedom, the universe."
I just know you are not alone.
Priorities, goals, aims in life change as we grow.
So it's rather normal,I guess.

And anw,go look at mx's friendster.!

And Daniel.
It's so true luhs!
It's so standard.
Maybe I should pay a visit to the Police Station to ask them to see how many % match it has.
What a good idea.
But, the image character personality that those standard blars potray is ahem marh.



CLASS OUTING.
I was the overall in charge with Yumiko.
Thanks ROYSTON. JUNXI. MELVIN. HSIENJUEN. YANMIN. for assisting me.

The world's best photographer forgot to bring his camera.
How absent-minded.
And I saw the quality of the pics the others had.
I was quite bad but well, I ain't despising them.

Think I shall blog more about it tml.
It's just a very very very very super duper long thing to blog about.
I need to choose which are imp content for my blog lors
Or else, I'll be talking so luoso.


It's 1.18am now.
I'm still writing my NYAA.
And the money for the outing.
It doesn't tally.
The facts are right I'm quite sure.
I guess it's the way of calculations that's wrong.
Silly luhs.
Maths sums I can do.
But reallife sums I can't do.
Such a failure.

It's over it seems.
I have got nothing much to say.
All I want to say, I have alrd told you.
That's most of the things.
There's ofcoz many other things I wanna tell, share with you but seems like the situation doesn't invite it.

I just regret every single thing.
No point. Get over it.

Those wilful, silly thinking.
It never should come.

It's getting so speechless.
I have to limit what I can type.
It's so misleading, my blog.
It's silly I call it.
You might have doubts.
But my blog is really no where it used to be.
The contents. The influence I receive are...
You chose to believe my blog and your friends.
Those things are just pure lies.
I provide the truthest answer.

But after all,
It's such a sinful thing I have done.
I'll never forgive myself.
Everything from start to end was just my fault.
You surely have done perfectly nothing wrong.
I'm willing to accept it.

I vow now.
I will come back a reformed person.

With MrNg, MrKhusni and some students telling me the things I wanna hear and those advices.
I'm so sure and confident I can reform myself.
I will and I believe I have that ability to do so.
I will one day have enough face to face you, with such wonderful future ahead I always stressed, I just don't know.


All I think I know is, I just wanna carry a smile everywhere, do what I do best.
Acting tough and pretending nothing happened.

I shall learn from mistakes and experiences as I always do.

I promised so much and I'm confident I can fulfil them all.

I should have more to blog about but just can't seem to get them out of my head.

I just can't seem to express what I truly truly really really feel into words or verbally.
It's just so fustrating.


My shooting.
I think it's all over.
Those blars are over.
It's back to the basics and I think I've found the basic.
Right now, I'm just gonna earn as much money as I can.
Spend only 20bucks at the end of the day.
They will not look nice but it's okay.
It's the earning of money that's more important.
I want to return the faith shown by him and him.
I just wanna prove something to her and hope she will take back her words and never repeat it.
But after all, those words works wonder. I know it.
I always welcome it but never expected it to be so severe.
A little of it is good. I've always done it for my team.

The NYAA is just so pressing and such a bother.
But now we finally have a Miss Joanna Chan looking after us.
So, I can't shirk responsibility.
She gave it to me. I'll accept it with open arms
It's a small task and I'll see what I can do.

But as it seems, it's like a failure.
1pm meet at canteen to do.
Dragged and played through it.
Just no interest luhs.
Glenn Reina came late with the food.X)

Glenn.
Don't know what to describe what he did.
I think I should praise him.
At least he took the initiative and bothers to think for others.
Good progess. It's rather shocking tough but he will get better.
I want to be on his side all over again.
And but ahhs.. he made me fork out 3bucks!
In fact, 4, paying a little for Melvin too!
That is so grrr luhs!
But, I'm looking at the inprovement he has madeX))))

It rained.
And Adelent LiYan and I were caught in the rain.!
and as usual, QQ sweets are nice.
Went to 7-11.
And the two gals left and walked so far without even letting me know.
and accoring to them, they told me yet I didn't hear.
I think I serious am starting to believe what they say about my deterioating ear with the HUHS.
Now, no more HUHS. Just straight completely can't hear.
Omg. What's happeneing!!?

Looks like Melvin saying I will go bald, deaf, blind, having a hunchback by 20 seems to be all coming through.
Scary.
But I'm walking this life with God.

#1. Are you a chinese or english freako?:
ENGLISH. never liked chinese.
#2. If time is going to stop; what will you possibly do for that time?:
Complete the tasks I have to and to really think as much as I can about all issues.
#3. Prefer a playpool or playground?:
a quiet playground.
#4. Do you usually gossip ohers; or being gossiped?:
its all part of life.
#5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs?: .
complicated. coz I get to think and learn.
#6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets?:
numbers
#7. What makes you pissed off?:
I hardly do I think,no matter how I act out as if I'm. I'm the dramatic kind rights samuel.
#8. How's your childhood?:
months ago, Glenn told me:"do you have a childhood or not!? you duno any cartoons." anw i just dislike my childhood though its supposed to be great.
#9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?:
my english cant get me there.
#10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, short or just okay?:
too short. i need more. I've slpin at 3 for days now.
#11. Would you judge people by their appearance?: i guess their personality from the appearance. it tells me a little about the maturity and also the financial background of the person too.
#12. What is attractive in your eyes?: llalalas.only one answer
#13. Do you like the day or night, explain why: day. can do more things. and i wont get to be afraid by the spirits of fear as said by mr ng.
#14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own, or you have insatiable desires?: i get the things I might not want in life and yet wants to pursue more in the character. not materialistic thats all.
#15. If your computer just hanged up; with a long long document not being saved; how will you react?: omg. my efforst are gone. less tym to do other stuff.
#16. Do you believe in miracles?: no idea. dun think it happened on me before.
#17. Do you often tend to forget about the past; or trying hard to do so? What are you trying toforget?: i learn from mistakes from the past. and i love to think about everything, including the past. i cant seem to let go of the past as i dun wanna forget the sweet old memories.
#18. In your mind, why colours are out here?:
colourful.
#19. Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them; etc?:
i do pity. and try to help. and i've cried for samuel. thats the one time i can rmb i cried. others are just come-and-go.
#20. Describe yourself as in attitude:
im horny?
#21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?:
i shall ask you the same question too.
#22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live:
to learn. to interact. we have time allocated to us to spend in anyway we want.
#23. What is your ambition in life?:
so far ahead.
#24. Do you believe in horoscope etc?: YES
#25. Describe music in your life:
wad do you think? I"ve plenty of them and can't live without them.
#26. Which country you would like to go:
parts of europe. england, holland.
#27. What do you think blogging is about?:
to record my sweet memories. to vent my fustrations on it. to make myself clearer on things.
#28. What kind of style you are trying to get hold off?: kenneth's??
#29. When you fail a test: not motivated enough to work harder.
#30. Pass this to 8 friends; for them to get it done.
LAZY TO ASK.

So damn fustrating at times.
While I'm trying to do what I want to do, trying to start from the basics again, I had to face so many things.
He tried to change this and that. Good effort from him.
Then, she came.
Those hurting words.
I hate it okay.
It's so like she pierced a knife into my heart millions of times.
It felt lyk my two year's effort is so worthless, useless.
I was really down.
It was the last thing I would expect to hear from that place.
I was traumatized. I really could not take it.
I pondered about it. Sat there for 20mins, talk to HIM and he was superb.
He didn't say much but what he gave me was the mental support.
I can see those "It's alright" from his eyes.
That feeling is one the reason I can get back so quickly and still stay in it and blar well.
It's all in my mind.
Anw I sat down, think about many things and made a choice.
I'm gonna try her way one more time and see how it goes from there.
It seems quite okay today. Just need more brushing up.
I just need more time.
I'm not gonna bring this crap THERE.
I'm not gonna go there so "empty-handed"

Anw I think I'm oka for now.
But those words.
I will never forget the nature of it.
I will never forget how she talked to me.
She's mean, bias. I just dislike her.

But once I get to know her better, things might change.


After training, went to buy slurpee with Fion.
Saw dora cheryl tammie while going back.

I spilled the slurpee all over.
My hands were sticky too
And I asked to borrow a cloth and the cashier could not hear me or just pretending not to hear huh?
Bought fries, went back to range, went to staffroom.
Chatted here and there.
Ms Chan is so humourous and cute okay.
All those blars.
"I'm a evil wolf how is so horny",
"Jared, eat more carrots"
Her "husband" is a carrot.
llalalals just so funny.
And the yearbook.
Those pics.
Chong Huan look so toot. SongQuan look the same. Hassan makes me laugh like carrots!

CARROT is such a HIGH word now.!!
wees.

LiQing Keneth ChongWai were doing the Maths ELearning things.
So time-consuming and tough.

Till 8+, then went to eat at the same place, same table.
Usual chat about religious stuff.
Mr Ng, your words will be well pondered and noted by me!
I think I now know what to do alrd.
No more troubles for me.
Sry Tammie. I've got nothing to reply for that humble stuff.

China Meeting today is so pointless.
Coz, the agent didn't speak much
Mainly, we just had our ReachOutForTheSkies rehersal again.
It's much better now.
Great
The fun leadership of Ryan and Jared is great.

My phone is so spoilt physically!!
ARGHS.
I need to go Orchard Wisma to repair.
It's still under warranty.



I don't know whether to love you or forget you.
Forgetting seems to be a better choice.
I think I'll do just that.

JINGHUI!
weees.
serious fwens! not serious detest!
You are superb.
And, FATEX)))
HEHES.

She will forever be my first love.
Crushes and loves are different.

And, yes MrNg.
CHARACTER.

Daniel. My great ear listener.
He's superb okay.
HEHES.

He brought rekindled hope in me.
He made me wanna pursue what I want. The encouragement is top notch.
I'm gonna listen to him.

I lost all my treasured ones.
Sounds so much like her.
She told me about it, got over it, started a new life, surrounded with him.
She seems quite happy now.
Am I gonna be like her?

I realised how much I still love her.
How compatiable I thought we were.
It's not like I still think of her once in a while, I don't think of her anymore.
But deep inside my heart, I have no idea if I've gotten over her.
I don't think so yet, after what I spoke to Daniel.
Why didn't it work out.
I've got another decision to make.
I want to go for it.

I will change.
I want to change.
I'm not what I want now.

I pursued something months ago with many people supprting me to do so.
While doing so, I neglected almost everything.
My friends.
The things I always loved to do.
I put IT right in front of my friends and my leisure.
What a bad mistake.
I got something, lost something so dear to me and meant so much to me.
That element. It's now gone.
With it gone, I'm gonna lose something else.
I've got to strike a balance.
No one's gonna give me the right advice or guide me along this path. Not my parents nor my friends nor Mrs Soh.
I'm all alone.

I'm gonna get the things I treasured so much all my life back.
I'm gonna give up some of IT and pursue the other side of my life.

And. Daniel Chew is LOVE.
He's there for me.

Someone had an exhibition today.
Suntec.
She wished for my presence.
But yet, I did not fulfil her wishes.
I brought her HIGH twice yet disappointed her twice.
Well, I couldn't get Tammie nor RG to accompany me
HEHES.

In the end, stayed home.
Helped a LITTLE and I meant really very LITTLE in the painting.
And I was so absent-minded that I forgot to change my clothes before I paint.
And the result, two pants that I really like has got paint on it. !

My house's almost done with the painting.
The hall, masterbed room, study room's okay alrd.
All that's left unpainted is my room.
Who's nice enough to want to come my house on one of the weekdays to help me paint?

I've so little trust in my blog these days.
It's no longer what it used to be.

What's with people these days?
Why can't they be more polite and not say yar yar ot wadeva or such stuff.
It so pisses people off, leaves a bad impression or scar.
Even if they can't be bothered or so, can't they either not reply or just type a damn lol.
It's still better than offending people rights.
But well, there are some people who really deserves them.

And I saw Victor at lakeside mrt that day.
His dressing is simple yet his face freaks one off.

Yes. I don't want to talk about today.
It's better forgotten. Days like this always always suck and I'm sure 99% of people my age will agree.
Awws.

Tried to jio ppl out last min.
In the end, all I got were negative answers and many smses wasted.
And yes, my dad asked me to send less sms.
He asked me to sms more and call less a month ago.*
Well, I'll call less nxt month and see how much the bill comes up to.
Anw I just dislike my plan okay.
500 free smses only and I clearly clearly recalled.
I signed up for this damn student plan lyk 2wks before there was this offer where 1000smses are offered.
I was lyk so grr and agitated okay.

I want to go out.
I've plently of money to spend.
All I lack is the time.
As far as I'm concerned, I don't have too many days to go out and get the things I want and need before the China TripS alrd.
Mon. Tues. Thurs. Fri are all for my shooting trainings.
And yes. I love shooting.
It's not whether I can or cannot pon.
It's whether I want to pon or not.
And, the answer, you know.
I want to train. I want to train hard, and to fulfil my aspirations, goals and all the expectations that the school, club or mainly me that I've set.
But still, not 100% gurantee I will come for ALL trainings.
Seems like so far, for the seniors, only Me, LiQing, Kenneth, Daniel has come for all trainings.
Amazing hornyfied people.

Why does it always RAIN in the afternoon.
I bet Geraldine is behind it.
She must be looking at her RAIN album, emotions got the better of her, as RAIN fell from the sky to visit her.
Any link?

CARISSA. Don't deny it okay.
There is LINK.
Oh and if you didn't know,
I would like to remind the whole world again!
RYAN KEPT BLEEDING IN JAPAN.
I just hope his injections will not take effect and he continue to bleed.
Coz, it's funny right.

TAMMIE.
How I wished. I wished.
I wished I didn't delete that photo!
I wished I didn't lose to you when you tried snatching my fragile camera.
I wished I could somehow pretend to delete the photo.
I wished I could un-delete the photo, load it on friendster or my blog would be better.
I wished you could be famous then.
I wished the photo is not zillions of years ago then.
I wished it was ytd where you were still standing beside Tiffany and....
I made so many wishes for you.
YOU must be so glad you have such a brother rights.
YOU must be so glad you have a reason to slap me.
And I wish my photography skills will flourish taking such horny photos.


Let's do a survey okay.
Tag your answer.
Do you think Zoe's fat at all?
a) Underweight
b) Just nice
c) Average
d) Far
e) Obese


The posting results.
It reminded me of the amount of effort I put in this year.
And I seriously felt so startled when people, who didn't put in effort, are bochap, more interested in wooing girls, having so much problems in his character wants to appeal or just said that they realise their mistakes and wanna change.

But for me, I want the Lit. I want the 8subjs.

But something for me to ponder too.

If I concentrate more on shooting, my studies will be affected.
Likewise, if I concentrate more on studies, my shooting will be affected.
And with such high expectations put upon us by our coach and the school to ease the request for more facilities and equipment, it's hard to balance.
Kenneth seem to be albe to balance it very well.
LiQing seems to be struggling.
The others prefer to ditch shooting for their own pleasure and studies.

The choice has to be made now so that we can set our goals for next year and my path will be easier.
But, I think I'll only approach the problem when it comes.
I'll see.

Jared's in the same class as Glenn and Tammie, HaoLan, HanYang.

How pathetic.
Referring to some of my new classmates.
Most seems to be not heavily involved in outside school activities.

I was thinking of appealing.
But, I kinda stand no chance when 138 people are ahead of the queue.
And on what basis or backing do I have to appeal?
The reasons, I need them.
Reina's suggestions seem to be my only hope.

Yupps. And I roughly thought that it would be great if the shooters can be in the same class.
It makes things much easier.
Face any problems in shooting or studies, we are all in the same boat, can approach the teachers together, study together and stuff.
But well, Carissa wants her Bio.
She wants to be an Scientist maybe?
But I don't fancy her chances of one. Just joking but,
I might giggle when I see that diao yet serious looking face not very sure of which chemicals to mix with which.
HEHEHES
Lack of support and my wish is now dismissed.


My blog, is my sure to my boredom.
Yet, my style of blogging has indeed changed.
Less interesting and the content is not up to what I want.

People must be so enjoying their holidays now.
But for the sec3s, it's studies again with their headstart programme.
And it's purpose is just another reason for me to critise,despise moe.

All but my room has been painting.
What a tedious job I realised it was.
The painting process doesn't take too long.
But, the cleanup and the preparations are unimagineable.

I haven't touch my camera in weeks which means no chance for me to display my photography skills.

FUHUA OPEN HOUSE is next week.
Sounds rather interesting.

My handphone is damaged.
The rubber keypad has came off.
Why does this water resistent phone has such weak superglue or whatever they use.

Her future is so bright. it's just complimented by the fact that she's in the triple science class with a good attitude in life and a superb character that helps alot when she fianlly becomes a adult.
I have no intention to disrupt her life anymore, not even to bother her.
I want to cut all connnections with her.
I don't wanna think of it anymore.
the dreadful-ness you caused me to have will be there for a long time.
But, it's not right for me to blame you
You've done nothing.

Trainings are like so.
Mon Tues Thurs Fri.
In the afternoon and there goes my days.
How do I go out!?
Yupps I only have Wednesday and weekends maybe?
Musfirah! See See See how busy I'm!
JingHui will agree that I'm such a da.mang.ren. de.
hehehs.

Rather fustrateing these days, the trainings.
I don't even want to think about what happened.
Now, I just want to get back to the basics and start all over again.
I'm so taking a big risk. But the rewards are that I'm doing the right things.
At least, I will no longer continue to commit the mistakes and wrong actions I've been committing for 2years again I hope.

Coach Lee is 100% pure hornyly superb okay.
I don't want to describe him in case people like Carissa give that diao face and then influence Ryan to bleed his nose again.
Any link?
HEHEHESX)
But CoachLee is married!!
Awwws. And yes. He has lots of patience and knowledge(:

I want to know.
When is the last time I went out.
Oh. Wks or I can consider them years ago.

Well, there are benefits for being so occupied in shooting too.
I get to save MONEY.
Unlike Tiffany, so NUTS about SHOPPING.
I can't wait to see her BROKE and seeing her wallet so EMPTY.
Then, she will sell off her CANON camera and she will lose all her photography skills.
Make sense rights.
HEHESX)

I ain't horny.
Ofcoz I'm not.
I'm still a damn virgin like Samuel is.
And if I really were so horny towards gals, I would have contracted AIDS by now.
I just misused the word can.

I'm rather interested in attending a Time-Management Course.
Trying to find one on the net but it's rather tough getting a result.
Well, I think those real professional courses cost Thousands.
AWWWS.
But I can go for less professional and cheaper one.X)

GLENN.

I'm sleeping so late at night these days.

Two days ago, I went to watch the TV at 2 since I thought I could watch the Manu match at 3 since Renee reminded me of it.
I feel asleep on the sofa at 230, woke at 5.
So just nice lors. Missed the whole match.
All I could rmb watching was Ferdindand being substitued.

Ytd was so fun. YAYS.
Kenneth and co were lyk shouting from the armoury.
Mari-Serdi-Ya.
Me, PohHui, LiYan went down to the first floor.
I on those colourful tables beside the office.
And once I turned to my right, I saw Mr Phot's face.
So freaky and scary luhs. I just ran off like as if I saw a ghost.

Amazing anw.
Ppl from armoury fourh floor, first floor can hear.
So notes. Knneth has a loud voice.
Whoever is his wife must have bad hearing or else they will go beaf.
Oppps. And my ear is so bad.
People keep kicking my ear when I play soccer rights.
HEHES

Then, after so many things, it rained.
Stopped and MrNg, me, Daniel, LiQing, ChongWai wleft school at 8 to the kopitiam for dinner.
Chatted about religious stuff for the whole night.
I'm so inflenced, impressed.
I'm definately interested in becoming a Christian.
Cliff. Samuel. RyanGoh. Carol.
All christians I can recall now(:

SOCCER
PAINTING.
SHOOTING.


I finally forgot you.
I ain't thiking about you anymore.
I think I'm gonna hate you.
Well, you are such a nicer person and it sounds so blar that I'm hating such a nice person like you.
I committed my whole heart to you, you left it hanging in the air, didn't pump blood to it, then, in the end, my heart rotted as my body started to feel the bad effects of without a hert being taken and pimped with blood,

Ponder on what I'm talking.
But, I love you so much then.
If love made me blind, you made me blind.
I'm tired.
Really Tired
Too tired to reall to bother about so many things
I just hav eto time for her her her her her her her him him him him him it it it them.
All the taskes on my hands.
I step up to take the responsibility yet I think I can't be able to complete the job.

Class Outing.
By Yumiko, Jared.

Didn't blog ytd.
Don't know what to reply for the tags.
But I APPRECIATE those Taggers okay.
I want to suan, scold, criticize ppl now after these few wks where I beared with some other ppl.

I promised.
Tuesday Training.
The Sec2s except me and Carissa went.

The range key saga.
The old auntie is oh so hornee.

I made a choice ,wanted to see if......
and received taunts from HIM.
Fuck him and his fucking attitude man.
I just want his attitude to come back and bite him in the ass over and over when he's an adult.
I shall sit down on a chair with Samuel, 10 years on, and laugh at him.
We'll get the last laugh.
Imagine him fucking here and there when he gets rejected in a job interview.
He can't get anywhere in life with his damn attitude.
I'd pay a million to see that.
We should record his 1 year life
Then record another 10 years later
Then make it into a movie
"The Life of an Asshat"

COACH LEE =DDD

I earned lotsa of money
and
I spent very little money
during training.
But things I bought when I spent money, is so BAD.
Well, only a few ppl can understand my language(:

CARISSA WEEEEEEES
Here's for you and me.
YanJing, don't. Don't get the wrong idea.

Went to bbuy BBubbleTea.
Boguth for Coach too.
Chocolate and Lychee. Mine's nicer. Sorry Coach... HEHESX)

Sang tingmamadehua while walking.
I saw that no one was near us at all and no one was looking and yet,
Carissa claimed on her blog that there were people looking.
Helllo. I won't give public performance de!X)
And Carissa just walked away. Awwws//

It rained in the afternoon.
It was chilly COLD.
My fitness level plus my hurting knee made my training so miserable and a little torturous.
It just made me so exhausted.
And the chilly rain made me so HUNGRY!

Walked past those kopitiams.
OMG. The food just seemed so heavenly that I wished I bought all!
The spongy bouncy soft pimping hot. FISHBALLS.
That fried, grilled CHICKENWINGS in the red hot oven.
The fried CARROTCAKE with the nice aroma with a nice ambience at banquet.
My eyes were glimming with hornyness.
In the end, I bought only 2 popiahs.
The money constraint was the only thing stopping me from buying every single food I fancied.

Went to the confectionary.
And so grrrs. There were no dougnuts that day.! so suay.
Or else, DIONA muhahahahas.
yupps and you nvr tag in ages.
I thought you used to be my best fan of my blog, everyday ask me update
hehehehs.

Went to look for SWEETS.
Bought that QQ gummies.
NICE okay.
Cheap too. 75cents.

Jokes and laugher we had a memorable afternoon as two good friends.

Went back to the range.
The coach so thirsty. Finished the drink so quickly.

I was so HIGH in the range.
Humming some rhymth , I fed everyone that QQ gummy.
Rachel and LiYan and Valerie were good gals.
Weees.



First thing.
Fats or Muscles are heavier?
Zoe says Muscles.
SOCCER=Leg Muscles.
SHOOTING=Arm Muscles.
???=Chest muscles?
???=Thigh Muscles?

Second thing.
Ryan and my leadership is FUN!?
Tammie is out of sorts.
We made THEM laugh.
I made her laugh and she wants to slap me all over again.

*She wants to get some attention so that someone can talk to her.
A TYPICAL action of a SMALL kid.
She got what she want. Everyone stared at her wrote.
" This is stupid", she said.
For most people, her unwillingness to open up to the ppl she is travelling to China with, is stupid.*

*And you. Why did you have to fish out your PSP and put on the earphones and listening to those groovy tunes while there is a briefing going on. Look in the mirror. People will be horrified with your voice and your looks. And you sit like you are some big people with great capabilities. Socialise, I think you would be treated like another valerie.*


I love certain friends more!

I l0ve PAINTING.
But, the preparations and the cleaningup is unpleasant.
It's such an horrendous thing to do!
YOu have to like remove everything from your room including the curtains which is so omfgly so you know.
Then, you have to clean the walls free of dust, lay something on the floor or else, OMG.
Paint. Make sure the paint on the walls are evern.
Some touch-ups.
Then, a tiring task of washing up the floors, the equipment, our hands, hair, etc.
Finally, a daunting task of putting things back into place.
Painting is so easy feat.
More manpower would be appreciated(:


CCHM. <3
Lotsa of muakcs and loves.
*FIVE*

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

CHERYL.!
DOROTHY.!
REINA.!

CARISSA, jiayou with your social skills. wees.
dedicated to you wors. dun disappoint me.

RENEE, great you arent playing lan anymore.

TAMMIE, dun slap me anymore! later cant find husband wors. and yes, thanks for accompanying me sitting down at laugh at the clinic.
and don't forget.
Doctor- "What cream are you applying now?"
Horny Jared- "I can't rmb the name. But, it's FIVE letters"

LAUGH. LAUGH SUMMOR. YOU CAN'T BREATHEX)))

and m.y, pls luhs. you are so gross okay. and still got stead? ewwws. most gross thing ever i think. and yes. thanks for making me wait for a bitch lyk you for so long just now. grrrs.

DANIEL CHEW-tell me what's going on in ur life now! ur results. got scoldings anot?
and you so arghs. so long nvr view my blog. hehehes. you know how i know.

Weeeees~!
I wanna tell the whole world about what status I have.
I'm a COMEDIAN.
I'm a COUNSELLOr.
Well, these are the more recognisable, PRESTIGOUS and OUTSTANDING awards I got from superb friends.

ILOVETIENYIN!. wees
yups. and yvonne miaoxin tooX)
and I just suddenly rmbed.
That tym Safra, my fsc ppl shouted that cheer to ty den her seniors were lyk saying.
"ehs tienyin. got fan club liaos?"
That was one superb JULY rights.

I was promised Month Shoots and Singapore Opens and many other competitions.
The promise wasn't delivered.
Awwws.

I miss that bubbletea shop in Yishun.
Maybe, I might get to witness another gang fight at np Mcd again?
Maybe, I might get to witness another person knocked down by a vehicle, lying on the road, bleeding and covered in a white clothe.
And yes, at that moments I witness those horrifying moments in my life, I wanted to admit. Yishun is rather spooky.
Yet, it's also so memorable.
Coz. Safra is there!
Wees.

Anw that School Magazine.
I want to complain!
It's so BLUR. SO lousy quality.
The pictures are printed badly.
This will not do.


TIFFANY CHERYl JIAHAO YOURENS''' COOKIES Taste so Marvellous Superb and SOFT okay.

Daniel, next tym, don't think of Trenna too much barh. Yupps and don't eat so much Udon.
Concentrate on making NICER SOFTER aixin COOKIES for JARED the HORNY.
Well, I ain't acting horny.

JARED IS HORNY.

MR KHUSNI is LOVE.
Well, he told me so so so so many stuff.
I can write 1000word compo on it?
Anw. Well, he praised me.

Report Bk-->
" Jared is a kind, well-mannered and caring pupil with a pleasant disposition. He displays interest in general classroom matters and offers assistance in problem-solving. He is also well-behaved during lessons."
And my CCA attendence is 100%
WEEES~!
Daniel is complaining of his low attendence rate.
And I guess, the tchers are also quite sotong.
HEHES.
They even left out the inter-schools competition participation and honours in Carissa's report book.

Okay. Today, I shan't blog about things I learn today. Those are just too draggy.


Relived now.
I finally for one whole year, or make it two, said out most of whatever I want to bring out to my parents.
Hooray.
Well, since so many people say me and my parents relationship so pathetic, I'll see what I can do abt it.
I talked to my aunt. And yes, she rawkz.
Anw I don't wanna talk too much about family stuff. It will take up ONE WHOLE super duper luosuuo long post.


WELL BALANCED(:

And Mr Khusni. I love you.
Thanks for those sweet motivating inspiring advice and things you told me just now.
It gave me a clearer picture of what I want, what I can do, how I can improve.

LEADERSHIP((((:

Yupps.
Everyone.
Learn to be humble.
Lower down your status, get to know that person better.

wad a eww post.

I FINALLY DECIDED TO WAKE UP.
Finally.
THANK YOU CHERYL for using your WOW words to convince me.
Unlike Daniel, Cheryl's words mean so much to me.
Weees Great Sister.
And Daniel, don't be too upset. You tried your best. But with this type of matters of the heart, awws. gals are better. anw. Daniel thanks for telling me to REST.
You convinced me to rest. Cheryl didn't
So you are SUPER too.X))

Now, I shall start doing the things I never done in such a long time.

Daniel, MX is not in my mind anymore. I'm not considering her okay.

And and Tammie. She don't look as horrendous as I thought. Show you her pics tml.X)
And please DON'T slap me.
HEHESX)
My face has alrd enough horrible pimples alrd.

I'm sick.
I feel weak. I have a sore throat, running nose.
I can't walk. That's so fucked up luhs.
Grrs. That stupid wound.
Now, I can't shoot. For how long will my sufferings last!
I'm resisting. I'm not going to the doctor's.
It's a simple fast effective solution to all my troubles yet I don't want to go.
Arghs.

As usual, my weekdays are ALWAYS so filled with programmes.

Damn. REPORT BOOK TML.
By tml, my parents will know how badly, how so so so so so so so so horribly badly I've done.
I will seriously be the dead-est I've ever been I guess
Arghs.
Damn. No more going outs?
FORGET IT.
I ALRD AM SICK OF THIS HORRID BORING UNINTERESTING USELESS Life of mine alrd.

SONG QUAN reminded me of June Holis memories.
More lyk I blogged abt it and he remind me.
But,
MR NG IS LOVE <3 lots.
COKE WITH SALT at Safra.
Can FSC shooters still rmb?
Awwws. That was so sweet and caring of him.
He's leaving at the end of the year.
He spent a year here.
A year of his legacies.
He's done alot for our club.
Well, of course there are many people to thank.
But Mr Ng first.
A forceful handsome realistic down-to-earth guy whom set realisitc goals for the club.
He was there for most of us, not forgetting Ms Chan too.
The teachers are LOVE.
Yupps.
And those graduating seniors too.
Joannah. Song Quan. Chong Huan.
These I know only.
And the EOY Shooting Camp.
Weees
14Nov to 16Nov is it?
3D2N
The world's best photographer will take lotsa lotsa pics.
Maybe not? I'll try and I want.

I just felt like thanking Jia Hao now.
Well, thanks for telling me my old smile was lyk shit.
And thanks for teaching which of my experimental smiles are better.
Wees my smiles are nicer now I guess.
I wanna get rid of those pimples on my face can?
Awwws. Thet are such an eyesore and grrrs.
I must control. Do not scratch them lest I get scars like some of my fwens do.
And, I chanced upon some pics I took last year.
Ryan Ang did not seem to change a single bit but he sure does have a much better complexion then compared to now.

Now, I decided.
Do not save that much amount money on food anymore.
Recently, I seem to take one meal a day only sometimes.
It's not typical for boys to do so right?
And I think I'm underweight now.
Awwws. Gain back one more kg and I shall maintain.
But I still feel I look fat when ppl say I'm like so thin or average lehs.
Am I influenced by Zoe or Felicia to lose weight?
Or, having so many thin gals fwens, I'm influenced by them?
And and. Kenneth is not as THIN as I thought though his chest is like ahem.
HEHESX))))
Jared's Horny.

And I wondered.
Leg muscles or leg fats are better.
Apparently I have so much leg muscles from the soccer.

Okay. Ms Lai told me that fats are better coz when you fall, less damage is done.
But, just that day, Ms Lai fell down the stairs and was admitted to the hospital.
At least the muscled leg jared ain't in hospital.
So what's the conclusion?
SOCCER is SUPERB since it can help me strengthen my muscles.

But, one more thing.
Mr Yeo once said that we should stretch our muscles before and after sports.
That is to prevent our muscles from hardening or so as it might cause hamstring injury.
Well, it's so true. Just one month ago, I'm very sure I tore my hamstring.
A slight injury that kept me out from playing for a few weeks.

Really, medical attention is so not easily avaliable in Singapore.
Like when I fell during that captain's ball game, that wound.
It's now so hurting. Walking is a problem.
But I just do no know what to do.
I don't wanna visit a doctor just for it since all they will do is just give antibiotics and cream and tada- 50bucks?
Surely there is a simpler and more affordable solution right?
Educate the public on medical stuff luhs.!


Went to the China Trip presentation briefing at Safra Yishun just now.
Kenneth LiQing Rachel and I from our sch went.
Hmms. 3 AISS ppl went. 2 other gals from RGS is it? Totally duno. And one more gal who wore so shabbily. She looks so damn familar but can't seem to recall.
All I know her mum was so enthu and outspoken okay.

My dad, was like so comical.
First his chair and many other things followed.
My mum was like feeling so cold and left halfway, commenting that Coach Zhang is so luoso.
Who gave fuhua xinmin aiss and some other schs a talk that tym and made some sleep? Muhahahs.

*Kenneth's shoe sole came off and he was making a great deal of it and everyone were laughing like hell. What's so funny? I don't know. HHESX)*

Coach Zhang cut his hair! But, still as handsome, soft-spoken as ever.
Jia jiao lian is like as adorable, lady-like as ever.
Are they married? I thought they might be a good match?

Anw the China trip sounds rather dry.
But, as long as I'm going with friends, I do not mind.
I really want to shoot overseas and experience things there.
The temperature is scary.

And that stupid dumb China exchange trip by the sch. Grrr. Why did I even sign up for it in the first place? Now, I'm regretting along with Ryan.
With those gay, detestable, unfriendly people going, how am I gonna enjoy the trip!?
Oh. And the teachers are fucks too.
Yupps and as usual, there are more boys than gals.
24:8
Japan is the same okay. More gals.
WHYS WHYS?
This sch trip and CoachZhang's China trip clashes!
HOW HOW HOW!?
My parents are impressed.
Hmmms.

I've been shutting myself from the temptations of shopping for so so so so damn long now.
It's time now. I shall start jioing people out when I'm free.
But with my damn bad results, can I even go out anot!?
Awws. The bad effects of getting bad results.
Really, there are so much to learn in shooting.
The attitude towards things, ways on how to improve, how to manage time, how to be patient, how to work hard, how to understand things, etc.
All these I have learnt, just can't seem to be applied in studies.

Cheryl said I'm madly in love.
And the perfect person comes 8 or 9 or 10yrs later and not 14.
Well, I don't know.

There are people who looks like me other than YinWei.
Wees. At yishun. ty and von say de.
hmmms.
and such a small world that gavin knows kim.
hehes.

Manu and Bolton.
Sounds sounds tough.
But we beat them 3-1 last season is it?
I rmb Saha scored in that muddy pitch with a great finish?
Am I right?
Allardyce says he's wary of the impact Rooney can make.
Well, to me, I just don't see that consistency or the convinciation in manu that tells me that they can win many games.
To me, they are still unpredictable for the way they play.
To me, when I hear Arsenal or Chelsea play, I'm almost always sure they will win.
They seem strong.
I'm just honest with my opinions as a manu fanX))

I still have yet to burn all the Dvds for the people who went on Japan trip.
Lots of effort to be done.

I'm weak, really weak.
I'm lyk 63kg now.
I was 65kg just on Tuesday.
I mut must admit.
I've been eating so little.
Partly coz I wanna save money too.
And yupps. Sometimes, I'm just too lazy to buy.
It's like I nvr had to buy food myself for 14yrs.
Well, I've to LEARN to do so now.

Ytd's meeting was great.
Well, I went late since I had my lunch and took 180 there.
As usual, I forgot to press the bell and overshot.
So I took a slow stroll towards Daniel with my bacteri infested wound on my right leg.
Well, the camp organization SEEMS to be going well.
I hope it really is.
Glenn's idea of splitting up into groups seems to be a good one.
Only time will tell if it's a long term solution.

You gave me hope.
I'll accept those hope. I'll take it.
I'll see what I can do to make it beautiful again.
But right now, my brain is full of words I wanna tell you.

Sick.
My leg-that wicked wound. It now has a bacteria infection.
It hurts. But it hurts less than when I fell down into the drain.
Grrs. Having difficulty walking.

My throat hurts. I thought it was all from the shouting and when I bit my tounge two days ago.
Well, LiQing, Daniel said it's all due to my leg injury.
I don't want it to be amputated.
But, what can I do to my wound.
There's absolutely nothing to apply.

My parents are such failures.
Useless.
Grrrs. Can't be bothered with them.

I scored a great long range goal ytd.
That isn't gay.
You fucker. Pls I hate you together with my fwens.
Ewww.

I want to col and forget all my troubles.
For once, I'm down. Just no more energy to fight all those damn things in life anymore.

iloveyou.

What a day.
Plently to blog about.
Well, mixed emotions now.

The prize presentation this morning was so draggy.
So many prizes to give out.
And Mr Loh took 4trophies at once.
He's humble.
He's done himself proud and proved to Mdm Oen that he can be useful to the school.


I made a promise to myself ytd.
That was to win something for Mr Khusni as a class.
And well, I told myself.
I was gonna win anything I can at all cost for him, making him proud for the last time.

Captain's Ball.
Yumiko. Yan Jing. Derek. Cherrie. CuiYun. Jared. HsienJuen.
YanMin, WeiChen.
We won 2G.
They were rough.
I don't wanna blog about them today since people have different views on it.
We then won 2D, followed by 2G again.

Here are some of the rules fyi.
-The team must pass the ball at least three times before they can score and they must pass to both genders or else even if they score, it will not be counted.
-The defender cannot enter the catcher's box. Failure to comply will result in a free throw at the side for the opposition.
-Not more than two players from each team can enter the semi-circle. Penalty, a free throw at the side for the opposition.

Every team broke all these rules plenty of times.
At least my team hardly broke any.

The street soccer was quite different from what I expected.
The place was smaller than I expected, the goal bigger than I expected too.
Don't wanna blog much about it too.
But that stupid rain.
When my team played, it rained and thus, we have to play golden goal.
It's a cruel way.
Won 1, Lost 1
Disappointed with the weather, organizers.
But, soccer requires alot of cencentration.
One small mistake by HIM in his area he is supposed to command cost us a loss.

Thank you everyone for that concern on my foot.
Dozens and dozens of people asked about it.
But DOROTHY wees. I LOVE YOU SISTER!
The pics are NICE.

The team cooperation, spirit and teamwork that 2E were capable of was displayed today.
Basketball. Our class is 2nd in sec2.
Good Job.
Soccer, 3rd for 2A, 2E combine.

A new scar on my leg. Thanks(:

I realised Kenneth these days, on msn, replies more, type stuff he doesn't type in the past.
He doesn't hahs or lol in the past.
Now, he ahahahhahs.
But still, I prefer hehehehesing.


Anw, I never knew my voice was so great, leaving such a great impression.
Wees.

And I lost weight, but not the fats.
I lost about 1kg this week.
Marvellous achievement.
Lose more weight and I'll be underweight.

These days, I sleep late.
And definately the bad effects are coming out.
I'm so tired, lethargic these days.
My eyes are not sharp and the muscles arnd the eyes are very tensed up.
Bad for my shooting too.
Jared must TRY to sleep EARLY.

Please don't interrogae me you guys.
I hate it okay.
WHY WHY WHY.
Can't you use a differeny approach.
Grrrs.

I love you still.

I love her
I still do so.
Wks have past.
I can't get over her.
I tried means and ways to forget her, even using some silly methods until Cheryl and Tammie knocked sense into me.
I was blinded by love they say.
You are just the right girl for me.
But was I the right guy?
I believe I was. They believe I was.
There are many things I want to tell you and really talk to you about.
But, I decided to keep it to myself.

I could guess the dilema and problem you are facing now.
They felt that what I was thinking seems correct.
Anw. Well, just telling you all over again.
I love you for what you are.
And in this case, I loved you for your personality, it brought me so much crazyness but yet it's also your personality that causing me so much NUTS in my head now.
I'll keep my guess to myself till one day I could finally ASK.
But my guess only tells me one thing
You are the one, the perfect one.
What you are doing now,
is what I wanted from you. think about the future and stuff
And you used what I wanted from you to think so far ahead that you made a deicision.
If you feel it's better not to take the risk of losing such a great bond, and the things I could give you, then well I respect you.
I alrd am.
I ain't giving you any pressure and stress anymore.
Seeing that you have a contented, very happy life now with your friends makes me feel I made the right choice, and that I feel I do not wan to start it all over again to disrupt your happy life.

I want you. And yet I rather not have you for you to continue your happy life.
I hope I will not regret it.
But, I know I will. And I know. You will be in my head and part of my heart for a long long time to come.

Meanwhile, I need a way for me to forget my ONE AND ONLY true love.
It's you.
My ten lettter word. I wish to say it to you.

Today.
No thinkin at all.
Restricted myself from thinking today.
But what a day it was today. SO wasted.

Only in the morning, RyanGoh said he can't go.
Okay. So I met You Ren at the busstop at 12.
We waited outside school till 1210, went to have lunch.
Waited outside school at 1240.
We saw Patrick running off, he said NCC drumming ends at 1.

Okay. So I decided to wear on my PE shirt and enter school.
Found the drummers in the hall.
So, I waited. Waited. I was so fedup okay.
I was like on the third floor looking and standing there foolishly for 20mins till training end.
And when it finally ends, they had to keep the drums.
I helped carry like 8 drums up two stories to the Aesthetics Room.
TIRING okay. People like Yu Wei shouldn't have much of a problem.
Anw, so I thought we could finally go.
But wait. The NCC people have a debrief in the canteen by Mr Ong and that senior.
Met CuiYun in the canteen. Awws then Tammie finally came down too.
I ran when I saw them.
Lots of drama took place next as the NCC people finally were free to leave.
It was 2.
An agonizing 2hr wait for me and YouRen and YouRen was like standing sout school.
People must be thinking who is that silly guy standing there.

So YouRen and YuWei and the other NCC guys went to have lunch.
I went to mcd with Tammie, MingYong, CuiYun.
Done with the proposal so quick.
Of course, thank the HORNY leader,JARED
And I finally knew today.
I was a great person for one to slapX))

Sky was dark.
After so much contreversy, I went to play soccer with YuWei at the Rulang court.
Less than 10mins later, it rained.
It's like so stupid okay.
Grrr my whole day wasted.
So bought a Slurpee.
((DANIEL. I love it.!))
Watched a movie at my place.
Made two trips to the small space near the gate at the ground floor.
Passed the walkie talkie to them.
Tried to fix it but well, I have no idea what Kenneth has done to it so far.
He's so rough with Daniel's shells that tym.
But it's okay. I trust him.

Was a rather boring day.
That stupid RAIN and that stupid NCC TRAINING.



A desperate attempt to try to burn as many dvd of the Japan pics as I can is going on now.X)
I must say. I'm doing it for free okay.
But can I collect money from them for my efforts.
It's really a very troublesome job.
And so far, THREE DVDs screwed up. I used non-rewritable disc and it's gone.
I wasted so much of my dad'd hardearned money on people's "dun care abt you" requets.
and that guy. awws. i rather be speechless.

I can't be the nice guy I was anymore.
I changed my mindsest.
This is for THEM.
Not her.

Sports Carnival tml.
I'm really spending alot of time organizing this team of mine.
I take full responsibility for everything that goes on.
I have a game plan and I alrd told the players what I expect from them.
I have absolute confidence in them
I must and desperately WANT and WILL WIN this soccer match for Mr Khusni

What a class 2E can been.
It's like a rollercoaster class.
So many good and bad things happened in this year

-We produced a top few in the level student- Yong Jia.
-We managed to achieve second best for the Bazaar.

-We or rather ME in a very suay manner, broke that fucking window pane that fucking kill Mr Lee and brought endless amount of bad memories of that incident. Shan't talk about the consequences.
-We are so so so noisy, create problems for teachers.
-Our class is so dirty. We always piss off teachers.eg Mrs Tay.

THERE ARE MANY MANY MANY MORE.

But well, this has been a quite good year right.
Lots of humour from Mr Khusni

And Mdm Hoo and Mdm Siti.
Okay. I shan't critise or praise them.X)

My report book.
I know my results are bad.
My parents will be so so so so so so so so so(X100000) OMG.
hehes.

I wanan take lots of pics tml.

My phone is lagging these days.
I don't delete my msgs.
It's bursting. 400+ alrd.

<3 HAN QING.
<3 KENNETH
<3 DANIEL
as great and truly remarkable friends.

Tammie too.
Samuel.

These are the more impactful friends.

I'll be on stage tml to collect prize!

Too much of everything is no good.
This one, everyone think of it. You will agree if you think sensibily and with a open mind.

And thus, small little tiny happiness here and there in my life adds up to be reasonably happy life I have now.

I keep thinking.
There are TWO so HUMONGOUS problems I'm facing now In my life.
There are two of the bigegst I ever experienced and both came at the same time.
I have to make some really big deicisions that I do not know what impact it will have on my life now and in future.
I have to sort out SO many thoughts and reason out everything.

I think it's too much for me.
I'm gonna be NUTS soon.
More than Lvl6. It will be like Lvl15 or 100.
They might be right.
I THINK TOO MUCH
I try to handle everything myself.
I act tough and happy and calm when I might not be. I might be panicking like hell inside.
My mind is really very confused now.
I know nothing
I get my facts, thinkings all wrong.
I used to have a simplier mind.
I can't express myself well enough with my weak English. I wish I can improve on it.
I try to pick up points here and there from him or here.
And the end product, is me going totally nuts.
I'm sure if I think as much as I'm now, I might end up in the Mental Hospital
I might. I can see it happening.
What can I do now?
I don't even know how to write what I'm thinking now.
It's just so hard to express myself.
The world seem to complicating.
Now, one single thing leads to another.
I think about just ONE small issue,
then while in the search of looking for a reason or a answer for everything
This leads to my mind breaking down like hell.
Right now, at this second,minute,
I'm seeing myself edging towards a Kenneth or a Daniel
It's frightening.
I want some time to really un-think myself.
Back to a simple Jared I was in sec1. MAYBE?
No. That's not what I want.
Me. I want to be involved in everything.
I feel so super that I feel I can handle everything, physically, mentally when I might not be up to it or not being able to handle it.



""""everyone has their own flaws,
no one is perfect.
so why not appreciate their good points
instead of critisizing their bad points?""""
Makes any sense???


Now, every single sentence people say, makes me think like hell when in the past, it won't have such effect. I was much simplier back then
It's a disturbing fact.
In a push for being more matured or what, I have become liddat.
What am I now.?
A total failure

I'll get rid of as many distractions from my life from now on.

Jared is a desperate guy now.
He's lost.
He's living life aimlessly.

Should I visit a counsellor as adviced by my good friends?
Hmmms
I still feel I can handle everything myself.
This is a wrong attitude.
Okay.
I just don't feel like continuing anymore


A post with no beginning and no ending and no conclusion.
Just for me venting my fustrations.

Believe it or not,
I'm shy.
Believe it or not,
I do save money. And I save more than those people who claim I don't save money at all, splurge as I wish, and can get more money from my parents.

Anw. SO stucked up at home today.
Well, Reina told me she can't go like so late into the night.
Then, Glenn says he can't go in the morning.
So, it's like 11am, so late, how to find people to accompany me!?
Grrs mans.
My day is screwed. So hornyly bored.
I can't even be bothered to buy food when I'm starving, ready to collapse anytime.
Arghs.

Okay.
A very boring day.
Shooting meeting and China rehersal.
It was pathetic. No laptop. No dance beat of ReachOutForTheSkies.
Forgot the moves. HsienJuen, Geraldine, Sharlyn sing real great.
But it can't be said the same for Bo Can. His deep voice made Ryan laughed lyk hell.
HEHESX)
and I cut my hair too
Reina said it was VERY ugly while Glenn, Tammie said he was nice
It rained in the afternoon.
And so, there were lots os FLIES flying arnd.
Above Kenneth's bag(contains fruits), Rache;'s hair, LiQing's hair and mine too!
The flies really freaked me out okay.
And Daniel kept fooling me.
And Carissa Daniel kept tickling me. Awwws.
After shooting meeting, Trenna Rachel Kenneth Daniel LiQing me went to Jp.
I was like starving. Went kopitiam then Banquet.
ClayPot chicken riceX))
Walk arnd. Rather bored and tired alrd.
Took pics pics pics!!
Weees~! World's best photographer is back. !
=DDDDDDDDD
hehehehs..

ManUtd 2-0 Lvpool.
All on the New Paper. Lousy reports luhs.
All those experts are lyk talking crap, boring stuff.

Awwws. I want more SLEEP.

And I reasoned out my thoughts alrd.
Tammie, Cheryl.
Thanks for knocking so much sense in me.
I know what I really want now.
I will do it all over again.

And my phone.
Makes me sick of sms-ing.
Coz. It's so DIFFICULT to type!!!
ARGHS.
HEHESX)))

What a weekend for me.
It's the sweet friends life.
I love it.
My life with less time with family is a life I want to have
I feel, those people who spend most of their time with their family are less matured.
They experience less. Eg. Those horny ppl in our class,Patrick,WeiRong,Daniel,Royston.
Ppl lyk Jonathan, me, Ryan, spend more time with friends thus are more matrued.


*Manchester United Football Club*
or Red Devils
Anw, the crowd at Old Trafford was 75,828 - the largest in the history of the Premiership.
They are superb.
They outmuscled Liverpool. One BIG point I noticed during the match.
I want to specially praise Evra and Fletcher.
Evra was strong. He is now really settled down and is really a good defender or a player like Vidic.
Fletcher. His game is now much more matured.
I could still recall when he was still very young. Manu were short in Midfield. Fergie called him on from the reserves. He played many games and even him, at the end of the season said he was surprised with the number of games he played.
He still looks like a kid, much like Solskjaer.
But, he plays real well. He is quite physically strong too.
He was up with Alonso all day in his right wings